Monday, January 31, 2005
oh crap. tried to read some articles from OVRC but my splitting headache is back.
had fever in the afternoon. and i was delirious. how do i put it? my body was tired and aching. all it wanted was to rest and recover. but my mind was telling me to get my ass off the bed to at least do something about my gp test tomorrow. then, i fell asleep. and i woke up. i will walk around then fall asleep again. its like i have no control over what i am doing. its was scary.
yeah. so, i think i am going to bed soon.
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11:21 PM
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changed my blog add.
hope those pesky little pest will fly off. anyway, its either i have a lot of secret readers or someone spreaded my previous add around. anyway, glad that thats over.
just finish watching desperate housewives. nice. haha. but i will NEVER NEVER watch it with my brother. he will keep asking questions which is irritating.
mums home gtg.
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6:38 PM
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just finish talking to my cousin, jiawen. shes far far away studying. never knew talking to cousins can be so nice. hah. lets talk more!
cant say i am feeling better. but, whats done is done. and i am nt gonna change it. my temper is like that and like everyone said..my temper will eventually get me into deep shit. well, there.
anyway, business as usual. all this shit may be going on but i am still gonna complain abt my life everyday. and write abt interesting stuff.
how am i going to face my classmates tomorrow? i will face them as per normal. cause, its my life. i cant live it fearing everyone knows about it.
to my friends: get my new blog add from me if you want. oh crap, you guys will know from my msn nick
anyway. haha. if you dont have my msn then err...leave a msg somewhere?
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1:10 AM
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Sunday, January 30, 2005
sorry to all my friends.
sorry to get you into this mess.
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11:29 PM
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okay. i dunno whats the big freaking deal.
she started it anyway. why cant she just kept quiet or make her comment last obvious. yeah, i suck in throwing ball. so?
and, whoever it is that is spreading the message around. ie spreading my blog add around so that eileen's friends can read and comment on the bloddy entry, you are fucking childish.
anyway, let her fight her own 'battle'. i am scolding her not you. so its between the 2 of us.
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10:52 PM
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jeez. sick again. fever sore throat slight flu.
just woke up. but then the effect of the medicine is still around. better get my butt working if not i will not be able to go out with geksan and cynthia tomorrow. i miss them so no matter how sick i am i will still or how busy i am, i will still go.
dun ask. i wish i can take mc. but on monday, i have maths assignment. tuesday got gp block test. sad.
why do u make the effort to go out with another friend but not us?
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7:01 PM
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i m pissed now.
maybe i didnt make myself clear. i m not asking people not to JUDGE me at all. i m just asking them to keep their judgement to themselves. and yws, i m freakingly judging eileen. so what? and asshole, look at yourself. what the fuck are you doing? u ARE JUDGING me. get it? so unless you can do it yourself, dont come and say me. fuck off. and as i say, if you are not happy with what i wrote, thats your fucking problem cause i didnt give you my blog address personally. so, keep your problem to yourself ya? in case you are too thick to understand that, that means DO NOT TAG ON MY BOARD.
okie, to eventual. thanks! i m eventually learning to accept stuff. i m just so tired sometimes that i dont think i can go on.
anyway, my mum just changed the curtains while i am away this afternoon. boy, do i feel guilty. shouldnt have gone yuting's house.
and sivan, you are spared because of this. i'll probably write a long letter to you then. and its not all good.
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1:53 AM
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Saturday, January 29, 2005
busy busy busy day.
had CIP at bradell/toa payoh today. had fun! haha. especially with ber, ingird, heli, yuting..oh crap. everyone lah. we played catching in the playground! haha. lots and lots of screaming. and got scared by a dog. haha. it was standing at the door in one of the unit and ingrid said,'hi' and it started barking like hell. haha.. i jumped. haha. scare the hell out of me. but its funny. haha.
anyway, after that around 2 went to yuting house. so nice. haha. i like her room. but the block is super far in. oh well, watch 2 movies- American Wedding and Shallow Hal. but never complete any cause the DVD was spoilt and the lattter was just too boring.
oh well. busy busy. came home at 6. then helped my aunt carried food over to my grandparents house. helped around then finally came home and removed my contact lens at 8. in a few more minutes, i have to zooom back to their hosue. its my grand-dad's bdae. 80+ le!!
