pw leave me alone! A-L-O-N-E! alone!

i cant stand it anymore. i was just happily sitting in the kitchen filling up the merit bursuary form cause my father seemed rather confuse with it (he shouldnt be! he had been filling it up for like 7 years!). pftt. anyway, back to story.

then i heard the news on the radio. someone has died from botox injection. AHHHH!!! shoot. i dun dare to switch on the television now. cause i m afraid i will hear it again on the news. AHH!

MOE, look what you have turned me into. a cosmetic surgery conscious freak.

PW is bad for the children.

@ 6:40 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i want my own phone fast. fast fast fast. before all my privacy is gone.

my brother actually went to my bedroom, rake my bed to look for the family phone. becuase he is going out later. pftt. my bedroom is my last place of privacy. can u imagine if he dare to rake my bed when i am around, what will he do when i m not? rake my bed for my diary?

eww. the idea of his dirty, sticky, crumbs filled hands touching my pillow is enough to make me cringe. i must go and check the status of my bed.

@ 3:47 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

muahaha..the previous skin stayed for one day. haha. there is so many scrolls that i myself got lost while scrolling. and its irritating!

haha. so i got this instead. but the way my archives present itself got abit of problems. haha.

stupid kelvin. at camp liao still can kajiao. in the end i have to sms him and edit at the same time. pftt. irritating old man. seventeen liao still at some kids camp. haha. and never bathe some more. stinko. poor kids.

@ 11:58 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

is there too many scroll bar in this template? comments please? haha

too many choices. though i didnt make it myself.

@ 1:06 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

charissa is gonna be proud of me. i finally watch "The Wedding Planner"! i recorded the show way back in May. and, i feel much much better now. i was feeling horrible this morning. cried abit. but now, after that show and some help from the chocolate in my fridge, i m much better.

and i m gonna buy the wedding planner vcd. better go now. i m gonna watch "Charlie's Angels". Cheerios.

@ 6:03 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

juan and ling, are u guys back from china yet? i miss you guys. and i really really need to talk to you guys soon.

i hate this. i have no one to discuss the thing i feel now with. cause juan and ling is in china. and abusee is overseas. he usually comes online at night. but he is not now and i cant sms him. =(

even stupid kelvin is not around to make me laugh with his lamey joke.
no, dont even let your mind wander that way. dont believe ranjan.

juan and ling, be back already! i miss you guys and wanna arrange an outing with our councillor batch soon. i miss your thoughtful-ness.

@ 12:36 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

just some thoughts.

whats the difference between thongs and g-strings?

whats the difference between briefs and boxers?

and more importantly, how does a boxer work? isnt it just a pair of shorts?!

i am still sixteen. i need explanation. haha. dotz.....

@ 6:34 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

been meaning to start doing my hols homework since the beginning of this week. but, i keep getting distracted with my book. now i have finished the book, i feel that i should take a break. urgh. in this way i dont think i can start doing my homework until 2 weeks before the hols end.

my birthday is coming! 16 more days! wheehee!! finally i am going to turn seventeen! bleh! but like lulu say..she is going to turn 18 soon and i m still 16. haaha. and thats not including all my juniors who is going to turn 17 real soon. yiquan and vincent is going to turn 17 in february! man. haha.

anyway, i had no idea banana can be made into some many things- banana cake, banana smoothies, banana pancake, banana pudding, banana ice cream, fried banana. everyone is going bananas! haha. i saw it on sesame street! yes, i was watching sesame street. elmo and zoe is getting cuter by the day!

my mum is listening to some hokkien songs i think. and it made me feel so chinese-new-year-ish. haha. but christmas is not here yet!

oh oh! christmas! i cant wait for it to come! why? cause my cousin is coming back from england. and she is gonna give me DARK chocolates for christmas. DARK chocolates! yummy! i love it. haha. i got a feeling i am going to be a SUPER DUPER hyper girl when the new year comes. haha.

oh well, i better go stare at the tv or something. haha.

