i miss lai. i miss lai. i miss lai. i miss lai. i miss lai!! there.

@ 10:45 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

"But everybody's changing And I don't feel the same"

Let me talk about what happened today before i update you about what happened yesterday. hai. today made me think. i actually have time to reflect about what happened. surprise surprise. Ha.

went back to deyi. actually suppose to go see all my teachers and wish them happy teachers day. but, in the end i see none of my teachers but got to see lots of my friends. it was kinda nice to see everyone. but i didn't see lai and san. miss lai so much. saw luyi! hehe..missed her too..but we didn't talk. just hug then i sorta went and join sivan lea. this is where all my thoughts come.

firstly, i want to say. i feel bad. 2 of my friends went through a rough patch recently and i wasn't there. i didn't even know until today. and they were the few who was there for me when my mum was sick last year. *sigh*

okie.here comes the draggy part. you know, when everyone saw each other they just hugged and hugged and hugged. somehow i feel dispatched. i have my share of hugging too. but it just seem different. how close am i actually to my secondary school friends?! friends i actually missed alot but when i see them, it feels weird. theres so much things i feel. but i dunno how to put it in words. they are just floating around in my head. cant seem to catch them. so, i am trying to phrase them as best as i can.

then, there are friends who i can talk to in sms and msn but then when it comes to real life. it seem as if i dont even know them. and, let me tell you, it not just one of them. theres a few. not a healthy sign. this shows how stupid i m in making conversation. bleh!

the bond between 4/10 is amazing. they practically have gethering once every few months and yet they still missed each other. my class?! 4/9? basically we have our difference andyeah, the bond in a cliques is strong but class spirit?! 'sce me?! what's that?! 208? well, this is what i really feel . i m the only idiot that still think that the bond still exist. everyone is involve with their upper sec class. i m the only idiot trying to organise a gathering where people will never want to go voluntarily. they will go out of duty. they will go just because i organised it. just because they dont want to make me feel mad feel that my effort was wasted. maybe thats not how they feel?! but thats how i feel. sorry if i offended anyone. its like everytime i send sms out to tell u guys got gathering. u guys just reply a date you are free. den thats it. hai. maybe u guys are busy organising your other class gathering!? hai.

hao le. i stop here ba. when i can think of ways to better express my thoughts swimming in my brain, i will blog again.

people i saw today: juan ling sivan pris saran susanto eddy ranjan kelvin cyn luyi yanwai gayathri shalini..

@ 9:32 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

national day: dress ur friend up as a tai tai. i m the friend. haha.

yong ming is suppose to be a superstar. he looks more like robo cop.=X



before geo lessons. i look spastic. i didnt bring hairband thats why my hair is tied. wonder why ber they all say its cute. ber u all sure u guys ok?! haha
@ 11:55 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i hate myself. i cant exactly say that i have a headache. its not slight. its not big. it just hurts in periods. it will hurt for awhile. no pain. and then hurt again. tried to do maths and finish tutorial 17. but when i stare at the paper. i cant seem to concentrate. i tried to remember differentiation. but i cant. my brain refuse to do its usual ticking and scrying for information. it's like my brain has auto locked itself. tried to do DRQ for econs. stare at the data. nothing came up. i dont know what to highlight. i did highlight some. but i dont think they are relevant. i just highlight for the sake of highlighting. in the end, i did nothing productive today. i didnt do maths. i tried to do econs. but the answers are all wrong. 4 marks qns i give 2pt. hai. got a bad feeling i m going to get scolded by nandwani tomorrow. he will go "what are you trying to do? this is wrong ah..what were you thinking. not putting in effort."

hai. whats wrong with me?! i have enough slp. ample. more than necessary. i had 11hrs of slp! hai. so if my body wants to be sick. cant it get sick properly?! why torture me like that?! at least when i am sick i have a reason not to be able to think properly. liek that, how?! ah.. i better go bathe now. and try my luck with hw again. wish me luck.

