Interesting topic of the day from Power98's "Power Cruising" last night:

" What is the first thought that comes to your mind when you see a secily dressed woman?"

Somewhere in Africa: A bus driver and 2 other guys raped a 18-year-old girl because they think that she's too sexily dressed. And, they dont feel sorry about it. Instead, they threaten to rape anyone who comes onto their bus if they wear mini-skirts or are dressed too sexily.

and, thats not all. the most horrifying thing is that most guys in SINGAPORE agreed that girls dressing sexily is practically asking to be rape!!! =O *ahdubish* take that if you are one of those guys. get a life sia! I agree with what Shareen the DJ said, "...first you guys say that Singapore woman are too conservative. and when we start to flaunt our assests, you guys say we are asking to be rape..." what the..hai..shit you guys sia!

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Phrases i like from songs:

。。。你自信时候真的美多了。。。

如果我的坚强任性　会不小心伤害了你　你能不能温柔提醒　我虽然心太急　更害怕错过你

"..I got a sweet tooth and a taste for you..."

"..look for the girl with the broken smile.....she will be loved.."

to view the chinese words pls select "Unicode" from View---> Encoding --->Unicode.

@ 9:27 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

hahah..bleeps and bloopers(or is it bloops and bumppers?):

from monopoly lecture notes: the factor that facilitates price discrimination
"....cheaper market being resold in the dearer market..."
(i think they meant nearer market. at least i think so)

while doing my plate tectonics notes, i wrote:
".....create system of rift valleys with clothes..."
(actually wanted to write lakes but i heard Shakira's 'Underneath Your Clothes' on radio)

during econs lessons 2 weeks ago, mr nandwani was saying:
"....save the whales..."
i heard: "...shave the whales.." and repeated it out loud and nandwani was giving the "what is wrong with her" face. hilarious.


@ 9:08 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

maths skills will disappear when u have not been practising. yup, mine certainly did. die!

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I am 30% evil.

I try to stay away from evil deeds but succumb to temptation every once in a while. I'm not quite on my way to hell but I certainly have some explaining to do.

Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com


@ 11:58 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Roller Chair: Also known as computer chair. Its the best kind of toy. Regardless of age, sex and occupation. Mr Nandwani like it, the army sir liked it and my younger cousins like it! I like it! Have you got yours yet?!

@ 8:20 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

weeehheee...found the quiz below at quizilla! haha! i love quizilla!!! haha...getting addicted to those quizzes that have stories de..ahaha..okie..better go back to econs..y=5x is gentler than y=12x..okie...

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You represent... naivete.So innocent and trusting... you can be very shy at
times, but it's only because you're not sure
how to act. You give off that "I need to
be protected vibe." Remember that not all
people are good. Being too trusting will get
you easily hurt.

What feeling do you represent?
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@ 8:18 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

my mum's superb! haha..was mugging econs (actually was mugging 10 mins stone 5 mins) just now..then decided to go raked my fridge for my chocolate which i cant bear to eat. then saw my bro 'cooking' those instant prata (almost spelt brata<--my sec sch fren)..then i was like asking him "can give me one not"..he was like.."no! cook it yourself" (selfish pig!)..so i said fine! and went back to mug without my choco=(..haha..then my mum came into mu room with a prata 5 minutes later!! wheehee!! haha..yummy!! =)


@ 6:57 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

too tired to blog. lots to say. what the hell. wasted the whole day. 7days to promo

@ 11:09 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

damn. its raining. i hate rainy days when i am suppose to study. it makes me feel like sleeping and i cant concentrate on bit. why cant it rain after my promos? hate it. urgh

@ 3:15 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

someone placed my pic on his blog and said "my sunshine" above my pic. urgh. i dun even know that guy. okay, so i know he is from the class next door aka 04A5. so?! hello?! maybe you know more about me than i know more about you. but hello?! criminal offence to 'poach' a person's photo and place it on the web without asking for permission. do you know that i can 'report' you if you were in friendster and get your account screwed up?! come to think of it. i think the same can be done in blogger. hmm..i'll check that out. so if you are reading this blog, pls kindly remove my pic from your blog! place it only if you seriously know me and have asked for my 'permission' etc. or you can pay me! you know econs.i think its patents. well, if you pay me then i will let you put i may also throw in a better pic of myself. urgh! get the msg already!

just be gald that i m having a mental blk at this moment..if not, thats not all you are gonna get from me.

