back from the zoo(:

and kenji was right. it DID change alot. polar bear is STILL there! but when i saw it, i cant help but feel sad o.O i rather they send it to some cold places. *sigh*

had fun(: i want night safari! photos tmr or later.
@ 6:24 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i have no idea why but i am just extremely tired today. despite having 8hours of sleep.

i went for facial around 3pm. then met up with ber.

i was super tired and lethargic. so my replies were half-dead. and its REAL hard to carry on a conversation with me. hahas.

so we ate and walked ABIT then sat down and stoned and eat somemore-.- hahas. yups(:

i am tired tired tired. and my poor poor legs are tired too. zoo tmr *yawns* i think i am falling sick.my appetite today is like BLAH. my mood today also BLAH. *sigh*

been spending quite alot on nail products. i bought a top coat and strengther and filer-.- vain vain vain. and when i told lai, all she did was laugh! ahahas. bestie, its ur fault! hahas.
@ 2:14 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i'm back. at last *phew*
transformers is the movie the guys "forced" me to watch. fyi, they are my "movie partners" for now(: never thought i was a machine and action type of person, but transformer just made me fall in love from the very start of the movie. its funny and action packed! i almost wished it didnt have to end so soon! and when bumblebee was injured or when one of them got ripped apart, i almost cried. WEAK! hahas. but its a must watch. scotchey, you wont regret watching it!

yups. so by the time the movie ended, theres no more bus left. so we had to work home-.- the guys walked so fast lahs! when they take one step, i have to take 2! so i was striding really really quickly trying to keep up with them. of course, they were talking about NS stuff. using all the short forms that i dont get BUT pretend to get. hahas. and kelvin (as usual) entertained us with stories about camp life overseas. hahas.-.-

yups(: facial tmr so i will be having lots of scars and poke marks on my face. then dinner with ber(:

you know, whenever i watch movies, i just wish that i have that someone special with me. that i am watching with someone else. not with my "movie partners". i just. i dont know. its just that feeling. *sigh*

but then again, hearing stuff about relationships today, i am kinda glad that i am not in one.

i dont know. i am still undecided on these things. so i guess, just take things as it comes? if the feelings there, then cool! be it a fling, a short term r/s or anything. yups(:

alright. i better go read HP5 and nurse my stomache(cant spell!).

someone remind me that kelvin owes me $8 and i need to lend him HP 5 and 6!
@ 2:10 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

my mother is evil.

hahas. let me tell you what happen. my appetite these days is HUGE, right?

so my mum took advantage of it. my servings for dinner is GIGANTIC. it used to be 3/4 of the bowl. now its 1.05 of the bowl! i "complained" and she said, "no lahs, the rice very loose mahs. so like alot." i know i can CONTROL the amount i eat, but i usually a)eat while watching tv orb)in a rush, so i usually end up eating the whole bowl of rice!

and thats not all. my mum knows that if theres snacks in the house, i will eat them since i am ALWAYS looking for something to bite/chew on stuff around midnight. sooooo....she starts bringing up biscuits (bite-size somemore!) and buying my favorite cake! midnight snacking = bad!! hahas.

see lahs. everyone complain that the 3 of us are skinny. my brother and sister are skinny because of their genes. i am skinny partly because of genes and MAINLY because i am a picky and a good controller of what i eat. now that my control is "weakening", my mum is taking advantage of it!

MEAN! hahahas.
@ 10:46 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

feeling a little anti-social with certain type of people today.

but i had "fun" working today. and i reported the wrong sales figure to lau lau today. lols. they are doing settlements everyday so the CORRECT sales figure is in front NOT at the back.

yesterday, i was the cleaner. today, i am the admin officer. wonder what i will be tomorrow? hmms..

trying to write a cover letter. BUT! i realised that theres no address for me to post to! the companies that i want to work for all accept online application only. BLEHS.
@ 9:23 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

bimbotic kind of post recently.

i am kinda glad. at least i am not residing in my head going run and run in circles like a dog chasing its own tail.

headache. better take advantage of the cool weather and go to bed.