@ 10:01 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

hey. i am surrounded but sick people. but i am not sick lehx. just tired. but thats not new. i am always tired. haha. pw written report due on monday. stress. anyway, friday went scrapbking with heli ber weilin and yuting. very fun. but i feel so helpless. cause everyone is so artistically incline. and mrs ong is so busy and i didnt/couldnt help her. know something? after calling her mrs ong for 4yrs, i dont know what to call her at home now. mrs ong or ying jie? ying jie sounds weird. haha.

anyway, i hate my maths lecturer. super embarrassing today. the people sitting both in front and behind of me is super noisy. so she scolded them twice. but everytime she scold right, she like looking at my row like that. then i m sitting at the outermost sit lor. everyone staring. kaox.

i cannot believe i m saying this. but i hate the councillors. why?! during maths lecture they were gabbing and talking non-stop. then when the lecturer scold them right? they thought it wasnt them lor. u know how i know de? cause at the end of the lecture right? one councillor actually asked, " Just now the teacher wasnt scolding us right?!" urgh!*rolls eyes* pls look ard lor. whatever and where can see another row of councillors?! how dumb and thick headed can they get?!

then i dun most of the lecture. hai. need to reread it tomorrow. had pw meeting today. all of us was stoning and working at a amazing slow speed. haha. anyway, nothing much le. nowadays i pretty emotionless. thats why my blog getting shorter. i nv think of what happen and how i feel about events that happen anymore. happy sad? no time to pick. hai. other than anger, i got no feelings. hai. sadness huh?!

@ 1:11 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

aRrhzz..it's thursday(well, to be politically correct its already friday). the weekend is near! i love thursdays, fridays and saturdays! hate sundays and the rest of the week. why? because from sundays onwards, i will be busy with homework. whereas from thursday to saturdays, everything slows down. i have no complain anymore about fridays being a useless day. just because of the time table on friday, we can have a more relaxing thursday! right?!

*sigh* everyone is sick. charissa is still sick. heli sick le. weilin like got cough!? diaox. everyone getting sick why not me? i only have night sickness (the opposite of pregnant ladies' mornign sickness)..i feel achy all over at night. then sometimes have sore throat and runny nose. but in the morning it will be all gone! hai..then it will repeat all over again. *sigh* if want sick then let me be sick properly mahx..why like that? dotx.

school was normal today. i like miss tang alot. hehe.. she is a very understanding and nice teacher. today, she let us go off early cause she couldnt get the keys to the computer. then she cancelled our geo test which is schduled next thursday because she think that we have worked hard enough le. hai. where have teacher like that de? miss tang, you rock!

you know after ystd's discman incident, my mum went and bought a discman for my brother. not only did he not aprreciate it and say thanks. he screamed at my mum and say he dont want. kaox. my mum was quite "lost" i guess. cause she bought the discman already but now my brother dont want. so i think she dont what to do about it. so you know what?! i bought the discman from my mum. yupx. then the discman my bro took from my bag ystd? i gave it back to my mum. hai. i guess my mum probably feel hurt by my brother too. i mean wont you if u were in her shoes? i know i will. my brother needs to learn to respect people. especially my mum and dad and my sis. cause when he is rude to them ah, they just let him be lor. cant he see how gd they are treating him? diaox.

anyway, i better go slp le. my right eyes is getting itchy. i still nd to wear contact lens tomorrrow.

@ 1:10 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i seriously hate my younger brother. i have censored myself so that i wont scold some vulgarities. i seriously dont know what went wrong in his education. did he miss out on the part about civic moral, CME or something?! actually i was going to do maths on my bed till i fall asleep at 12 just now. but due to my brother, my mood was destroyed.

do you want to know what happened?! well, my brother went to my school bag and took out my discman without asking me. thats not all, he threw my ear piece on the floor. and when the ear piece is on the floor, he didnt bother to pick it up. so, when he "roll" here and there on his roller chair, my poor earpiece got crushed and crushed and got tangled up with the "wheels" of the chair. even then he didnt care. idiot!

never mind. he didnt have the decency to ask me if he can have the discman lor! he just take. then because i didnt know he took it, i was searching everywhere for it! i thought i dropped it on the bus when i was on my way home from school. when i asked if anyone saw my discman. he just asked me to shut up! cause he was afraid my mum will wake up and scold him for slping late.