@ 6:31 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

cannot take it anymore. hey, you guys out there, cut sly some slack! yes, sly as in sylvester sim from singapore idol.

i m no big supporter of him. but, hey, what some report say about him is like so unfair. olinda got voted off in the last round. yeah. i know she got a great voice. she can sing. shes damn good. but she got voted out. okie, yeah i must admit that her fan base wasnt quite as huge as sly's. that may be why she got voted off. but, hey, sly stayed because he got a HUGE fan base and you cant deny it, he CAN sing. i love his version of AN JING and "Dont wanna miss a thing". so, stop saying that he got into the final round just because he got a huge fan base and that he cant sing.

i dont see you guys finding fault with taufik. and saying, "oh, he got in because he got many fans." yada yada yada. sore losers are what comes in mind when i hear this. oli has a great voice. so what she didnt win? she might get signed by some company. who knows? she might become more famous then taufik or sly. look at clay aiken. classic.

@ 1:37 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

"....all novels are, in a sense, fairy tales. They are pulled from the air and create the magical illusion that the characters you read about are real, are living and the lives that are described have happened......Fiction is so often preferable to life because, sadly, only in fiction can you write the magical incantation at the end: 'And they lived happily ever after.' "
Olivia Goldsmith. 2004. Wish Upon A Star

maybe thats why i love to read.

@ 7:22 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i have a cupboard in the living room. its not all mine. there is three department. two of which is transparent; you can see the stuff inside. the other one at the bottom is not transparent; you cant see the stuff inside.the top one and the bottom one belongs to me.

i place all my files and school stuff at the bottom cupboard. but, theres still not enough place. i still have school stuff in a basket next to my bro's table. the glass cupboard is where i store my CDs, my storybooks, a doll and display stuff. but, theres not enough place to keep my 55 CDs, my 10 VCDs. and i have no place to place my ear rings, my necklace, my old name tags, my badges! and my soon to be collection of rubber bands(the tie hair type), clips etc! my goodnesss. i need to find something to store my hair stuff. or maybe i can buy some small drawer type of thing to store my badges name tags etc . and small enough for me to place into the bupboard. no idea.

i tidied all those up. next is to tackle the pile of worksheets that is screaming at me to file them. i need to buy some more ring files too. cause my worksheets cant fit into the old ones. next time, when i get my camera phone(which is soon. cause my mum is nagging at me to get a phone. can u imagine it?!), i'll show you guys pictures of the cupboard and places where i store my stuff. i can tell you its not for the faint hearted. unless you have super tolerance like me.

@ 7:24 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

我性格比你强，怎能做你的绵羊？

@ 8:36 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

just wondering.

son, are we suppose to be fighting? or have i become one of those friends where you have nothing to talk about with?

and i want the jack jack cushion from mac. haha. my mom will probably say i m silly if i ever ask for one. hhaha. pfft. i m still 16 you know? haha.

@ 7:45 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

another name to add to the list of people who calls me shan-- joshua. the first guy i think. haha. i just realised. abit no big no small. but, haha, friends mah..so can bah. and i m only 4 mths older than him. come to think of it. i m only 5 mths older than my son. right.

@ 1:47 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i fell in love with black. haha. i use to avoid black shirt at all cost. be it a tee or a sleeveless one. cause i think it makes me appear super uber fair. but i wore one yesterday and i thought it looked nice. and i actually looked quite mature. bleh. it sounds like self praise. but, hey, i have another choice of color of shirts to buy other than white which my closet is filled with.

and i wore heels for the first time yesterday. i like it. it makes me feel tall. i had a feel of how 170cm feel like. the heels were 0.5cm. wow. my sis bought it. but she dont know how to walk in it. so i got it. haha. whee! but i sustained two injuries on both of the small toes. ahaha. but i like it. i wore it with jeans. whee. shan fell in love with heels.

haha. how can i fall in love twice a day? haha. and i think i am starting to like skirts too. my my. haha. oh, i just realise if i am suppose to be able to wear heels if i go on a date next time, my date will have to be at least 175 or more. why? so he can actually appear taller than me. haha. not like yesterday. i appeared too tall next to sivan and san. bleh. but i like it. haha.