last day of work for lai tmr(: and a month and 2 weeks more for san(: cant believe lai and me are actually gonna graduate at the same time. her degree is only 2 years!
@ 2:36 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

scotchey, prison break is not for you

it's gruesome. kinda. so be prepared ok?!
@ 2:06 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

so you see. i was working with cassandra while joey (my supervisor who is SUPER HIGH today) went to the toilet when she(cassandra) asked, "soooo..do you have a boyfriend?"

me: "nopes. never had a boyfriend."
her: "serious?!"
me: "yeah."
her: "dont you want one?"
me: "never really thought about it."

hahas. which is kinda true? oh wells. see see! everytime i meet someone new i have to answer this question.hahas.
@ 11:52 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

我终于能听“黑白配”without having memories flashing past me(:

it's been a long infactuation huh?

the wonders of camp(: theres just something theraputic (cant spell) about camps. maybe cause it reminded me how i used to be. single but happy. busy but enjoying it.

okok. and something happened in between that diverted my attention. then camp rolled by to pull me out of both.

FOC! but it clashes with HP7 and i have to wear formal to AB228A that week *cries*
@ 10:43 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i was talking and doing those hand gesturing that i am oh-so-prone to doing yesterday.

and lai saw my painted nails. and she went, "shes wearing nail polish! hahahaha. omg. nail polish! wahahahaha." and she took my hands and looked at them for quite some time like its sucha amazing fact-.-

that coming from the girl who bought that bottle of nail polish with me-.- my besties are a little cuckoo. both of them. =X
@ 10:19 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

does my brother take pure biology and chemistry or combined?! sheesh. i forgot! i am a "terrible" sister. hahas.

my memory is seriously suffering these days. i have officially lost PART of my sense of my direction. or rather its an on again, off again thing. i think scotchey's sense of direction is even better than mine now! *horrors* thats REALLY bad! hahahs. shes is so gonna kill me. sorry, scotchey. wo ai ni o~

kl called me just now and asked me to go to the beach tmr. which i cant. work! bummer. and we talked for awhile(: nice nice. i miss having phone calls.
@ 8:20 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

there are people out there who, how should i put it? once they think that their way/thinking/actions are right, they will follow it through. i am not saying that its not a good thing. its okay. but must you force that thinking onto others? and when others dont "accept" that action, you kinda "look down" on them? yups. just an observation.

my younger brother just yelled at me for no good reason. i just said, "where's mum?" and he poured out a series of nagging making me sound like some ungrateful P.O.S GAH! maybe he should look at his own attitude first. but, no. i am not even going to touch on that. because i know if i do, he is gonna get aggressive with me. URGH. so yes. i am going to push my movable table into my room and work on my resume for AB228A.

i received a message from lai this morning. which made me smiled(: thanks, bestie(:
@ 3:53 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

girls, i'm sure you guys will be glad to know this.

i've deleted everything thats related to banana ass! *hear cheers and applause*

actually, i am long over it. but i have made it OFFICIAL. *claps*

and yes, you can chuck it under/into the "embarrassing crush of huishan'" cupboard. hahas. which i think is quite mouldy (moldy?o.O) ah..

(gosh. i am being such a drama-mama these days.)
@ 4:10 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

the only picture she took.

the many many pictures we took. lols.

thats my nano and my mini (which belongs to lai now).

yups. then we took train to marina bay and all the way home(: happy day.

resume writing tomorrow!

@ 11:56 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

this calm i havent felt in such a long time.

but is it the calm before the storm?

i am missing camp life. why? i have no idea. theres just something soothing about it.
@ 10:33 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

AB228A sucks. if i thought AB114 was superficial, then AB228A would be plastic? o.O

i realised that my eyes feel dry everytime i wear my specs! hmm. funny. oh wells. contact lens it is. UNLESS i am working in J8. lols. it's okay to look ugly and feel uncomfortable at J8 since its just ten minutes away from my home(:

hahas. i feel so bad. scotchey, always always have to listen to me grumble these days. especially about one particular issue. which dessert partner also know about. hahas. without the both of them, i would have probably self-imploded. and i am going to tell bestie(s) on saturday.