so, when i find out, i asked him NICELY why he took the discman without asking me. you know what he said?! he scolded me a bitch. and say the discman was my mum since i didnt pay for it. if you people was in his situation, you guys will apologise right?! nt scold the person right? i hate him. he says colin from the amazing race is a jerk. well, i think he can go and be brothers/buddies with him le. cause they sux! worst! i was kinda "shouting" at him and telling him that if he nd the discman he shld ask nt just take and it was his fault he shld apologise when my mom woke up. she heard all the fight. but do you know what she did?! she didnt tell him to apologise to me. instead, she asked me to shut up. oh great! so i am just supposed to shut up and let him scold me bitch?! my dad even worse. he was there all along. he just shut up. great

no one bother to tell him whats right and wrong lor. he just do as he please in the house. when he eats in the living room, he just leave the bowls, wrappers everywhere. biscuit crumbs are everywhere too. when my mum ask him to take them to the baisin so she can wash, he screams at her. and my mum just let him! what the. am i the only one that think that there's something wrong with his so called "principles"? i seriously cant stand him le. i feel like punching him. everytime he does something like being rude to me and etc, i tell him nicely, he will kp calling me a bitch and say he's surprised i have friends and that i must be putting an excellent act in sch so that you guys will like me! AAHHHH!!! if you guys replace all the seriously and etc with fuckingly, you will know how pissed i m with him. i feel like hitting something right now. i hate my family sometimes. no one corrects my brother. he is like the king of the house. everyone even my parents tolerate his rudeness. AHHHH!!!

anyway, school was excellent today. i lost my whole set of econs notes on efficiency! i was suppose to transfer them into ECN today. but i cant find the stack of worksheet! hai. my life sux. i seriously hate my brother. he is a jerk. and dont tell me its just a phase he is going through. well, if it is then it must bloody long. its been going on for more than 3yrs. urgh. bedtime. i havent finish maths. die.

@ 1:05 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

kinda late and i still havent do maths. but, hey, blogging has become part of my life already. sorta. haha. just finish compiling survey. hands so tired. then just reposted our online survey. dont ask. just call me huishan the wonder survey girl. haha. anything you wanna ask about survey?! ask me! haha. dotx.

today had lessons as usual. nothing different. heli was sick and went home early. i hope she is okay now though. haha. tomorrow have the reversi competition. hope i dont win and get kick out in the first round. like that i no need crack my brain over how to move and yet still can get representation points! haha. nonetheless, i just hope that i will have fun. then had pw. mr nandwani gave us our feedback. nt too bad i guess. but our written report sux like hell. 2 words. dont ask.

haha..anyway, peer counselling was not bad today. everything is not bad today huh?!haha. i think i got nothing to say le. i m pretty much un-emotional right now. haha. so. thats it. ciao!

@ 11:59 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Mrs Ong's Farewell


@ 8:58 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

damn. got super big headache. its been going on for the whole day. it been like about 3 to 4 years since i have such a bad headache or even any headache at all. now i feel like vomitting. damnit. but i got no fever. so no mc. super pain. its irritating me. just now i didnt do anything cause of it. its like my brain has two parts (like tectonic plates) then they are converging(ie moving towards each other) then they are pushing against one another to go upwards. if u study geo u will know what i mean. so my brain is gonna burst anytime. urgh. help. but i still wish i can get sick enough and skip school maybe on wednesday cause tomorrow quite important.

damn. still feel like retching. today finally ate mr bean!! haha. *bliss* oh yah. had soccer today. i seriously suck at it. i cant direct my ball. i want give to grace in the end the ball ended up to the person next or next next to her. but then i think its quite okay ba. maybe its because i cant play thats why i find soccer quite sian. but watching soccer is never sian especially when c.ronaldo is there. hehe. diaox.

anyway. today quite okie. no pw lessons so lack during that period. then got gp. half the people skipped it. then the lessons after that my class got lotsa people missing. why?! cause they dont feel like going and why not skip it when theres a "fool-proof" reason?! you know, just say you went to donate blood and no one will ask. though my class some, seriously got go lahx. they are my idol. cause they got the guts to skip lessons lahx. haha. not that i m encouraging it=X. starting to sound like a nag. anyway, no one asked for my opinion.

then after chinese me heli ber and ingrid stayed back and lacked and chatted till bout 4.10 i think. haha..then i took bus buy mr bean and then reach home at 5.10..then stayed in my dad shop till about 5.45 came home and did this did that till 6.30..then after that tried to do homework. but my head cant take it. so i just stone. stone until 8. now i online chatting with ingrid jamilah and heli about the ten sentences to describe our teachers. ber and weilin!! where are you guys?!! haha

so, thats it for today. below is some funny and weird encounters i met.