@ 11:59 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i m officially saying adios to pw. maybe now it will leave me alone.
i have to stop hearing stuff about plastic surgery and seeing woffles wu.
ber arent you proud of me? i did the exit and pw from photoshop! *grins*

@ 7:17 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

my brain is super slow today. it took me quite a while before i figure out what this pic means.



but hey, devaintart.com is a pretty good site to look at. lots of pictures. i got my kids craze from there. haha. shld go. well, heres another pic from there.

cute huh? i like this type of toy cows. after stars that is.

@ 4:38 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

lots and lots of thoughts racing and zooming pass my head. especially between the time when my dad switches off all the light in the house and the moment before i fell asleep. so, below may be some random thoughts.
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sagittarian loves to travel and enjoys their freedom
thats what all horoscope like to say about my star sign. and, yes, i want to travel when i grow up. so maybe i should find a job that allows me to fly and travel.
-
my dad said this when driving me to school on tuesday,"...your sis not to get a boyfriend..."
he's hinting me not to get a boyfriend again. funny. my mum dont do that to me. but my dad does. i guess i am probably lucky cause both my parents 'hit' on my sister when she was about my age. but i guess thats because they dont have anything to worry about in my case. cause my sister was super tomboy in the past and only started to be super style after her o's. and she got her 1st boyfriend straight after that. so, of course they are worried. me? of course they have nothing to worry. i have a cousin in my sec school! so, she must have told them i have no boyfriend in the past 4 years. which is true. so there. nothing to worry. no boyfriend now. no boyfriend then and no boyfriend in the near future. singledom kinda rocks. just like what lai said.
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my younger bro called me a despo.
my oh my. haha. lets make it clear. i m no despo. i may be harping about qualities my future boyfriend should 'contain' and etc etc. but be rest assured. i m everything, but desperate. haha. i m perfectly fine alone. sometimes just curious whats its like to have someone to 'abuse' as ber snoopy they all like to put it. haha. and who needs boyfriend when you have a whole gang of fabulous friends. i'll probably run away even before the question pops up. which is what i have been doing the few times it happened. haha. but the last time was like eons ago. haha.
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okie. got lots more. but i m more attracted to the television. haha. and i haven watch my inuyasha cartoon from last night. can you believ it? the actual anime is already over. but, arts central is still showing the first few episodes. and i m the gundu thats following it. shall talk about 4/9 bbq last sun soon. eventually.

@ 9:38 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i like the word cuddling because the double d sort of describe the verb rather well. whenever i see the word, the image of two people snuggling up into each other just pop up.

oh. oh. and snuggling is another word i love. it just sounds so warm and sweet. and it has the same effect on me as the word cuddling.

and, no. i dont like ANY other words that has double alphabet. and i dont like the word kissing cause i think its too over rated and its too overused.

@ 11:59 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i've finally decided on which phone to buy. okie, ber snoopy yuting charissa and weilin probably hear until their ear gonna rot liao. haha. i've been nagging at their ears since june when my favorite Samsing A800 when bonkie on me.

thats why i am going to buy Samsung A800's sister. E600C. muahaha. Nokia 7610(or is it 7620?) lost cause the button is super hard to press. and sms is my main communication method. hhaha. dont try and change my mind people! haha.

or is samsung E800C better?

@ 3:48 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

oh yah, i got myself a new book. its called 'wish upon a star'. it attracted me cause of the word 'star'. i m a BIG star fan. haha.

here's a list of what i want to buy:

::Books::
Deranged Marriage by Faith Bleasdale
Agent Provocateur by Faith Bleasdale
Seperation Anxiety by Karen Brichoux

::Cds::
Shania Twain - Greatest Hits
Ronan Keating - Greatest Hits
Robbie Willams - Greatest Hits
Blue - Greatest Hits
Westlife
Greatest Hits:My Perorgative by Britney Spears ( still considering)

haha. i will work and buy! haha. oh and i need new clothes too.