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handsome right?! haha.


You are Woodstock!


Which Peanuts Character are You?
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@ 10:00 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

treasure people close to you. take my word for it. seeing what happen to my clasmate(i dun feel good revealing the name), i seriously think we shld appreciate every moment of our life and be thankful for the moments we spend with our friends and family. just like ronan keating song "if tomorrow never comes".

i shld know too. my mum was gone for one week for operation last year. and my world crashed. i have to washed the clothes. dump them into the machine after my dad comes home ard 12midnight and wait. then hang them dry. get into bed at 1am per day. food was horrible. i had to cook, to buy for my whole family. horrible. worst, the very sight of places where my mum likes to sit will send me into tears. and then i had to juggle my homework. no one notices and help. i have to be brave for my family members. my elder sis cried and my younger bro too. my dad was stress enough from rushing to the hospital to open the shop and the emotional rollercoaster. therfore, i cry only when i slp. i cry in front of my friends. at home, i tahan. i did all the stuff my mum did. i never knew how to appreciate the things she had done. never did i show any appreciation. but from then, i knew. even though its not exactly what my friend is goin through now, i guess the feelings shld be the same.

so, take care ok? SCG will always be ard for you.

to the rest of you, take my advice. thank your parents. its not easy.

*i dunno where my sympathy and empathy and consoling skills went. i just feel so helpless*
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saw yogurt twice. dotx. boring life. so have eye candy to cure boredom.

but, shan will not like anyone for now. past is over. i dun like him le. den no one crush on me and i crush on no one. *phew* studies more important. ha. at least for once, i have no crush o.0
@ 1:07 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

long time no blog properly le..haha. been mugging quite a bit for geography. i finish all my maths tutorial then got two more geo tutorial(weathering) and got econs. haha. finished weathering and i refused to study tourism lect 3 and 9..haha..even though after those two i would have more or less finish tourism. haha. i just love physical geo. haha. human geo quite hard to score and theres so many case study. dont even let me get started. haha.

school is monotonous. nothing much. but laughed quite abit. diaox. then i caught her staring at me twice today. then i same "family" for maths 'presentation' today. luckily got amelia. if nt i sure die and will eb bald. i hereby label today as freaky wednesday(idea courtesy of jamilah and fazilah ;P)..blehx. 10 days to prelim. must hao hao(good good?directly translation) jiayou..hahah

sivan!! heard a1 song "One More Try" and it reminded me of you+cyn! haha..miss singing songs with you guys. hehe..promos hurry over. and let your semester break hurry up come. and lets have psl camp whatever! we must go back deyi sit at the parade square there and sing again! haha..miss you guys! SPP, lai, juan, ling, peiyu, lulu, syl, yuting..hope you guys are doing fine. *muacks*
@ 12:45 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

57% of the male population will feel awkward when a girl offer to pay during the first date. whats your opinion?

me? haha. hmm..4 words. man and their egos. haha. sigh. whats wrong with that. unless..unless..the girl offers to pay for the WHOLE meal. nt just her part lahx. i mean. look at it this way. if you are a girl and a guy offer to pay for everything on the first date, wont you feel kinda "insulted"..haha.. arent we fighting for equality? if so, then dun expect guys to pay ba. haha. and guys, allow gals to pay for their part ba. if its the girl who wants to pay for the whole meal, wont ya feel "insulted" too? hah..okie..i m repeating my point. heard it on power98 just now. then got alot of thoughts. but was doing geo then cannnot come blog. haha. now all gone. sad. haha.

best solution. go dutch. haha. on the other hand, i m nt that girly. so maybe thats why i feel the way i do..haha.


@ 9:49 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

An extract from my Chinese composition, somehow I think it will sound nicer in English. Haha.

"He stood in front of me. Blocking my sun and my view. I looked up and said, "Get out of the.."