weird/funny encounter 1: a grp of zhonghua guys probably ard sec2 were talking in a frog like voice about girls. not abt girls in general. but about how they want their girlfriends to be slim and model like. worst, they were talking about how gd they are at flirting. they are talking super loud. or should i say croaking super loud. i was like rolling my eyes all the way. they are not even decent looking. so flirting?! i dun think so. i think they are just bragging so that the cedar girl behind them can hear. cause they kinda stopped after she alighted. guys!!*rolls eyes* can u imagine susanto, kelvin and eddy they all doing that?! haha..super funny. i m sure all guys got go thrugh this stage. ask your guys friends!! haha..i m sure they will be blushing till their face super red.

weird/funny encounter 2: standing at the bus interchange waiting for the 261. the bloody sun is shinning at me straight. so i was super hot. so is everyone queing for the bus. then this old couple came. they took out an umbrella and used it in the interchange. super funny. why? cause when i was young, i used to do that. haha. then bus came, they walk with the umbrella still open all the way until they board the bus. aww...so sweet. the old uncle still help the auntie close the umbrella. diaox. come to think of it this encounter not that weird or funny. kk. thats all for today. ciao!

@ 8:45 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

hai. the weekend is over so fast. shouldnt have went out on sat. yesterday went out with ber charissa and yuting. then find out i actually quite sua ku. i cant recognise one shopping mall from the other. and worse of all, i cant find my way back to the mrt station. worst of all, i was not in the mood to go out. so i was sian sian all the way. then came home, spend bout 1.5hrs in my dads shop. then came home. by then, i was super tired. so i watched amazing race and friends, bathe and slept from 11 to 1. woke up, brought maths in to do on bed. but fell asleep again till 12 today. i seriously conked out. i didnt even wake up when my watch beeped at 6.13 as it always does. or when my brother switched on the tv. wow.

then woke up and realised i have so much homework piled on top of me. die. woke up, tried maths. damn, i spent 1hr on a qns. kept making stupid mistakes and looking at wrong numbers. then ard 2 went to makan. came back at 4. more maths. till 8.30pm. but i only completed tutorial--vectors 2. sian. then had dinner till 9. listen to the national day rally while eating. then 9. more homework. econs this time. great. so far only completed the advantages and disadvantages of monopoly. still have the essay and the ECN part. kaox. another late night.

i am showing signs of flu. hope that it will come! i need a break. hai. sian. alot of short sentences today huh?! sigh. oh yah, yesterday was on the bus then this auntie kept giving the disapproving look and staring at my hair. kaox. whats the biggie?! then maybe i think too much ba. but ystd super suay. take mrt home alone right?! so just stand there and wait. then a couple came and start doing PDA. then i move. then wait. then another came next to me. dotx. luckily train came. if not i will just scream and pull my hair out. this weekend sux so far. i think its gonna to continue to sux too for whats left of it.

i think my character super different from what it was in secondary school. super different. good or bad? i have been evaluating this too. more about it tomorrow or when i am free. for now. ciao!

@ 10:26 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

@ 12:36 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

fridays. aRhzz..there's something nice about them. they signify the end of the week!!! haha..but not much difference. weekends are mainly devoted to homework, pw and etc. it's just that you dont have to wake up early during weekends. *bliss* hehe

today lotsa people never come again. dotz. its either theres a serious plague going on in class (how come i didnt catch it?) or people just feel too stress out by the events of the week that they are too lazy to come and endure a useless friday where the only solid lesson is econs tutorial. face it, chinese do get boring, especially in that classroom. i fell asleep today. opps. *guilty*

had pw meeting after school with ber and ingrid. did our written report. not bad. then ingrid left school. while me and ber stayed back and did the contribution list till 4 plus. actually, we were waiting for nandwani to reply. but by the time we received his reply its already 4 plus. but at least we didnt watse our time. does this make sense? i dont think so. so if you dont understand just skip it k?!

then i came home. wanted very much, super badly to eat mr bean but it was raining cats and dogs, kittens and puppies that i didnt go buy. no umbrella and i dont want to get wet. though i have to say the prospect of getting sick cause i was in the rain is very tempting. haha. prove how much i "hate" school huh?!

yeah. then had a chat with lai lai. lai lai i miss you sooo much!! spp, i miss you guys too(esp sivan.havent seen you since the farewell)! lai, havent see you for like 6mths?! must catch up someday k?! and hopefully some of us in our grp is attched and owe us a pizza hut treat. *winks* some stupid thingy/"pact" we made. and you guys are wrong! i am nt the first one to get attached. i m not even attached now! haha. =p told ya! damn. miss you guys so much!!

haha. better go sleep le. tomorrow have chinese block test. must sleep so that my creative juice will flow and i can produce better compo and results. jiayou shan!