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8:13 PM
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Thursday, January 27, 2005
Diana DeGarmo - Emotional
Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy, but sometimes
I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional
Diana DeGarmo - Don't Cry Out Loud
Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all
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11:21 PM
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feeling much better now. minor bad things happen to me at home. i have 4 pimples on my face. the most EVER. haha. and i overslept. and i did nothing today.slept and read.
i cried when i was alone at home after i took my medicine. that helped. but, when i fell asleep i woke up with a splitting headache.
crying helped. sleeping helped. and messages from my friends helped. i m lucky to have friends who care. really.
anyway, i am not going to change anything about my previous entries. cause its my memory. but, ian after thought about the pe thing is, yes, maybe she didnt mean it. but she did 'excluded' us from playing. and its easier for me and my little ego to be pissed. yup.
so guys, thank you! i feel much much much better now after i vent.
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11:07 PM
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firstly, this entry will be in order. this will be the first one. the rest are a list of things that happen to me today. theres alot. just keep on reading if you want.
secondly, i am going to list out names today. i AM NOT going to censored out the names like i usually do. because this IS MY freaking blog. and i dont remember giving you(the people i am going to name out) my blog address. so if you read this, its your own bloody business.
so, if you got any other comments, fuck off. cause i seriously dont care.
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5:02 PM
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the first few signs
woke up today as usual. went about the usual business. except that my freaking contact lens wont go into my right eye. once its in and i start blinking, it will fall off. again and agian it happen. it even feel into the sink and i have to wash it. and its not like i have alot of time. i was late cause i was feeling super tired from my flu and sore throat. so at 6.55pm, it finally went in. thank god. i quickly changed and ran downstairs. luckily there wasnt much traffic today.
arrived in school. saw charissa while walking in, was rather happy cause have someone to talk to. then, we reached our class. suppose to queue up in single file. stupid sia. there was this HUGE gap between Yunqi and JiJi. if you are the one, you will close in the gap right?! well, obviously YunQi isnt any NORMAL person. JiJi moved and she just stood there blocking me charissa mag yuting and the rest who was behind her. so we were like "move leh" etc. there she still stand there. she even turned and looked at me with that scary look. and the parade 'commander' was about to call the school to attention. so, i was so bloody pissed. i shouted "EXCUSE ME!" and as i was walking to close up the gap, i was shouting " She still dont know the meaning of M-O-V-E move huh?!". i really hope that she HEARD me.
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4:55 PM
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the PE
so, my first period was pe. i passed my all my items which means no afternoon pe! cool. it also mean that i can do anything i want this pe. so, after weilin charissa and bernice all passed their standing board jump(good job guys! really proud!), me heli charissa bernice weilin yuting sandie ingrid started playing captain's ball.
fun right?! yeah. until eileen came and joined my team. the guys came to join too. pearlyn and amelia too. we divided into 2 grps.
My group: me charissa weilin yuting walter aik lim pearlyn eileen
Heli group: heli amelia ingrid sandie bernice you wee yong ming
and you know something? me charissa and weilin practically didnt touch the ball at all. yuting was the keeper so.(if you are nt from my class, feel free to ask me the cliques in my class and you will understand) know why? the game goes like this. walter to eileen. eileen to walter. walter to aik lim. aik lim to walter. walter to eileen. eileen to pearlyn. pearlyn to eileen. and they try to shoot.
well, the ball did come to me at times. but hey, everytime i throw, it will either be a)too high, the person cant catch b) too soft, the ball didnt reach c)the ball gets out of court. so, when the only time i tried to shoot (throw to yuting), there was no one there and yuting was clear. so i threw a high ball to her. but yong ming was there (which i didnt see) and he caught the ball. then eileen was shouting, " Huishan, you cant throw a high ball. he will catch one." (i wish you guys can see my face and hear me now. i can just imitate her bloody voice.) as if i didnt know from THAT mistake.
then, subsequently when i caught the ball. either (a) (b) or (c) will happen. so right before they ended the game, pearlyn was about to throw to em cause i was clear of opponents. you know what eileen the almighty said? " No.." then pearlyn tried again. "no..." came the almighty. and when pearlyn threw to me . she went " NOOOOOO!". great. i felt like just throwing the ball on the floor and walk away. but i just passed it and sat at the side.