Before I could finish my sentence, he muttered, "Can you be my girlfriend for a day? Just for a day." His face was serious, yet, he looked scared and sincere at the same time. I have never seen him like this before. I was shocked. We had agreed a long time ago that we were to remain friends no matter how much we liked each other. We are not willing to sacrifice our friendship for love. We agreed that we did not want to end up becoming strangers, enemies when the love dies out. I didn't know what to say.

I looked into his eyes. He was seriously sincere about this. He did not look like he was kidding. Millions of thoughts passed through my head. In the end, I agreed. I nodded. He smiled. I will never forget that smile. His smile was so radiant I was almost blinded, his eyes lit up and you could tell he was really happy. At that moment, he reminded me of a 3-year-old kid who had just bought a new action toy.

I laughed, shaking my head at the same time. He pulled me to my feet and dragged me in the direction of the bicycle rental shop. We did tons of things that day. We cycled around the beach like two idiots on our bikes. We built sandcastles, we wrote our names in the sand, watch the tides wash them again and we do it all over again. We set on the swings and talked about how we got to know each other. We talked and gossiped about our common friends, we laughed about all the silly fights we used to have. We had great fun that day.

Soon, the sky was getting dark. The sun was preparing to go back home. We sat on the beach watching the sun set. He was holding my hands so tightly. As if he was afraid I will run away if he ever let go. Neither of us wanted to initiate to say goodbye. We just sat quietly on the beach.

As the sky gets darker, I broke the silence. "Hey dumbo! Last one to reach the bus stop is an idiot!" I was about to take off when he stood up and pulled me into an awkward hug.

"I'm leaving in 5 days. I am going overseas. And I might not be coming back. I will miss you. Promise me you will keep in contact with me," he whispered softly by my ears, probably hoping that it will lessen my pain.

I pushed him away. I looked up into his face. He looked scared and sad. What am I suppose to do now? Congratulate him? Ha. I was reeling from what he had just said. Leaving. In. Three. Days. Not. Coming. Back. How could he do this to me? My disappointment was quickly replaced by a surged of anger. I raised my hand and slapped him. "Congratulations. Hope you have fun. I guess I won't be seeing you off then. Goodbye," I said to him coldly. Resisting my urge to cry. I turned and ran.
I ran to the bus stop. He didn't chase me. He was still standing there shocked. My tears were flowing from my eyes like a spoiled tap. I hate him. I hate him for not telling me beforehand. I hate him for making such an important decision without even mentioning to me. I hate him. I like him.

From that day onwards, I didn't see him anymore. He came to my house to look for me the day before he left. I refused to answer the door. He left a gift and a letter at my doorsteps and left. As he was leaving, I opened my door and peeked at him. He looked tired. I saw a tear slipped down his face. He quickly wiped it away and quickens his pace. I missed him. I miss having someone to complain to. I miss bickering with him.

I hate myself. I hate myself for not having the courage to see him, to call him, to tell him I miss him. To tell him to stay, to tell him not to leave. I hate myself. I did not even have the courage to email him.

Until the day I finally have the courage, the guts, I could only continue to miss him. To be reminded of him every time when the sun comes out during the rainy season. Because, that was weather on the day when I slapped him."

haha..boy, does it feel good to write narrative compo again. but i be theres lotsa grammar mistakes. haha. anyway, if you think this is a real life expereince like all my other compo, you are wrong! haha. okiex..back to the books.

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You are the most important person in his life. He
would do anything to see you smile. Actually,
he would be the PERFECT boyfriend. Always
getting lost in your eyes, always treating you
like a princes and always saying a joke to make
you laugh your head off while he smiles at your
hysteric laughter. Yup, he is the person you
were destined to fall in love with.

What kind of boyfriend would you have?(with pics and obviously for girls^^)
brought to you by

@ 5:40 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

these are the things i forgot to mention just now.

- mr lawrence is a super "horny" teacher. how is econs and FHM linked? and you are only providing entertainment for the guys! how about showing some pictures of some handsome stars like ronaldo?!