kbox-ing with one bestie soon! shopping with the other! and hopefully dinner with the two of them. and if work allows, i'll be meeting sivanny wany boo for dinner~ hurrahs! i want to meet jie-en!! wonder if shes back from thailand already.

note to self: call up dentist. call up ymca for trip to taman negarah.
@ 1:43 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i got into banking and finance.

i didnt get into tourism and hospitality.

still trying to come to terms with it. but it's all smiles and pretence to everyone else.

thanks, degen and ming jian(: for being there to tell me that it's okay to let THM go.
@ 2:13 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i really dont want to be the one to start this all over again.

yes, cynthia. we all know that SPP is falling apart. but is anyone doing anything to stop it? yes, we all know that we need to sit down and talk? but is anyone actually taking the initiative to actually organise that talk?

the answer is simple, no.

that aside. simple small things like normal gatherings, no one wants to take the initiative to organise it. so all of us are just saying, "i miss you. i miss you." and "OMG! i MISS you!" then sitting there and praying that the power of the word "miss" will miraculously organise a gathering for us.

ok, kudos to some of you who tried to organise one gathering. but when that gathering didnt happen (as it always do), you guys just give up. and then it's the whole waiting game again. from the pov of the idiot who usually do something abt her misses, it feels like you guys are just chalking up "points". i feel like you guys are saying, "oh. i have done my part this year. not my fault it didnt happen."

you said that my msges can be harsh? how about yours? you actually think that i will be tempted to cheat on my friend?! yes, i did that thing you are afraid of doing. i told you because i thought you of all people will understand and will not think that i am a sleazy and promiscuous (cant spell) girl. but apparently, i was wrong. you know how hard i cried after i saw that msg of urs? and how hard i tried to sound cheerful when i replied back? do you even know how bad i felt to have this thing (being asked to be a cheater) AGAIN?

thats only an example. you told me to deal with my life. to bear with it. for now. but do you know that i am already doing the best that i can? but theres only so much i can bear and deal with. it's overflowing. i keep trying to sit on the lid but they do slip out now and again. i dont have a boyfriend like you. i dont have someone to hug or even talk on the phone with once in a blue moon (i know both of you are busy but you guys do meet up once in a while). i guess you've been attached for so long, its hard to imagine how hard it is being single at times. i know the differences. i do. and i dont blame anyone.

i dont know what i am trying to say here. but yes, i dont want to start. i guess it all boils down to the same point, do you guys want to be friends? if yes, then make that effort.
@ 1:57 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

back from senior's camp(:

i absolutely love love fright night. okay, i LAUGHED throughout the whole journey and asked the "ghosts" some pretty idiotic question. now i feel so bad =X lets see if i remember anything.

so we arrived at changi beach club there and waited for quite some time. which was not too bad, i guess. then some "triplets" were taken to this really wulu place. nice atmosphere for scaring! so we were told to sit down, blindfolded and our hands tied together. and then we WAITED. for quite some time. which is really tiring and a total mood spoiler? me, sh and winston started asking qian bian wan da ti lahs! hahas. personally, i think they could have start scaring us the moment we were blindfolded and tied. how? hmm. i think can try playing those REALLY old songs? like 忘不了 and have those static radio sound. i remembered being freaked out when my seniors played those songs during my first council camp(: ohoh! and maybe can get someone to sing those songs softly beside our ears when we are blindfolded.more atmosphere(:

and i have to say sorry to the person sitting in front of me while we were blindfolded. cause i was kind of impatient (and bored=X) so i wanted to know if the group is still there so i stuck out my foot to test and kicked her quite hard. so embarrassing-.-

then in between nothing much? walked around blindfolded with kenji and the other guy leading us (can recognise their voice). ohoh! funny thing was, at one of the junction/stations, our blindfolds were slowly removed for us. and then this person (lionel?) with the face all painted stood right in front of me. its suppose to be scary. but when i saw the face i was like, "oookkkaayy.." brain didnt connect with sense so i stuck out my tongue at him>.< and i laughed throughout most of the journey, cracking jokes and stuff.