@ 3:47 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i need to get a job. i need to get away from here. i need to run. i need to breakaway.

i knew my life wont be perfect. yesterday was fun. 409 actually appeared united. cliques mingled. i had fun. alot of fun. then i came home. slept. had a really really sweet dream. then, i had to wake up. oh yah.

i didnt realise how late it was when i woke up. my mum offere to go and buy me lunch at the ccoffe shop downstairs. so she went and she came back. the coffee shop was open. but, the stall that i frequent, did not. so, my mum asked me what i wanted to eat now. i said maybe i can just drink milk and eat the cake she bought for me for breakfast. but then, i added that i dont feel like eating that right now, cause i didnt had a proper meal yesterday. so she offered to cook instant noodles for me. so i said okie. then she went to make her bed, then she was saying she's running out of time. i took a look at the clock and realise it was 1.30pm already!! its almost time my mum went downstairs to let my dad have his lunch. so i said, " Err..mummy ah..bu ran wo chi mai pian he dang gao hao le(<--why not i drink milk and cake can le ).." then she never reply me and went and cook me rice, egg with baked beans, vegetables (which is totally different from what she offered in the first place). by the time she was done, it was 2.30pm. then i said thanks and added that i enjoyed it and i wash my own plates. okie.

then she went downstairs. i dont know what she told my sis. but when my sis came back after being out for the whole morning, she scolded me the moment she stepped into the house. she said, " you bully mummy right?!" excuse me! i felt wierd and then gradually angry. what the hell. if she was referring to what happened in the morning, then, i dont think thats call bully! i offered to make things easier for her. but she ignored me. then, my sis herself was bullying my mum! she's working but yet, she still ask for money from my mum. she buys clothes she wear for once or twice(though that benefit me) but she ask my mum to buy undergarment for her. and she only wear those expensive one. and theres alot more which i dun want to talk about. i breathed and i let the comment passed.

then at night. my mum was cooking. then my brother keep going and asking him if she needs help. well, that will be nice if he actually does what she told him to help with. but he didnt. so when he asked for like the 5th time, she burst and scolded my brother and my sister. when she left, my sis came and blamed me indirectly for treating my mum like a maid. well, thank you. i dont see you helping her cook, wash her plates or helping out in the shop. i do that. i clean my 'area'. you dont. i help. you dont. she said i am ALWAYS the one who is demanding. who is not understanding. in which way am i not? i helped her cook when she said she felt unwell. i dont worry her with my academic problems. i dont go crying to her cause i cant find a cca i like. i handle all this on my own. what about you? you always come crying when something at work get hard. when she give you advice, you scream at her. if you dont want advice, dont ask for it. so i screamed at my sis. i asked her not to judge people if she didnt know what was going on, not to criticise people if u are doing it yourself. then she started crying and called my mum. oh great.

now i just want to grow up. earn my own income. lessen the burden on my parents shoulders. in this way, my sis can continue complain to my mum about work. my mum wont have to worry about not having enough money for the three of us cause i can support myself. i want to grow up. so i can help my parents with any financial problems. i want them to stop worrying about money. i know my sis has the same wish. but she wants it to happen fast. whereas i know this happens one step at a time. my sis wants it to happen too, but she cant resist her urge to spend. i know its hard. cause i was tempted many a times. but i restrained. i understand how she feels. she means well. like just now. but sometimes, i just cant help it. who can? can you? i want to grow up fast.



@ 8:35 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

@ 5:22 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

here's a list of people who calls me "shan" - juan ling lai sivan prem cyn san mabel dawn lulu gaya renu
did i miss out anyone? if i did tell me okie?

haha. can see that theres very little people huh? but, i want to say thank you! i like being call shan by people i have known for a very long time or people i am close to. it makes me feel that i m blessed. haha. hard to explain. i mean, i m sure many of us have nicknames that our close friends call us by right? and, no matter how long you guys have been apart, the nickname still stands. like, even though i havent seen zihui for a very long time, she stills calls me "shanx"(<--she always put the 'x' in) and i still call her lai. haha. luyi too! i call her 'lulu'! haha. oh and juan got a new one..its 'juanjuan'..she kinda hates it, i think.
right juan?

haha. oh, and none of my juniors call me shan. know why? casue they call me by another nick. its 'baichi' or 'idiot'. it kinda started after the council camp at costa sands. haha. thanks to tungtat. he started calling me that and the rest started to follow. *shakes head* well, not ALL my juniors call me that. its only those guys from joshua+jerold's batch and eng how. haha..

okie. actually i had a lot of thoughts about this topic just now. now all gone. sigh.