well, miss almighty from the touch rugby team. i dont remember inviting you to join my team. oh, let me correct that. i dont remember inviting you to JOIN the GAME. secondly, i dont see you SCORING EVERYTIME you try to shoot. you know what? just because you are from a sports cca and pass all your napfa test nicely while i pass mine by 1second doesnt mean you are GOD. well, let me tell you this, you arent suppose to run shuttle run WITHOUT your shoes. screw you. maybe you need to wash your mouth. i have alot of evil thoughts for you but then again, i dont want the karma to come back. i hope karma will go get you. oh, look at you. so sweet. all deck out in branded goods. so sad.
and guys from my class who are reading this. you guys must be pretty pissed with all the things i am saying right? well, the thing didnt happen to you so please dont judge or say,"she's really petty/sensitive" but it damn well seems that way when i was playing the game. please dont think any less of me. i am really pissed. and am having a REALLY REALLY bad day. and i am sick for a week. my family isnt doing any better. i am spending more than i should. i am not helping out enough ard the house. my mum's arm(the one that was operated on during the removal of the cancer tumor) is swollen cause she wants to clean the curtains around the house for new year and she refuse to let me help/she do it when i am nt around. not trying to gain sympathy here. if you guys hates me, so be it. cause i am just too tired.
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4:48 PM
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the lunch break
was so eager to try out the "Mix-in-a-bowl" stall today. walked really quickly from the maths lecture hall to the canteen. queued rather long too. then, it was my turn.
here are the items i took:
- 2 fishballs
- 1 'tofu'
- 1 fishcake
- 1 stalk of vegetables.
and i ordered noodles, without soup. you know how much i was charged?! $1.60! and you know how much my friends were charged? $1.30-$1.50. and most of them took a little bit more than me! i was overcharged! i think the auntie dont know how to do business lor. i went and ask the uncle selling yong tau fu next door and he said he will charge $1.50 max if he were to sell in a school cause my 'ingredients' were really cheap. scammer. fucker. son of a b***h. the stupid auntie anyhow charge. and its not as if i am bloody rich.
and i cant enjoy my meal after that.
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4:41 PM
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the journey to AMK Bus Interchange
obviously it was not my day today. so i joked that i will not run after any bus today cause seeing my luck, i will die die sure miss it.
so, i didnt chase after my 22 today. i walked happily with yuting and charissa. glad that i had accompany. but once we reached the bus stop and my bus left, their bus arrived. so we said bye. never mind, i still have my trusty discman. then i saw a 135 turning the corner right after 156 left. so i put my hands out to flag for it. the driver had ample time to see me. but you know what? he didnt even bother to stop. he didnt even bother to turn into the bus stop. he pretended he didnt see me. and drove REALLY REALLY fast pass me. the passengers were all looking at me lor. and the people at the bus stop too. i was so malu.
and i waited for like another 15minutes before another 22 came.
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4:34 PM
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the journey home
i reached AMK bus interchange safe and sound. and i had geksan and charissa to sms. but by then i was really feeling super sucky. right after the 135 passed by me, i felt like crying.
anyway, at the interchange, i didnt have to chase after any bus. (wanted to write out the number but then thats too much information huh?) my bus came. and finally, i am just a few stops away from home. but once i step on it, the smell of fish (those smell you get at wet market or at the part where they sell fish in NTUC) was everywhere. i was going to puke. wanted to get down but i already scanned my ezlink.
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4:27 PM
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the conclusion
so i tahan all the way. reached my dad shop. sat there and told my dad how bad my day was. he listened and told me to be more careful cause if i m really so down on luck, anything might happen. and i felt like crying. thats the response i wanted all the day. for someone to say, "yeah, maybe its not your day. be careful" or give me a pat on my shoulders or just let me vent. not just push it aside. not just ask me to stop. i had all this feelings cooped up ALL day cause..cause..i think charissa they all were rather uncomfortable listening to me. and they are nice enough already. i had been complaining ever since the day i fell sick.
just by saying what i want now is enough to make me cry. cause, i really want it. cause i miss huijuan and weiling. they always listen to me when i had a bad day. but now, i barely say hi to them. i walked past juan today. and we didnt say hi. i was standing behind her in the queue today, and we didnt talk. i didnt even got the chance to tell her, " Juan..i am having a very very bad day". and its MAJORLY because, i no longer feel close to her..i am scared that she will feel that i am too clingy.
i better go take my medicine now. maybe everything will be alright once i fall asleep.