finally, finally we reached the "haunted" house(: the "ghosts" standing at the front foor were supposed to fling open the door to create that *omph* feeling. but the door got stuck! and i dont who it was but someone said, "oh shit." hahas. cant remember what happened on the first floor. but the guy in my "triplet" just stood in one corner while me and sh was chased around the room by one kid "ghost" that keep asking us to knock and open the door. sh was scared so i knocked on the door while she turned the door knob and i pushed the door open. i knew someone was inside, so when i pushed open the door, i went, "boo!" at the same time as the "ghost" who came out and chased us up the stairs.

then we went into some room. where theres two toilets i think? they got the guy to lie on the bed next to a lump of black thing which is pretty obvious that someone is hiding underneath? so that was pretty ok. i was brought to a bathroom, told to stand inside. then *boo* a "ghost" appeared over the shower railing. the whole hanging thing. when he *booed*, i said, "oooookkkaaayy" and waited. i thought theres more to it! but dont have so i turned and look at the "ghost" who told me to get in. i guess it would have been scarier if i was told to pull open the shower curtains and then theres a "ghost" lying in the bathtub. make me stare abit and think that nothing is going to happen before grabbing my hands suddenly! *shivers* sh was sent to a bathroom to look for something. the guy and i was standing outside and chatting >.<

next room. i think is the 3 plates thing? i had chicken, the guy had some funny thing and sh had pocky. nothing special? point to note though. what if the person who kana the chicken plate is a vegetarian? hmms. oh! i broke the curtain! hahas. we were suppose to pass through this curtain so i was holding it for us to pass through and i pulled too hard and the thing came off =X violent ah.

then there was this room where a "ghost" insisted to put me to bed? so i went along and i asked a really stupid question when i was climbing in, "with or without shoes?" hahas. okok, so diao right?! i cant believe i said that. but i started laughing after i said it. then sh went into the toilet to look for a doll and then the guy gave the doll to me. then it was snatched away and out we go! i had to grabbed my shoes and run. it will be better with while i was in a rush to put on my shoes and get out of the room, a hand will suddenly come out and grabbed my legs from underneath.

then we were supposed to crawl into a room (poor knees of mine). and while crawling halfway, this "ghost" popped out. i must say, i was a little freaked out and crawled a little faster after that. and when we finished crawling, the guy was called away and the "crawling ghost" keep reaching out her hands to me and sh. and i reached out to hold her hands. at which point she asked me to combed her hair. so i combed and i tried REALLY hard this time to bite back my tongue but i couldnt resist and asked, "any preference? side partings or center partings?" =X ok, hit me someone. hit me! she asked me to look into the mirror and asked if i see anything and i said, "you look pretty." hit me! ohoh. the guy told me that he was told to open cupboards? and he expected someone in the big cupboard but instead it was the small one! COOLNESS! not really sure what was sh task in that room was. hmms. but so far, thats my FAVORITE ROOM! *hoots*

oh. and that horror movie we were supposed to watch? i didnt watch. i just closed my eyes and talked to sh who was sitting beside me. i thought it was that scary scene from "The Exorcist" but before i closed my eyes, i realised, it's not. so while talking, someone shouted behind us. SUPER LOUD. my ears went eeeeeeeeeee for awhile after that. hmms. any other rooms i left out? dont think so.

i guess its not scary for me because i actually know sh and the guy who was with us. so not too bad(: but i think it would have been better if fright night was held on the first/first few nights? cause the campers wont know each other that well so they wont really talk so it's scarier. but at the same time, they are forced to stick together and bond(:

fright night was PURE FUN! i wished it was longer.

the rest of the camp? well, the games are pretty okay? but maybe because of my group (we are like so small?), it was kinda boring. hmms. some games are not that well-matched for BIG groups? even for mine. some played while some watched. JUST WATCHED. no cheers(maybe can allocate a small amt of time ESPECIALLY for the OGs to teach the freshies some simple cheerso.O). and i had to sit out for most of the water games because i cant swim! URGH! if i know how to swim, i would have jumped right in (seeing that i usually have the whatever-sui-bian attitude in camps). some of my groupmates got kind pissed because of that. *sigh*

not sure if they will have the point system in the actual FOC. but i think with a "point system", OGs will be more motivated to give their best? oh. and the stations for games? maybe can coordinate. like say each OG can only spend 30 minutes at one station, if the time is up, the programmers will sound the alarm on the loud hailer to indicate that its time to move on to the next one. so that this will reduce time wasting? maybe not so feasible for night games since its all over the school. but the rest should be ok? espcially field games!