@ 11:59 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

*sigh* finally it's night tiem again. everything seem to have slow down and i feel so much more calmer. it's something to do with the atmosphere and there's no more zoom-zoom sound of cars, just the occassional bus passing by. aRhzz..my lullaby. hehe.

today lots of people never come. class seem rather quiet. after school had PW meeting. but, there the meeting is between me and bernice only. peihua was sick and ingrid has to go little india to do her geo tutorial 6. so, the both of us just sat in the lab and compiled our written report. our survey analysis and case studies missing. i think we are not going to apply the case studies this time round. phew. the meeting lasted till 4.40pm so not that bad.

tomorrow have pw meeting before chinese. gonna take peihua and ingrid's part and paste them in. then have to write conclusion and do our minutes. i havent compile finish the survey. die! haha. after this i better go pack bag first.

nothing much happen today lor. had fun in school with yuting weilin heli bernice charissa. without them i think school might be super boring today le. and half the time. hai. teachers' day gift like no one willing to pay. but i will still continue to do de. cause i am not sure if i will still be around next year in ny to give a gift to nandwani.

if you got notice, i am trying to reduce and curb my old habit of writing/putting lotsa dots in between sentence. haha. okie, i am tired. better go.

@ 12:33 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

this is a super not good time to blog. i cna get killled just by being awake at this time of the night. but what can i do?! i have seriously no time to blog or think about anything except geography just now. i "swear" if anyone dares to mention case studies and the impacts of tourism to me within the next 7hrs, i am going to come up with 101 ways to make them regret that they ever did. So you have been warned.

today went to eat yoshinoya with heli ingrid yuting and charissa. shh..that was actually my first time. hehe..but i think it kinda sux. cause its like chicken rice.just that the rice is special in a sticky kind way. haha. so san cyn sivan and mabel, next time, we got another place to go makan le. no need always go mac or kfc or pizza hut le. hehe..but first we have to go jack's place, the shop with the cute fries in bishan and swensens right?!

then after that went to MPH alone to buy storybook. hai.thats like my only source of relaxation. kinda sad right?! my relaxation is still related to books. haha..and again, its the first time i walk around a shopping mall alone. wow..i have grown up huh?!=) yupx, reached home about 3plus. took a small nap till 4 and from then on geography all the way till now. Well, except for the small break from 8.30-9.30. i watched charmed. it was superb. haha..

yeah, thats about it. i better go sleep le.

@ 1:24 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i hate my brother. if you cant stand gross thing i think you better stop reading. anyway, he always choose the weirdest of weird time to shit. yes, to pass motion. he doesnt shit in the morning or in the afternoon. he always shit during dinnertime, after dinnertime or better, right after or during the time when i am bathing.

And the aroma of his shit is superbly intoxicating. if i bring his green plant in, i m sure it will wilt instantly. why? cause he only shit like twice or once a week. so, its super disgusting when you have to smell stinky smell when you are eating. and what i hate most is when i have just finish bathing and he shits. the moment i step out of the bathroom, all my shampoo and shower foam smell all gone. damit.

last thing, when you ask him to spray air freshner, he will scream at you because he say that it cause nose cancer and it stinks. look whose talking.

@ 10:35 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i hate my brother. if you cant stand gross thing i think you better stop reading. anyway, he always choose the weirdest of weird time to shit. yes, to pass motion. he doesnt shit in the morning or in the afternoon. he always shit during dinnertime, after dinnertime or better, right after or during the time when i am bathing.

And the aroma of his shit is superbly intoxicating. if i bring his green plant in, i m sure it will wilt instantly. why? cause he only shit like twice or once a week. so, its super disgusting when you have to smell stinky smell when you are eating. and what i hate most is when i have just finish bathing and he shits. the moment i step out of the bathroom, all my shampoo and shower foam smell all gone. damit.

last thing, when you ask him to spray air freshner, he will scream at you because he say that it cause nose cancer and it stinks. look whose talking.