- i want to thank fazilah and jamilah! hehe. you guys know what happen huh?! thanks eh! long time nv see my eye candy. hah. thanks alot! *muacks*

- charissa said i look like her. one of the three "muskerteers". the one that i dont like. nightmare. luckily she say only for awhile. and thanks to fazilah, jamilah and rukhsana for saying that she will never look like me or the other way round. hair faster grow. i want to eliminate any possibilty or chance no matter how small it is. but. but if she is keeping long hair too, i m going to cut. the other way applies. ew. look like her?! i rather die. i noe i m mean. but i seriously am freak out by her and the way she stares at people and the many times i caught her staring.

-oh yeah. it happened quite some time again. wonder if i got mention before. i was in the hall. then that day i was super late and she happened to sit next to me. so, theres the usual announcement and everyone's bored. including me. so while waiting for cyn to reply i looked ard. she didnt noe i was looking around and she was staring at me. so i suddenly gt the feeling (i love my sixth sense) that someone's staring. so i turned in her direction and caught her staring. i looked straight into her eyes and gave her my fiercest look. she quickly looked away. caught in the act. ha! i m not just being over suspicious. great, now i have two starer staring at me. should start collecting fees. can help in paying for my new hp next mth.

@ 10:40 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

heyhey. decided to blog abit now. great, i told mr nandwani i cant access emb yesterday. then last night can le. then now cannot again. shittish. hai.

anyway, stayed back to do maths promo paper 2003 with charissa, heli aka snoopy aka lucy, weilin just now. charissa left at 2.30 though. haha. then, was damn funny. we were in the student lounge right?! then the councilors super noisy lor. keep knocking on the walls from their side. you know what i did? i wanted to knock back lahx. but lazy to walk. so i threw my stapler at the wall and pouted my lips. haha. like some 3 yr old kid. then heli saw liaox keep laughing. haha. you should be there. it doesnt sound so funny now. then some people came in. played the piano. played christmas song(give me the feeling that my bdae is coming). then super noisy. then weilin suddenly "shhh.." then everyone turned. haha. it was funny. u should be there and see our expression.
oh yah! weilin thinks that aerosmith's song, the Armageddon one is a christian song. bleh. ahaha..

Just now heard the song " gan2 lan3 shu4" then i suddenly thought of lai! haha. why?! cause last time whenever we sing it, she will cover her ears and try to cover our mouths at the same time. super comical. miss her sia. haha. and she will cover my eyebrows when i a)raised one or both of my eyebrows or b) wiggle me eyebrows. haha. cause she cant do that then she will cover. haha. like to irritate her with the song and eyebrows last year when she was sitting next to me. lai lai! we must meet up!

haha. okie before i go, something happen on the bus just now. 2 old ladies boarded the bus. then when its time to get off right? one lady got off and forget to tell the other who was new to the area. haha. then when the bus left. the auntie was like. "eh?! where's my friend?" then she looked ard. "Die, she never get off!" haha. funny sia. i think the other old lady sure sit to interchange de. hehe. i will kill my friends if they left me on the bus like that. hahah.

i think i will blog later. got some thoughts in my head. but cannot put them in words yet. takie care!



@ 6:58 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

tired. just now got alot to blog now all blank. sickening.

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@ 11:57 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

dad show me an article about making full use of our time. the author was asking what do people do during their free time. so, the questions are:
do you watch tv? yes, 2.5hrs per week. 0.5hr monday, 2 hrs wednesday.
do you talk on the phone with your friends? nope
do you go after stars? nope
do you follow the fashion trends? no.

so, technically, i didnt waste my time. so where did my time go? okie, the clock strike 7 le. time for cindergeek to go do chinese compo le.

@ 6:56 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

amazed with myself. didnt slp in the afternoon. woke up at 8.30 today(okie, it is yesterday) and i am still surviving. amazing.

did 2sets of geo notes today. 3 more left. jaiyou. did econs hols hw, the one assigned to everyone not by mr nandwani. still have 3 more qns left. then still have nandwani's part. sianess. you know, i m wondering why am i rushing and mugging so hard for?! just to get promoted. so what if i do get promoted. i get to suffer another year and take a'levels. after alevel and then? go university and have fun or as i was told. and then go to work in a job that has nothing to do with what you have studied great. i am not even half interested in the course in university. i want to work in the tourism industry. hai. but since i m in it. i want to get promoted. i want to suffer another year (i m volunteering to suffer!). i want to go to uni. i want to have a job. okie?! hope my hard works pay off.

if not? ha. prepare lots of tissues and clear your appoinments for the next few hours. i m going to cry non-stop for hours. just sit there and dun say a thing. the more u say the more i cry as weiling and gang have noticed whenever i cry. the more u console me the more i cry. haha. yeah. just like in sec 2. right. hope the tissues u guys prepared wont be needed though. i m tired of all this. period.