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4:20 PM
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Wednesday, January 26, 2005
lets see. i m still super tired. flu shows no sign of retreating. it will go and come back go and come back. downed two bottle of water today. which is really amazing cause i drink less than a bottle per day.
i feel super dehydrated because for the past 3 days i have been breathing through my mouth. amaze at how i survived cross-country. feel like going to doctor and get a day of rest but i think if i go to the doctor, my flu will be gone.
everyone is busy this week. i am too. homework homework homework. i am really impress by you guys! how can u manage with cca and homework?! a flu and homework are enough to kill me. my gosh. u guys must be superhero!
hand in there peeps!
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11:14 PM
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tired. got weathering tutorial or something. couldnt care less.
sick. tired. argh.
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9:14 PM
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Tuesday, January 25, 2005
i just typed a whole entry and the bloody blogger screwed up. *fumes* but shit happens. i understand.
as i was saying, i am sick! ahaha.
and i was mad with the parents this morning cause they didnt bother to ask me how i was feeling. but i am okay now. dad drove me home after school today. reached home at 2.50, ten minutes after my class ended *bliss*
was stoning and finding a good position to sleep in lecture halls today. but failed miserably. cant concentrate and cant sleep. wasted the whole day. should have stayed at home instead.
just 'gobbled' down my medicine. going to sleep soon.
might skip cross country tomorrow if i am not feeling well. thats what my mum told me to do.
that was all super summarised.
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11:20 PM
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Monday, January 24, 2005
have you ever had flu or a runny(running) nose and you went to bathe? then throughout the bathing, you are too busy concentrating on breathing and your body is like on auto pilot? when you have finish bathing, you will ask yourself, am i thoroughly clean?
well, i have. but i couldnt care less. it is impossible to breathe through my nose now. i know this may sound gross, but i have a rolled up tissue stuff up my nose! and the tissue get thoroughly soak after 1/2 an hour or so! eww...
haha. anyway, my brother is STUPID. excuse me for saying that..but, he tried to set up an internet survey. but at the end of it, he forgot to copy the URL for his survey. and he happily ask me how to check the result! i asked him whats the URL? he say never copy. then i told him he probably screwed it up le. he still say its correct. argh.
better go. nose is killing me. my mum banned me from watching 'desperate housewife'! sigh.
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10:38 PM
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the good thing about having a handphone that can store many many many messages is(are?) that i can 'blog' on the bus!! this entry is brought to you by my not-so-new samsung e600c;small is beautiful.
Anyway, i am sick! bad headache, bad sore throat (will u understand if i say bad throat?), runny(running?)
nose(bad nose?) and super bad mood. i was super unhappy with alot of people. the a5 guys, mr ng kim teck(felt like punching him throughout the tutorial) and the cleaners. shall elaborate when i feel like it. haha
other than that, it was a ok day. i officially ended my afternoon pe (shutter run at 10.8s!*grins*) talked about stupid stuff with ber and weilin(might bring that up later).
shucks! my bus just left! and ber walked with me to the bus stop so i wont have to wait alone for my bus!!
haha. thats about it. better end. this is my 6th sms. better stop and 'control' my nose. anyway, i just discovered that i 'press' faster than my phone can react so i get to see the words form! cool!
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4:28 PM
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Sunday, January 23, 2005
sunday. its time we start fretting and getting sian about the coming week.
i have a few more questions before i finish maths tutorial 3. actually was aiming to finish it by yesterday but i discovered i lost my maths tutorial 4 so down goes my mood for doing tutorial 3.
in a few moments, i will be off to do my DRAFT for econs essay. hopefully it will only take me an hour. cause i want to watch television and use the computer! surprise surprise. even though this WAS a LONG weekend, i didnt get much 'me' time. i was helping out around the house/shop and going out. SO. haha.
so, i better go now. i need to shit. haha.
okay, i know..information overload.
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6:48 PM
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Saturday, January 22, 2005
had alumni meeting today. only a few came. sadness.
anyway, i am beat. still have econs essay to do tomorrow.
gonna rest now.