@ 10:35 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

super tired (but then again, when am i not super tired?!)..haha..pe was quite fun though but super tiring. we learnt how to trap the ball if i nv remember wrongly..then got chest de, thigh de and foot de..haha..me and grace tried to use chest but both of us ended up injured.=p haha..then we had a game where there's 4 goal posts and we are suppose to score as many goals as we can..but obviously, my grp lost..diaox..then we have blocked 3 penalty lorx..but grace took all three..superb! she rock! then we are allowed to have a penalty shot against the others so obviously grace took it cux she blocked those goals..but she miss lor..in the end the score was 4-3-2-1..dot

yupx.after school today have pw meeting at coffee bean..then meet till like 5.30..then come home..reached ard 6.30..sian..then did maths tutorial 16 but onli did 2 qns..cause i seriously dont know how to do the rest.. the consequence of dozing off and on during lectures..bleh! have to listen liao.xxyup..then i had dinner watch friends till now..

yupx, i better go le..must go read maths notes..tomorrow have maths test..haix..i just feel like getting pamper now..

@ 10:41 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

hai..i am super stress now..this week got 3 projects due: geo term paper, geo tutorial 6 and pw's written report..hai..just now had a super short nap and when i woke up, i felt like crying..when i woke up ystd nite, i got the same feeling..sigh, the last time felt this way was last year during middies..i seriously need a break from school now sia..tomorrow have soccer..its fun..but the thought of lugging shoes, towels and undergarments to school is such a turn off..

anyway, today quite dull. woke up at 12noon expecting to go and interview a plastic surgeon at 3 but it turn out that he was busy and couldnt make it. So i brush my teeth and went online to search for materials for geo term paper. Super hard. Then went to have lunch with my mum, brother and sister at the makrt till 3.30. Came back actually want to do more geography and PW de..but my sis wanted my dad to send her to collect her "poratble" piano at her music school. Which means that i have to go and help my mum in the shop so i went and read the "Sunday Times" there until they come back at around 5.30.

Then from 5.30 onwards i plonk myself in front of the computer and did PW till now. It was so hard to pick the right material to use and it took my entire day. Hai. Tomorrow have to chiong for maths spring on tuesday. And tuesday and wednesday have to chiong for geography term paper.Thursday and Friday have to chiong for Chinese test on Saturday. Oh, and i think i have to meet charissa yuting ber and grace one day after school for geo tutorial 6. Seems like i have my work cut out huh?! Hope that next next week it will be a more relaxing one..

Anyway, when i was in my dad's shop just now, a guy a few years younger than me i think came and wanted to buy FHM. No biggie right?! but he was super embarrassed. he wanted to pay without bringing in the magazine but my mother insisted so he brought it in. And then he paid. all this while i didnt notice cause i was reading the "Sunday Times" until my mother asked me why was the magazine so expensive when the guy was outside mounting his bike. I looked up and saw he was holding FHM. at the same time, he looked up and saw me looking. Guess what?! He quickly looked away and peddled away le..by then i was laughing so hard..haha..

why are guys so embarrassed about this kinda stuff?! haha..last time, a guy came and wanted to buy condom but i was sitting there in the cashier. he didnt dare until my dad came in and i went out to take a look at the magazine rack did he take. But when he was paying for it, i came in and he just hurried my dad and grabbed the stuff and left.LOL. everytime i see this kinda ting i just feel like laughing..

Cant they just stop being embarrassed? haha..i better go le..i can hear my bed calling me! hehe..nitey..

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@ 11:15 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i am so tired..have been studying for geo ever since 3.30..that is about 7.5hrs?! kaox..and i dont think i got absorb half the thing i have read..i would have spend time to put them in my own words but no time!! its like 8 sets of lecture notes!! haha..horrible..i promise after tomorrow, i am going to study one set of notes each day if i can..so that i will and hopefully will score well in my tourism test..haix..i hope tomorrow's DRQ will be easy..

school was quite normal today..well, other than the econs spring test lor..haix..everytime i also like that..i can understand his lessons in class! but when it comes to tests, i will just totally forget..like today test..haix..i hope i will at least pass...haix..i totally screwed up the last qns..shan ah..if you continue like that how are you going to get promoted..haix..

anyway, jerold say tomorrow they are going to take their o'level chinese results..and he is super worried..haiyo..son, you can do it de! haha..anyway, saw him this afternoon when i was on the bus with charissa..then i was like, " EH! thats my son!" then everyone was like staring lor..diaox..must think i m a young mother?! diaox..cant they use their brain abit?! look out of the window lor..the people on the streets are all teenagers! so how can i have a son who's a teenager?! well, thats possible lah if i gave birth at 5 maybe..haha..diaox...

haole..i think i better go slp le..i know its kinda early but i tell you, by the time i packed, i will feel insecure about geo then i will take some time reading my note card and then i drink milk brush teeth..by the time already 12.30 le!! haha..good nite! wish me luck for geo test tomorrow k?!