@ 11:59 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

hhahaa..my brother is just like my sister! ahh!! they both love singing karoke and stephanie sun's songs! they are doing it now! i cant even hear my thoughts! HELLLLPP!! haha..

@ 3:29 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i think i take my com for granted. i just switch it on and off as and when i like. then i leave it on for long periods of time without using it. i place my handphone next to it. now i think i can see and hear it complaining protesting. the screen sometimes do funny things. its nt virus, at least i think so. and i think somehow a search engine manage to get into my com(either that or my noob bro dwnloaded without realising). now, for words like bed and mba, it will highlight it. and i cant seem to find it to uninstall it. then, just know, when i start up my com, i can actually hear the starting of the 'fan' or 'engine' whatever u call it. and it sounded like most of us when we just fall asleep but someone woke us up. my gosh.

i like my com. and tomorrow, i m nt gonna use it after 10. gonna give it a break. i just wish i can have my own com so i can take care of it my style. and prevent my bro from abusing it. anyway, tomorrow got JP3. i m gonna meet my fear. dun ask.

@ 1:08 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

having a headache/migrain whatever you wanna call it. i m having it now. at the right side of my head. at the back to be precise. its periodical. will not take any panadol.

haha. was telling ber i feel like chopping my locks(sounds british?) aka cutting my hair short again. then she unknowingly reminded me that for whatever it takes, i shld not cut my hair.

the last thing i want is to look like her. and charissa even mistook me(when i was wearing my specs) for her once. my goodness. *faints*

@ 10:01 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

ha. well, i m NOT gonna dwell on this topic for long. but how many people use "incur your wrath" at the same time? so COINCIDENTAL aint it? but you know what? i seriously dont care. maybe like ber say, "stranger conincidence" had happened. so i am gonna let it pass.

and, for freaking information. the number of class gathering and outings i have organised and failed. the number of apologies i have to say to those who agreed to come but it didnt work out is far more than you can think of. my fingers cant even count them. i fumed. yes, i did. but, i DO NOT go to the extend of pouring vulgarities at my friends. cause thats just plain low. oh, and for most of the gatherings i organised, i m not even their CT rep or class chairperson.

and if you think by not leaving a name is starting on the right foot, my goodness, you are so wrong. its freaky. F-R-E-A-K-Y. yup. and what do you mean by us getting on the wrong foot?! ha. theres no foot toeven talk about. yesh, now you have started on the wrong foot.

well, i have spent 2 entries on this already and i think thats more than enough. i dont wish to see anything abt this incident on my tagboard or anywhere again. because i can just go on and on and on. and it just spoils my mood. period.

@ 9:45 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i hate to admit it people. my taste of guys/crushes in the past really really sucks. there was derrick, qingyuan and bruno(<--yesyes, i use to have a crush on him)...

and, they all look so urgh! definitely nt someone i will have a crush on now. no offence yah?! the guys still have their appeals..but...not to me. haha. saw derrick's pic in friendster! OMG! he's gotten chubbier?! or maybe he still look the same. but definitely not cute to me anymore. then theres qingyuan. my goodness. i think it was him in friendster. i mean the one i saw from sai's account. AHH!! not cute anymore! then bruno. my goodness. he is not suai. pls. yes, bad boy look. but definitely not the kinda look i like. ok, i admit i use to google at his legs. but you cant blame me! he has sexy legs. haha.tan and muscular and he is tall! so many guys are either shorter or the same height as me. so not nice.

haha. okie. i rant finish le. i dun mean i m very cute/beautiful or anything. its just that i cant believe i have such taste in guys. blame it on my hormones. haha.