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11:47 PM
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Friday, January 21, 2005
something never change i guess.
mabel is still mabel. no matter what. serious.
we didnt go to any of her band concert and shes like really negative about it. oh well. we dont go doesnt mean we dont care.
sometimes, people say they miss me because they havent seen me in a while. it always make me wonder if its true? well, if you miss me so much why dont you sms me? if you miss me so much, why dont you suggest a gathering? if you miss me so much, why dont you stop using "i'm really busy" as an excuse to not call a gathering? if you miss me so much, why dont we ever try new things/food again? if you miss me so much, why dont you ever call?
i use to sms my close friends about interesting things in my life. like when i see a funny situation on the streets, out comes my phone and i will start msging all of them. then we will have a small sms-conversation abt it. but, as i keep doing that, i realise, no one bother to reply anymore. thats why i stopped. nowadays, i kept all my funny situation to myself. i dont share anymore. not with my 'new' friends. or with my 'old' friends. its really sad come to think about it.
i wonder if i should still prepare valentine's day gift for you guys? maybe you guys have forgotten. well, that wont be so bad. i can stop cracking my brains about the gifts to buy.
anyway, i think lai is giving me chocolates for valentine's day. which is really sweet. cause she hates chocolate but she is still making it for me! lai, you're a worthy friend to have. dont worry bout what your friend said. and, making the first move is not a loser. its call brave.
if i sound clingy, i am not.
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6:46 PM
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Thursday, January 20, 2005
i should move on?
i miss lai!
i have an apple and you have two.
you give me one apple, now i have two.
i eat one apple and give one back to you.
i have no apple and you have two.
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would you rather swing on a star.
and never find out who you are...
lalalalalalala(<-4got the words)
or would you rather be a pig?!
remember these songs? haha. she love to sing them and irritate me. hhaha. the good old days of secondary school life.
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11:50 PM
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you gain some, you lose some.
yeah. i guess so. its sad to see that two of the people i was close to lost time in secondary school are drifting away from me. even though we are in the same school. sometimes, we say "hi" and "bye". sometimes, we just walk past each other. pretending that we didnt "see" each other. especially when we are with our own cliques of friends.
its not so bad with one. but the other. i seriously got no idea what happen. i miss them! miss going next door every lesson to talk to them through their class window or go and complain when my class politics got too confusing.
it applies to my juniors in ny too. i was SO excited that they are coming to ny for first three months. but now that they are here. sometimes, i pretend i didnt see them. or when i do, i dont dare to call out to them cause i wont know how to continue the conversation. and there will be awkward moments.
i guess that applies to my two friends above i guess.
i miss them. i miss you!u heard it?! spp, lets not drift. please. i dont think i want to go through it again.
friendship never last?!
I know that life won't break me.When I come to call he won't forsake me.I'm loving angels instead.
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10:50 PM
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at long last 2.4 screening test is over! and i just pass by 1 second! *secretly thank her lucky stars*
i have to thank weilin though! even though she havent run her 2.4km when i was at my last round, she came and ran with me and dragged me along. without her dragging, i would have failed. and i can confirm that. thank you! haha.
okie, and i want to thank everyone who cheered for me! sandie and ber too! cause they dragged me too! ahahah. now i have a bloody headache.
haha. anyway, theres no sit and reach! hurrah!
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5:12 PM
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Wednesday, January 19, 2005
i have never been so worried about 2.4km in my life before. never ever. AHHH!! going to bed in about 1/2 hour.
even my parents are worried. but i guess thats because this is important to me. i have been given 'supplements'. i got to eat those ginseng capsules(at least i think thats what they are). i have been drinking lots of H2O today(for the record, i am known as the camle cause i dun drink). chicken essence tomorrow. and panadol tomorrow casue i am still experiencing achy-ness. it sounds like i am committing sucide with so many 'medicine' huh?
but unlike my brother, i am not blessed with sports genes. haha. i m a HOMEY girl. i read at home. i cross stitch. i sleep. i do housework. do homework. play computer games. playstation. watch tv. help out in dads shop. go out and have meetings.everything. but not run! fretting fretting fretting.
but if i pass 2.4km but fail sit and reach how? damn, should have agreed to the letter abt being not able to do sit and reach when the doctor offered. i have to try my best. failing is not an optiono.O bedtime.