@ 11:06 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i hereby declare that project work also known as PW is seriously bad for our brain cells..after one day of pw meeting, i think i can say that me, ingrid, bernice and peihua are all brain dead! agree?! haha..but anyway, had fun today! we chatted, did our project, got a free interview session with a surgeon, and makna a lot of junk food..hehe..

so, came home at about 6.15pm..then sat in dads shop to talk to him till about 7.10pm..hmm..between the time of 7.15 to 7.59, i have no idea what i did..probably stoned in front of the computer..so when i was about to start my geo tutorial 5, i have a sudden craving for chocolate so i went to the fridge to look for my half eaten cadbury bar but it was gone!!!!!!! haha..thats when i came online and left that msg..haha..hmph!!

hahah..then from 8 to 9.45 i did my geo and had my dinner..hahah..my brain quite slow cause of all the dead brain cells so until the time i bathe, i onli completed one whole qns of geo!! sadness...hai..just finished qns 2..dont think i will do qns 3..i m soooo tired...going to bed by 12! my aim today!!

hai..tomorrow have to mug for geo DRQ test on thursday..so i wont be availabe for anything from 2-10pm k?! if you guys see me online, pls pls scold me or ask me to go study k?! i seriously cannot afford to fail anything at all! hai..yupx..thats all for today ba!! hehe.. below are some interesting quote i found in the book i borrowed from NYJC de library

" Knowing what it's really like to be madly in love with someone who's madly in love with you is a very rare experience.."

" If there's magic between you, it doesn't matter where you are..the simplest place can seem like a paradise"

kinda corny huh?! but quite true right?! haha



@ 11:36 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

somebody ate my chocolate!BIG MISTAKE! haha..

@ 7:59 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

haha..said i would write a happy entry for once right?! haha..eh..dont think its possible..hehe..i m just so tired

tomorrow have project work meeting at bernice house at 11..feel kinda guilty to say this but i seriously dont feel like having any meeting tomorrow cause i am so sick of it..i just cant seem to find some information that is useful..it is definitely going to reflect badly on my research part..hai..sian-ness..sorry guys! i know its kinda demoralising when one of the grp members is so down huh? sorry..i will get better de..i promise..i always do after i moan and complain abit..

hai..i was just wondering..when can i have a proper holiday?! a holiday where a) i dont have to mug for exams b) dont have to go to anywhere and discuss abt project and c) just have fun and are allowed to stone and rot! not much chance for rotting nowadays..hai..and i actually missed that..damnit..

i miss deyi sia..hehe..especially now when i feel like hitting something..hehe..remember in sec3 when i was so pissed by a person that i went around and ask 13 people to let me hit them..hai..where on earth can i find these kinda punching bags again?! haha..so tired..but i will persevere de! my hardwork will pay off! i will get promoted! just wait and see!

@ 11:59 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

my brother doesnt use his brain..okie..lets see if you guys know the answer to this..if your sister went to wash the plates but leave her msn on..then theres a conversation window thats flashing..do you a) happily log out of her account b) ask her if she still nds it before logging out or c) leave it, she will probably use it after washing the plates..if u choose (b) or (c), good for you! give yourself a pat on the back..if you choose (a), you can bloodily well go and bang your head against the wall..you can only not bang your head against the wall if and only if when your sis "scolds" you, you apologise..if not, pls join my brother..instead of feeling apologetic, he says i m being unreasonable..

urgh!! i hate MCPs more than any bad habits..but why am i so unlucky to be living with two MCPs under one roof!!?? bleh! hai...

@ 10:16 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

hmm..been kinda crappy and emotional for the past MANY entries..shall try to write aq happy one tomorrow!!!?? aiya..no idea..


in love with fruit basket!

@ 1:10 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

actually wanted to post the lyrics of "Broken" by Seether and Amy Lee.. but my idiot sister called and my idiotic dad refused to pick up when he is just next to the phone! and he is happily sitting on my sweater..urgh!! if my mum wakes up and scream at me i m going to scream at my dad! i live in a weird family..so dont blame me if i dont pick up their phonecall when they call! i know its not mine cause i never get phonecalls..