@ 1:54 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

bleh. mom nt back yet. haven have dinner. die. i feel like playing playstation. temptation super huge.its just in front of me.

@ 9:03 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i takes me 1.5hrs to go through one set of geo notes. i have ten for tourism. that means i need 15hrs. *groans* and i have 3more sets to go. excluding the one with the whole case study of tourism in thailand. shan! buck up.

econs: scare me
gp: scare me
maths: worries me. i m scared i wont be able to stay competitive.
geo: worries me. its so hard to score. especially human geo.
chinese: i feel fine. just dont want to disappoint anyone. especially myself.

great! no confidence at all. okay. i think i better hide from promos. maybe if i dun see it. it wont come to me.

@ 8:47 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

discover your inner candy heart @ quiz me

strange, this is my favorite phrase too.

@ 7:45 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

okay. i dun hate gp. in order to score well in a subject you must first love it. fine. since feelings can be nuture. fine. ilove gp. i love gp. i love gp.

you guys should see the expression on my face. it's one of pain. haha.

@ 5:50 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

throw me maths anytime. i will happenly throw my gp comprehension out of the window and indulge myself in some brain racking maths problems. i hate gp.

@ 5:49 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

haha.okay. managed to stop laughing le. haha. anyway, its funny lor. cause my sec 1 class(1/8 and 2/8) guys have been calling me airport ever since i know them. and reagan is one of the few who calls me airport everytime they want to talk to me. another person for example will be kelvin. haha. then now then he apologise. weird. i feel weird. haha. anyway, i immune le. it has kinda become my nickname. haha. reagan, its okay de. i know you guys mean no harm. its a nice thought anyway. thanks. you made my mad maths day.=)

@ 10:49 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

this is what reagan wrote:
"actually you are becoming prettier u know.... hope u dun kei gao wif me calling u 'airport' .... i declare u are one of the prettty girls that i know... hope u will find your prince charming 180cm de ok??? punchs and kicks... haha...ok la, hugs and kisses...bleah....0^-^0"

haha.after reading this, i laughed like there's no tomorrow. haha. am still laughing now. cant think of what to write.

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YELLOW You are very perceptive and smart. You are clear and to the point and have a great sense of humor. You are always learning and searching for understanding. Find out your color at Quiz Me!

@ 7:17 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

aRgH. i hope those terrorists whose responsible for the russia hostage thingy will rot in hell. if they are still alive, i hope they have constipation everyday, be infertile, step on dog shit everyday, get prick by porcupines, get stung by bees/wasps, get bitten by snake and etc. i hate them. how could they kill the kids. you have problems with the government?! settle it with the government. they are kids. they are 6yrs old kids. 11 years old. imagine if people have killed you when you were 6?! will you be able to have all this asshole-ric thoughts? if you want to take hostages. take. but dont kill! what have they done?! they are just schooling. they are not the one who is going to makes the decision whether you can have a seperate Chechnya. leave them alone. they are so innocent. a girl just celebrated her 11th birthday the day before she was held hostage. she probably waited a long time to be 11. now she has turned 11, she's killed. asshole. she cant even experience things that 11 yr old does. then worse. they created all these scray images for those who survived. do you know one of the survivor, a 14 yr old boy, keeps staring at the door of the hospital. i cant even imagine what's going through his mind. he's too afraid that another similar episode will happen. just reading the newspaper today is enough to make me want to cry. *sigh* and a 6yr old kid refused to open his eyes (even though he's awake) and called out for his dead mother. he is probably too afraid to open his eyes as he is afraid to see the whole thing again and to see his mother's dead form when she died saving him. my heart goes out to all of them. i hope those that survive will recover. god bless their souls.