@ 1:53 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

its kinda hard to construct my words cause i m listening to songs and i keep singing..so my thoughts keep get disrupted with part and pieces of the song..

anyway, it doesnt take long for junk mail to catch up with you. haha. i have changed my hotmail account for like 3 times. i must admit. the first time i changed my email was because the name was stupid. then i change to a second email. then the junk mail keep flooding me! leaving practically no space for my personal message. then i changed again. to my current email. that was at the end of 2002. now its only the end of 2004! and my hotmail is overflowing with junk mail again!! at first the junk mail folder was doing its job. in fact it did it too well! it even filtered off some of my personal mail. that was good! now it has gone bonkie(<--my slang for bonkers)..it allows junk mail to go into my inbox! urgh. am seriously considering whether to change my mail again. urgh. haha.

okie. just some stupid rambling. better get back to my music. oh yeah, might change my blog add AGAIN. just take a look at my msn nick for more information. or leave a tag. for spp members, dun worry! just go to our webbie! the link will be updated! whee...

@ 3:42 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

if you think i am gonna take this lying down, then you are damn fucking wrong. even though many of my friends ask me to leave you alone and ignore that comment you made on your blog, i wont. abusee is right.

well, in the first place no one ask you to read my blog. i changed my blog add and you found it again. well, congrats. since you are in my blog then you are subjected to my opinion and my 'rule'.

if you want to leave a msg on my tagboard, be decent and leave a name. is that so damn fucking hard?! well, apparently everyone thinks that its alright. even passer-bys leave theirs. i suggest you see a consultant about your problem. fuck off.

a weirdo whos leaving messages on my blog and wont leave a name. my temper is well known to be short. so its of course in my damn freaking right to get angry. well, if you dun like it, then stop reading my blog, you asshole!

last of all, i know u dont have a cb. since you like it so much and mention it so many times, i suggest you go and get one. i know a few good plastic surgeons since i did a project on plastic surgery. oh and, look at yourself, scolding people just cause 1 stupid class gathering/outing didnt work. awww...did they hurt your feelings?! welcome to life ya?! thats how it goes..shit happens. if i get pissed off everytime a class outing didnt work and just because of that my mood to have fun gets ruined, i would have died of heart attack from getting angry too much. get a life!

there. i feel much better. no, thats only like half of what i want to say. but i have censored some out over the last few minutes. i was actually thinking my last comment about asking you to not leave a msg at all was kinda mean. but, obviously, you proved me wrong. thank you very much. fuck off.

@ 1:22 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

@ 12:59 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

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@ 11:55 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i m pissed. very pissed. no one asked him to read my blog. i m trying to contain my temper now. will be right back.

@ 11:13 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

haha. nothing to do and since none of my parents are at home i came online!! whee! hehe..*sinister laughter*

i didnt know my friendster testimonials were not showing until i saw the bullentine board. bleh. the notice was that they are nt displaying and none of the testimonials are ACTUALLY missing. what do they mean by not actually?! they better not lost mine! i love mine alot! haha.

heres a number of outing so far i have to go/organise. go out with spp. go out with lai lulu mabel yuting peiyu etc. then go work with heli weilin yuting(not the same one) charissa. then go class chalet. then maybe organise coun outing for my batch and another one with the juniors. and maybe, just maybe i will organise a PSL alumni outing. *knock knock* have the alumnus died? why arent there any meeting? even if there's nothing to discuss, we can at least meet and say..have lunch together?! haha. okie, i think i m going to play theme hospital again. haha. i never did complete that game! duff.

@ 5:09 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i'm touched. thanks ber for getting me the panadol this morning! oh and help me thank your mum and grandpa(i think is grandpa ba). haha. apparently your grandpa came over and asked my mum whats wrong with me cause i asked for a panadol cause your grandpa and mum are worried. haha. thanks. i m not very sure how the msg get to your grandpa but i guess is thrugh your mum?! please reassure them that i m okie? haha.

then when i came home, my parents (yes, both of them at the same time) told me. i was going "okieeee..." in my head. haha. then my mum was saying no one else will care so much de. haha. so next time ber, you want a panadol call me then i can tell my mum! haha.

now i think i m ban from using the com after 12 cause my mum blames the headache i have nowadays on spending too much time in front of the com. haha. i dun think i make sense. but who cares. my head hurts again. dammit.