@ 12:58 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

heyo! nothing much to blog about today and i m too lazy to go and write about what happened on tuesday, wednesday and last saturday..hehe

woke up at 12+ today..*sigh* heaven! finally have the chance to lie in bed and refuse to wake up..hehe..then had my lunch then i was already to watch fruit basket's final episode..it was nice! kyou is so handsome!! haha..after that sms-ed Jerold abit and then i fell asleep again..pig huh?! hehe..cant blame me..been slping for onli 4.5hr almost everyday since schoool had reopened..it felt good..now i m half-recharged..more sleep tomorrow will be enough to charge me up fully! hehe..

then i woke up around 5.30pm..read the book i borrowed..it was quite boring at first..but then it gets interested as you read on..hmm...then watch tv..laze ard laze ard until now..kinda guilty that i didnt do ANT homework today..opps...i shall try and do some tomorrow!! i promise!!

i think i better go le..if my mum wakes up now i find me using the com at this time she is going to scream! and you dont want that..trust me..i've been through that..



@ 12:57 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

finally have some time to blog le..*phew* lets start with what happened today before i go and update my previous days de..

today no school but have national day celebration..quite fun! we have the community adventure! ran around like mad people then mr nandwani keep arguing with the station ic about the rules of the game..hehe..anyway...i so paiseh lor..the first stop i lead my class to the wrong place..hai...anyway, i want to thank heli and gang! hehe..they were navigating the map and leading us to the station! while i sotong sotong just follow..abit useless?! hmm...

after that we went kfc makan..haha..just sit there makan..talk talk..after that me ingrid yuting fazilah and charissa left for bishan!! fazilah didnt go with the rest of us for movie cause she meeting her friend..hmph!=P haha..then we reached just in time to watch "Ella Enchanted"! haha..but we kana stuck in the front row..all the images look so distorted!! therefore, me yuting ingrid and charissa took our bag and sat on the floor at the back of the cinema..haha..great! paid $7.50 just to sit on the floor in a aircon place to watch movie..hahah..nutsy!! the movie was wonderful!! quite sweet and funny! hehe..should go watch if you havent!!
after the movie we went took neoprints!! yupx..thats abt it lor..after that we went home(which is like now!)...

anyway..actually grace is suppose to come with us de..but she never..i m quite irritated by her..not because she never come..its that when i call her at 12.50 to tell her to meet us at bishan at 1.30 she nv give me definite answer then put alot of silent period in the conversation(kaox, my hp bill very high de lor!)..then i ask her to confirm she say she dunno..so i told her when she have decided le call me before 1.30..u noe what time she replied?! 2.30!!! luckily we nv wait for her lor...can u imagine if we did?! we would have missed ella enchanted!! and i think she have already decided not to come at 12.50 already lor..but she dun dare tell me..hai

i just dont understand her..she say she want to change..she say she feels bad about always being late..she says she wants to change her attitude..but i dun think she is taking any serioous action...she can be responsible in her church stuff so why cant she apply that responsibility in school, in being a ct rep and everything else and stop herself from feeling bad once and for all?!

i m sick of hearing her saying that she feels bad..she is sorry and everything!! sometimes i feel that she is sorry out of need rather than from the heart..action speaks louder than word gal..u are a great friend..i dont want to be mean to you like the way i do to you-know-who...i want to help you to improve..to help you get into the role of a CT rep..but everytime, you just follow me to the meeting..then suggest some things at that point of time..after that, you just shut up and dump the thing to me..just like what happen on tuesday! hai...but u nd to be more initiative too..how and what can i do to help you?! i know you are worried bout your results but who isnt? i am too..but that doesnt give me a reason to dump ct work right?!

i feel that i have very little tolerance when it comes to her le..and its getting smaller by the day..and my mood will be affected when i found out that i m getting irritated by her..and i will nagged and complain to ingrid they all..and by doing that, it will reflect that i am very petty..but..hai..guess i just have to see what happen next le.. is it just me? i m so tired of all this..

@ 6:52 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

so tired!! i seriously got no life..got so much to blog abt..but no time..things to do tomorrow: chi compo pw and maths...so try to blog late at nite tomorrow..so prepare for a long one!
@ 11:02 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.