@ 11:22 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

shall keep blog short today. slogged like shit for econs test. my bro didnt help by playing playstation while i was studying. =( temptation was super huge. but i managed and pushed on. shall enjoy self tomorrow after i come back from badminton with san cyn and mabel. and of course, shall do some maths. maybe tutorial 19 ba. or maybe i should do chinese compo. maybe both.

shall do geo(physical) on tues i think. provided i am nt going out. if i am then i shall touch on econs. demand and supply. yupx. shall talk about my study plan for sept holiday in detail soon.

sian. where's my hols?! stupid scho. stole my me time away. hai. super tired. my bro and elder sis like two kids. super funny to watch them. shall elaborate tomorrow. when you put 3 of us together, you will discover that i am actually the quiet one at home. which kinda make sense since when i am at home, i am too exhausted to make much noise. haha. okie. shall end here. wish me luck tomorrow for econs.

*note to self* use proper english and use full sentence.

@ 1:05 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

okie..saturday is supposedly to be my rest day right?! bullshit. i have lectures today till 10.30. then after that came home read abit of newspaper. help my mum with replanting our lime "tree" and by the time it was done two plus le. bathe. then did maths till 4.30. then after that rest abit till 6. started reading monopoly notes. shit man. once i started, my head hurts. diverging again. hai. but i pushed on and i finished reading monopoly at 8. after that felt super exhausted. played abit of street fighter (surprised that it is still ard)..i won my bro=). victory. haha. then after read my chick read a bit then bathe. after came online i chatted abit then challenged kelvin to a game of minesweeper on msn. damn. keep losing to him. must practice more. haha. but quite impossible lor. he reached 23 le i still hovering ard 10+. but got improvements k?! last time by the time he won, i only have 5-10 bombs. pathetic huh?! i know.

anyway, kinda fed up lahx. people always asking when have 208 gathering. then ok lor, they help me decide on the date and venue. then after that?! "huishan, you do the calling lahx?" kaox. i dont call people remember?! waste my sms. if you guys want 208 gathering so badly, other than helping me decide what to do can help me contact people anot. not just ask me. "shan, how many people going?!" this time still nt that bad. ask susanto and kelvin and geksan help me spread msg. i think susanto and kelvin got spread to quite a few (u guys gave me the impression that you all did). but geksan?! her "contact people" is lijuan, dawn, keying, kim. thats it. maybe one or two more ba. urgh! then no one tell me how many people going lorx. so i told everyone its cancelled. you know what?! i m not going to organise any 2/8 gathering anymore le. everytime i organise, you guys like dont care. worst, you guys dun bother to reply cause you expect it to not happen. fine lor. dun reply then the more it wont happen. if you guys want it, next time, when i m brave enough and have ample time on my hand to organise again, when you guys receive any msg, you all damn bloody well reply asap. get it?! if not, forget it. i shall leave the organising to you guys. if you guys dun organise then no 2/8 gathering lor. fine with me. i still see juan they all everyday. i meet up with spp often. its only that i dont get to see the guys. but, i kajiao them enough to know that they are still alive. so there. get the point and lock it in your head.

damn. having fever again. sian. susanto asked me why i so shy when i met him. got meh?! ah ku like nothing to say mahx. and nowadays i quite quiet. i m sure he heard enough from me lor. everytime got things(funny or frustrating) happen, he is one of the few i kajiao. haha. so keep distance when i met him in deyi. hao ba. next time i see him i will give him a BIG tap on his back and wave "hello" with my face practically in front of his?! haha. shit. getting quite sarcastic today. dont know whats gotten into me. anyway, i think by the next time we see each other it will be in november?! coun camp ba. so maybe by then we strangers le lor. billy wants to have "horny dynasty" committee gathering. you guys up for it?! only 9 of us. so shld be easy. after my promos ba. haha. miss you guys lotsa! miss the magazines! not fun reading it by myself. haha.

hao ba. better go do hw le. if not sure plus guarantee chop cannot finish tutorial 18 by monday. tomorrow still have to finish up oligopoly and monopolistic competition. shan shall pass the econs essay test on monday. i will!

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sian. just remember tomorrow got school at 8. sian-sation. giddy feeling now. shittish.