@ 5:12 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

its midnight. in 8 more hours, i will be having my chinese AO exams. but, my face is glued in front of the com. have been here since 8. didnt re-read my chinese. did none of those. feel guilty. hai. keep thinking about buying chick lit tomorrow. keep thinking about what to do with my hols. cant wait for it to start.

whatever. better pack my bag and snuggle up in bed with 8days.

@ 12:00 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

shall stop studying once the clock strike 8. will watch sinagpore idol. will rest and watch tv till 10.30. then i will READ through the words of "Z" and do the small exercise of "A-M". by 11.30 or 11.45. dont care whether i am done or not, i am going to pack my bag and brush my teeth. wont touch anymore chinese until tomolo morning. i will sit up in bed and REREAD my storybook or 8days till sleep comes and claim me. yup. i tried my best. i will score well for chinese. its the only thing i can do well in. at least i think so.

@ 6:12 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

dun feel like talking about my life. er. dont worry, i will still be blogging. but i just dont feel sociable enough to talk on msn.

right, i m at the "S" for my chinese words. hold your thoughts! dont go wow yet. i started at "N" today. which means i skipped all the words from "A-M" which i supposedly have studied at the bginning of the year, during mid years. haha. hope they are still in my brains. *conks head* i can just see all those chinese words floating in my brains. like my brian is a big cauldron. haha. then i m the witch. stringing the words together. haha. come people, lets say it together. " trouble, fumble, boil and bubble..make all these words join and make sense!" (<--hopeless attempt at rhyming).

all i can do is pray that my chinese compo inspiration and 'talent' will come back again. so i can again write a 52mark or better compo during the AO chinese exam on friday. and all the words i have studied will actually make sense. or the words that come out would at least be understandable when u slice up and investigate them word by word.

right. may not be blogging or coming online tomorrow. seeing that i have 82 pages of chinese to finish. and i still am set to complete the set of worksheet the kind chinese teachers gave us and read through my quality compo. hai. sweet dreams to me! chinese aint that bad. seriously. the phrases or idioms are kinda funny some of the time.

@ 1:18 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

do you know the kind of ball thats super bouncy? those kind that u can get by putting 20cents into those kinda "vending" machine? those kind you like a lot when you were a little kid? those kind you have a lot when you are young but sorta disappear once you grow up?

well my 13 year old brother is now bouncing that ball at the wall behind me. so when he bounce, he is suppose to catch it. it's his little childish game. but, the probabilty of him catching it is like..what? one in five? so when he doesnt catch it, i have a high chance of getting hit.

and that, happened just now. the ball bounced back and then hit the monitor rebounced and almost hit my specs and my eyes. luckily, i have a quick reaction. but, it didnt hit my face, but my arms. and you can be damn right that it hurts like hell. urgh. i screamed at him. cause other than hitting me, it can also hit the tv, the piano, the glass panel of the cupboard and my cup of coke etc. then he laughed. my mum laughed.

guys, this is bad news. i m losing my fierce and intimidating look. i have to work on that again. urgh.

@ 9:42 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

good news- lai will be around for my birthday this year. and for the next three years.

good news- i got promoted.

good news- everyone in my class got promoted.

good news- PW is officially over.

good news- my mum dont need to go for the operation. at least for now.

good news- i feel better now. abit at least.

good news- i realise i dont like any food in particular. but i have alot of food that i hate. but what i truely like is chocolate chip cookie and chocolate.

good news- now i have time to read books. finally. problem is i need books. and i have a few in mind. no bucks though.

@ 11:29 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

notice the last line of the description...

Even if you get mad, Everyone still thinks it's cute!

aint it true?! sivan right?! haha..its either you guys or someone who say even when i m mad i still look funny..bleh! =P

@ 7:16 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

You're an Angel! You're super cute not to mention
Opstimistic! You love anything having to do
with Bunnies/Kitties/anything cute. You're very
fun to be around, Even if you get mad, Everyone
still thinks it's cute! Lucky you!

What Kind of Girl are you? (anime pics)
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@ 7:15 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

hi mouse, this is the computer.

hahaha..pw group job.

@ 6:31 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.