NANYANG LAKE WAS GREAT! though i kinda can tell. but FUN!

the people in the camp was quite nice. keep apologising for this and that. espcially for lying to us. but it's okay lahs. no need apologise. it was all in the name of FUN!! hahas. oh. thanks to kenji too! for holding on to the float during water captain ball, apologising for the scratches on my knees and coming to my "rescue" during nanyang lake/telling me the truth.and that other guy who always come and talk to me during breaks while sh was busy pressing away on her phone. and fiona, germaine, Edelina, abigail and a few other girls who tried to include us into their conversation(:

overall, it was fun(:

but maybe i should have stayed in sirius (my original OG). maybe then it would have been more fun since it's mainly made up of guys so theres less "politics". unlike my OG and sister OG group. too many girls, too few guys. i'm sure i have some knives stuck on me with all the dagger thats been thrown my way.
@ 12:52 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i am missing you.
i am missing you for.
i am missing you for the.
i am missing you for the things.
i am missing you for the things you.
i am missing you for the things you do.

you being a general term. missing the days when people's image of me are just innocent and simple. yups.

and i just want to get the whole specialisation thing out of the way. to the extreme that i just dont care which spec i am getting into. just give it to me. if i got into some sucky course, okay. AT LEAST i have something PROPER to dwell and be upset about. i hate the whole there-but-not-there thing. the whole i-am-worried-but-its-not-going-to-help-anything. I JUST WANT TO MOVE ON.

and if you think i am thinking this way because my results aint that bad. WRONG! i just dont really do the dwelling part? like how paper like to discuss their paper right after they have done it. i guess, this is the same right? i dont know. old habit die hard, i guess.

if i'm offending anyone, sorry. but thats how i really feel.

bitch mode.
@ 2:00 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

busy busy day at RC outlet today.

i was stuck at the cashier while gabby and shu juan was outside standing by. and guess what? gabby actually thanked me for doing the cashiering for them just now(: aww. sweet. hahas.

but by the time i was done with cashiering, the whole cashier is/was like a war zone. hahas. certs, paper, boxes, ziploc and receipt are everywhere. not to mention that theres a list of suspended transaction in the computer. i hope janice wont kill me. >.<

too much of thank yous. and how many items. and do you want to pack them together or seperately. i am having a sore throat.
@ 9:03 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i drew this(: in 15 minutes! admittedly, its not the best sketch since scotchey's face is a little bit distorted. hahas. and i REFUSE to draw in the eyes, mouth and nose because its gonna make the whole picture so cartoonic! hahas. but i will try harder de(:

it's been a good wednesday(: thanks to scotchey, ber and san(: i loooovvee you guys!!

me and scotchey at borders(:

scotchey! i saw someone carrying that big orange crumpler that you like. quite nice eh! hahas.

no pictures with ber. because the one we took look really lousy. hahas. and no pictures with san because i only talked to her on the phone(:

@ 1:02 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i told devil sister about my friend's boyfriend (no, i am not spreading it. i just want to find someone who understands). and her reply hurt the most. she said she would hit on her boyfriend's friend just to make him jealous. i understand that. but he hit on me on MSN! so whats the excuse? and devil sister even went on to say, "so! were you tempted?" its like 2 slaps on my face. how could she even think that?!

i want to go back to "innocent" times. to the simple life and concentrate on my paper on wednesday.

talk to me normally. tell me about your daily routine. about how the bus was late. about what you had for lunch. ask me about animation. ask me about my theories.

whatever.
@ 3:06 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

perks of working in town?

1) lots and lots of tourists(:

old couples holding hands. shopping together for souveniers for their grandchildren. so sweet(:

our local old couples dont do that. nah-ah.