@ 11:29 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

taking a break from studying perfect competition. now having horrible headache again. just now was alright. reading the notes and drawing the graphs. then suddenly, when i reached SR equilibrium of PC, kaox..horrible feeling. pain. now still pain.

some thoughts first before i talk about what happened today. you know, my parents used to say that the shop is not doing well. and they are having financial problems. that was when i was in pri 4? pri 6? then after my dad renovated the shop. the business was fairly better. but now, the same thing is happening again. shop's not doing well. financial problems. you can see the stress on my dad's face and my mum's mood will change when you talk about money. when i was young, all these meant nothing. it doesnt have any effect on me at all. i was like okie. fine, everything will be okay. but now, as i get older(i AM older), these things are worrying to me. the problems are resurfacing again. but, my expenditure pattern is getting bigger bigger bigger. everything seems to cost. notes. class fund. teachers' day gift. i have a craving to buy bks to read. i feel guilty if i ever have to ask my dad for money. either to go out. to top up ez link card. to pay for geo notes. even when i take tidbits home to makan. i feel bad and useless. so, now, i m no longer asking money from my mum to pay for school funds. i take from my bank account. but my mum thinks my bank account is diminishing because i have high expenditure. cant bear to tell her the truth. she will just worry more. ez link card thingy?! i still ask. go out?! i dont ask for money le. i use my own. i even cut down on my eating havits. sometimes, i even pay for the tidbits i take from my dads shop. i m seriously worried. i wish i could work and ease them of their burden. hai. i just hope things will get better soon. but, i m still glad that ,even though we are quite poor, all my family members are healthy and happy and living harmoniously together.

okie. quite alot of funny thing happen. i refuse to talk about some of the -ve stuff and about pw. liu laoshi let us off super early today. so me heli charissa and weilin can go j8 and eat kfc earlier! as we walk out of the classroom, we saw mr nandwani. then we were talking lahx. then we walk and walk. it was raining quite heavily. so we "kajiao" him lor. ask him to lend us his umbrella cause the school's shelter got hole. then he was like, " my umbrella also got hole." he was kidding lahx. but when we reached the area near the pe room, he opened his umbrella. guess what?! got hole. one big hole. the four of us were laughing. he was shocked. imagine the look on his face.comical. haha. then when we told him there's a hole, he was spinning the umbrella and searching for the hole. haha. then nvm lor. we walk seperate ways after that. he still used the umbrella by the way. dont think it will be much use. haha

then we reached j8. kfc too many people. so we decided to search for heli's pencil case first. so walk walk walk. then weilin say she want go toilet. so we went to the 2nd floor's. it was right inside. when we were inside the toilet, the toilet suddenly black out. only left with those emergency kinda light. once the lights went out. guess what?! weilin said softly, "uh-oh" haha.she didnt expect us to hear but we did. me and heli and charissa was at the baisin we were laughing lor. then weilin came out. she was laughing too. then i asked her,"you go toilet le?!" she havent. haha. can u imagine?! she go inside the cubicle. about to use the toilet. but lights went out. she came out again. haha.. then we asked her to go back. she went and used the toilet. it was kinda romantic?! the lighting i mean. ahha.. weilin told us afterwards that inside the cubicle it was super dark cause no lights. then she was afraid she was going to see "things". haha. haiyo. shouldnt have said so much ghost stories during lunch break le right?! haha.

anyway, nth much lor. we took neoprint. the machine was super boring. do not take harry potter's de k?! it's super sian. no glittering stuff. blehx! haha. then had kfc. i feel super fat. had zinger, cheese fries and coke. in school i ate pizza. fat..must exercise. haha. then went home.

at the interchange, there's this middle age guy lahx. he was standing at the front of the queue. then, whenever, got 55 pass by, he will stick out his hand and flag for the bus. errr...its the interchange remember?! no bus stop. no need flag de. bus will stop. haha..then he keep doing that. i wanted to laugh but it's creepy when you laugh when you are alone right. haha.

anyway, better go back study le. headache still present. might as well finish studying then can go slp faster. adios!

@ 11:25 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

stupid yahoo. keep showing that scary ad.