2) lots of cute babies(:

well, you do get kids coming into the outlet in small outlets. but they are usually old enough to run around. and i would usually use pesky to describe them. not cute.

so in town, you see cute babies! and they are usually chubby and oh-so-adorable. and ang-mohs (cant think of the word now).

theres this baby that came into the shop today. so usually when i smile at them, they will smile, laugh and make those goo-goo sound. but this baby didnt! he just stared at me. so i stuck out my tongue and made a funny face.

and to my surprise, the baby slowly stuck out his tongue. SO CUTE! i started smiling(: BUT! he didnt "keep" back his tongue. he just let it hanged out. omg. CUTE! *melts*

and THAT, kept me smiling the whole day(:

3) good music.

okok. good music is available in every outlet. but in town outlet, you can blast it. theres rihanna, ne-yo, that girl that used to be from sugababes and 2 more. nice!

rihanna was on today! nice nice. i love love her new album(: i am so going to put ne-yo on when i go back! (:

4) time passes real quick.

really! its always one customer after another!!

---

and the setbacks?

1) you work OT but no pay:(

2) some customers are just plain stuck up.

3) i have to wake up early to travel there.

4) food is expensive!

hahas. yeah. all in a day's work(:
@ 12:00 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

prata date was cancelled today. and i was left with no lunch and no plans because i was stupid enough to actually clear the day for it. what a doofus i am.



but my day was not totally ruined. even though san cancelled lunch, she actually asked if i want to go along with her to robinsons. so yeah. i had lunch and i had fun with her(:



heres my results btw:

so there. i saved everyone from asking me the awkward qns and what not. so dont ask me about my results again, ok?(:

anyways, i know scotchey has been feeling kinda troubled by specialisations and things.

scotchey! look on the "bright" side! at least/no matter what, you will stuck with me for psycho, our compulsory subjects and comms class! ai ni oooo~!((:

@ 3:53 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

2 words: perlini's sucks.

2 more: jennifer sucks.

i seriously have no idea wth is going on in perlini. their pay is like $5 per hour WITHOUT commision for part timers. obviously they have never study OB before.

and whats worse? they send people who live in jurong to bishan. while they send people who live in ang mo kio to boon lay. do you know that just our travelling fees alone is approximately an hour's pay?! why cant you just send people who lives in ang mo kio to bishan and vice versa?

and this is especially the case when its jennifer planning the schdule. URGH!

i have had enough of standing up for them. maybe i will work till the end of june and then i am going to quit. i will see how my schdule is like for the week starting 18th and decide.

seriously, i work 9 hours everyday but the pay i bring home is like 5 hours only. i dont want to work anymore. period.
@ 6:44 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i dont know.

maybe i am the delusional one. maybe i am the gel sticking everyone together. maybe after getting pissed off with them so many times and NEVER doing what i threaten i will doing.

i spent like a gazillion sms-es trying to arrange a prata date with my gurlies. sms-ing them asking them if they want to meet. re-sms-ing them reminding them to reply me bcos they are all working. then when everyone finally replied, i have to sms them and ask them where they want to go and the time. then re-sms-ing them. then confirming the date and time and attendance. and i have to do it for 5 people! FIVE!

so today was supposedly the prata date. mabel was mabel as usual. never reply me after the countless msg. when she finally replied, she sound like she dont want to go. so i said, "if you dont feel like coming, it's ok." then she got pissed off with me as usual. and said shes not coming. fine.

then san messaged me and said she wants to spent time with her dad. which i understand. because shes been working real hard and hardly get to see her parents. so okay.

then theres cynthia me and sivan. and sivan cancelled. and then cyn cancelled. fine. whatever. . great. so i am left with no lunch. and i'm pissed!

this is NOT the first time this kinda things happened. it's been going on since we graduated from secondary school. i am always the "organiser". and we wont meet unless i suggest it. then when we do meet, its always," omg. i miss you!". yeah? well, if you really miss everyone so much so why dont you call for a gathering?

this is like the mazillion times that i am exploding over this thing. and no, this time i am not going to threaten to not organise any more gatherings. because i know i will always always do the opposite. so i just wanted to rant. so there.

maybe i am really delusional.

besties are still the best(: they mean what they say and when they say, "i miss you." you know theres an outing coming along(:
@ 11:15 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

yups. i got back my results. i am pretty okay with it, i guess. not what i hoped for but whats done is done. so will not dwell upon it.

and thanks to everyone who came to my "rescue" and gave me opinions about my specialistion(: ber, weijie, reika and san. i think that should be all(:

i guess its THM for first choice and BAF for second. because i dont want to have to face the "what ifs".
@ 2:41 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

it happened. and of course i am worried about my friend.

but does anyone know how that incident made me feel? does anyone care?

i know the attention will land on my friend. because shes the primary victim.

but i feel horrible too. no one will understand.
@ 7:48 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

what was i going to say?

shit. i forgot!
@ 4:45 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

hahas. finally saw scotchey after sooo loong.

and then we just yakked and yakked. hahas. oh wells.
@ 6:41 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

a war is about to break out in my house. between my dad and my brother. i am NOT going to intervene this time. because i have told my parents one too many times (since my brother was like 6 years old) that if they allow him to behave in such a rude, barbaric way towards them, then when they will have to handle the consequence and i am not going to intervene and talk sense into my brother because I TOLD THEM SO. period.
@ 11:29 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

suddenly i have this craving for mr bean pancake and soya milk with pearl. if you havent try them before, what are you waiting for?! and it cost only 2.70 per set. *yums*

anyways, work was okay today. joey and daphne was sick. hopefully they dont pass it to me! hahas. i think it must be the bubble tea we had yesterday. tsktsk. i kinda like the three of us working together. cause we got quite alot of things to talk about and everything. oh wells. get well soon!!

prata date on saturday with my pretty gurlies(: my zoo trip might be cancelled though. cause cynthia and san cant get leave, and sivan cant confirm. bummer. and i was looking forward to that trip so much:( but i guess, its predictable and expected. when i put in down in my organiser, i jinxed the trip. hopefully prata date wont get jinxed because i wrote it here. *worries* please let me meet up with my gurlies!

you know, maybe life wouldnt be so bad if i have one thing to look forward to every week. meeting with besties. movie "marathon" with eddy and kelvin. prata date. i need something to look forward to next week.

anyways, ber!! get well soon ok?!! you can try the tau huay from mr bean! i know you are sick of porridge too! when you are ok le, let's go out and eat lots of unhealthy food again!(thats what we always do right?! hahas.)

..men's shirts-short skirts; really go wild-yeah, doin' it in style; get in the action-feel the attraction;color my hair; do what I dare; i wanna be free-yeah to feel the way I feel; Man! I feel like a woman...
@ 12:12 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

spiralling back into the dark.

help.
@ 1:11 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

From sampat king's blog, i went and did the "test" and heres the result:

Your past life diagnosis
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I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Portugal around the year 400. Your profession was that of a jeweler or watch-maker.
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Your brief psychological profile in your past life
Inquisitive, inventive, you liked to get to the very bottom of things and to rummage in books. Talent for drama, natural born actor.
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The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation
The world is full of ill and lonely people. You should help those, who are less fortunate than you are.
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quite true eh? especially the drama part. now you know why i am always such a drama princess and why my actions are usually exaggerated(: hahas.
@ 12:19 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

tired. and the week is going to be BLAH. i have to tahan until after thursday.

忍!!
@ 7:10 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

while watching tv i heard this super old song and i like the lyrics. i guess that was how i felt last time. it hit the nail on the head. i guess.

我不能忍受 我想委屈的念头
在沸腾的街 用力的开口
我不要吵吵闹闹 我要乾脆 完就完了
不再难过 你给的太少
我不要缠缠绕绕 我要痛快 剪断苦恼
爱走了剩下疲劳
我不要搂搂抱抱 我要安静不被打扰
放我孤单 对我才最好
我知道不是现在 但有一天我会很好
或许能再和你笑著聊

yups:)
@ 2:19 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.