@ 6:11 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i m sick. got fever. that explain why i feel achy all over. and the feeling of puking when i smell strong and distinct smell or when i think of food. yes, even my favorite chocolate. if being pregnant feels like this, then, no thank you. you can stop me eating anything but not my chocolate consumption. chocolate is my life. its makes me happy. it makes me feel saint.

had a half horrible half wondeful day in school today. lotsa people took early leave today. so class quite empty. had maths lecture. nt bad. i understand. nt because of the lecturer k?! it's because ms lau gt teach be4 in sec4. lecturer only help me recall only. thanks! (see, i m nt ungraeful!dotx) had geo lessons. talked with charissa and listened. then got gp. bleh! sucky. had to write essays. i chose "Does the media make an idiot of us all?".. dotx. sick so no idea what to write. all i could think of was yes, we are idiots. haha. *shivers* not funny at all. i have been telling jokes that are not funny for the whole day. then went to com lab to do WR with ber. us again. peihua was sick. ingrid got cell grp( is cell grp impt or pw!? priorities!) shall not bitch. then had maths. was one of the 3 gd kids today. then got geo presentation. we crapped all the way through.

i realise something today. my pw grp are more concern about individual work than grp work. do they ever talk about grp work?! grp work=suggest idea. maybe sometimes put it into action. only dumbo will go do grp staff and let the us claim credit. no offence.

ingrid, i dunno who actually lost ur diskette. but sorry anyway. but i do remember that i got slide it back to you and say thanks. maybe next time you shld save your work in your com too?! safer.

there. i feel so much better. ber!! sorry for putting you in a spot today. i just realise the situation you were in just now in the lab. heli and charissa! sorry too. this kinda thing it's best if you guys dont know?! cause if you guys know the person or you guys will feel weird?! hard to explain. thanks people! thanks for listening. i nd to get it out of my system. i m fine. 3rd draft of WR?! ha! i m nt touching that. neither is ber. we will contribute. but editing. nahx. i think we have enough of that huh?! better go take a rest. i feel horrid.

edited on 3rd september

@ 6:08 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

third time le..haha..just wanna say i love my room!! haha..why?! its baby blue in colour. not the wall colour. the walls are still white. its the feeling. let me explain. as my light has just been changed it looks blue! those baby blue..sea blue. then my bedsheet is those white and baby blue. blue again! my sweater (i wear it cause blanket is no use to me. i just kick them off) is baby blue! its all baby blue!! my fav colour!! haha..and it makes me calm before i fall asleep. *bliss*

i have 2 blue blacks on each of my knee caps. bleh! me nowadays very sotong. walk also dunno how to walk properly can bang into benches. i m a disaster to myself.

just realise tomorrow might have gp class assignment. *groans*
@ 11:06 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

haha..i think peihua ber and ingrid afraid to receive msg from me le. especially ber. cause everytime i sms or msn them, its mostly about PW. haha..especially ber. cause shes always online. so its easier for me to kajiao her. haha.
@ 9:20 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

okie, decided to blog earlier today. haha. been attempting to do maths tutorial 18 since 6.30. but like no use. only managed to finish up the last 3 qns of tutorial 17 and did 1a 1b 1c of tutorial 18. now the time is 7.56. and thats all i have done. slow huh?! i kinda dont feel like doing tutorial 18 cause dont have the answer then feel kinda insecure. haha.. i hate to "liquid" away all my answers when the answers doesnt telly with the answers given. bleh. have to get that answer sheet from peihua.

today is actually quite a relaxing day. managed to laze in bed till 11.30am. then woke up. make an appearance in the living room(to tell my mum that i m awake) for 10 minutes. then went back to my room to read the book i bought 2 weeks ago? haha..then read the book till 1+. watch days of our lives. haha..cant believe it. its been 2mths le and the storyline is still about "who killed franco?" and whether "sammi should go to join"..haha.. dotx

then at 2+ went back to my room to read. read and doze off. then wake up and doze off. this cycle keep going on till 5.30. came out and watch kids central till 6.30 then here i m blogging. nothing much happen. haha..hao le..end le.

ch8 showing some school belle school hunk tingy. haha..i can goggle at guys now? haha..cant blame me..ny no suai ge..haha..dotx..adios!

P/S: i miss horny dynasty! dotx

@ 8:06 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.