I was the one who gave you your first kiss. Cause I remember. I was the one who said put your lips like this.
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11:29 PM
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haha. fun and embarrassing day.
i said sarcity as scarity during econs today. even though my answer was correct, mr nandwani was giving me the funny funny look. haha. then he have to go and say that scarity sounds like some horror movie. malu malu malu! haha.
anyway, after school went to bishan with heli charissa and weilin. yuting didnt go. bleh. haha. we walked about looking at clothes that are going as cheap as ten bucks. and seriously, they are nice! my heart and i believe the rest of their hearts were itching to buy!!! hey guys, lets cure that itch and go back(WITHOUT our bag) and go buy some? i need skirt and an another top!
went to take my specs! AHHH!! FINALLY got it! can wear on non-pe days le! if i dont have afternoon pe (which, i WONT!trust me!) i can wear on monday which is a rather tedious day. haha. i love my new specs.
i bought a new pencil case! AT LONG LAST! i was almost going crazy with my spoiled deyi national day gift 2003 pencil case! the zip was spoiled and i had to use a safety pin. *pulls hair*
haha. okie, time for my sleep therapy! wish me luck for 2.4km tomorrow!
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3:20 PM
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Tuesday, January 18, 2005
selfish thoughts pulsing through me today. feels like i am being pulled apart. one moment, i will have this thoughts going through me. the next, i will catch myself thinking that way and reprimand myself for it. i dont mena any of the thoughts. serious. but they just run through me.
the most, super big selfish thought i had today was when my mum came home. i was doing permutation and combination. then she came in and complained about how a customer accused my dad for accusing her of stealing when she brought back an item that was place wrongly in her plastic bag
(confusing huh?). so she came in and started shouted. not once. but she keep repeating the same thing over and over again. it got on my nerve. and i caught myself thinking, "cant she keep quiet? i got the point. and doesnt all these things come with the package of opening a shop?etc etc" the rest is rather horrible. but, i felt bad after that. cause, my parents had been working hard since 6 in the morning since they wake up to send us to school. so when they meet this kinda problems, they need to vent. just like how i vent on my blog. so isnt it rightfully right that i at least listen to them?*sigh*
i shall just leave it as that ba. too many thoughts about that topic.
wishes: my sister will find some job that she truly like.
my dads shop will stop having this kinda customer troubles(its like the 3rd since this year start! it
nv happened before!) and business will be prosperous.
pass screening test.
爱或伤害 都是活过的证据
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10:55 PM
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Monday, January 17, 2005
whoops. no 2.4km today. and we were all fretting over it today for nothing
. in the end we did screening test for sit up. ONLY! then had "trial" for standing board jump, did dips, star jumps and push ups. i think thats about all.
BUT it is CONFIRMED that we are running 2.4km on thursday morning and we are gonna do our standing board jump test. 
i am so freaking scared! wish me luck people! even if you had wish me luck on saturday already, WISH AGAIN! cause i need it. alot. haha..*innocent grin*
anyway, i just reached home!! haha. was in my dad shop stoning and helping out at the cashier while my dad read the newspaper about, what else? SOCCER! haha. arent you glad that singapore won?! for those cuckoo bananas, who are too blind to see that, yesterday match was a sure win for us, please, go bang your head on something hard. 
okie, i am waiting for my mum to call me to help her cook my favorite Hakka dish-"Lei Cha". so am gonna laze about for while. help her cook then its homework homework all the way! gonna choi finish econs essay outline and hopefully maths tutorial 2. the dumb dumb weilin actually finished it! ber, charissa and snoopy too! see lah, you guys stress me sia! okay, i shut up. haha.
MAG!!!red sea!
if only wishes could be dreams and all my dreams could come true
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Sunday, January 16, 2005
downloaded msn messenger 7.0 (aka msn messenger beta). uber cool! can write out the words! haha. but not everyone can see. so all you people out there go download it so i can kajiao you guys with my horrible handwriting!!! haha.
okie, wasted away my saturday AGAIN. was playing game the whole day. helping dad do some stuff. watching helsing. haha.
kk. better go finish my GP compre DRQ so i can make it in time to watch Tiger Cup Finals.
Go Singapore Lion! or whatever they are call.
i gave up everything i had on something that just wouldnt last.
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Friday, January 14, 2005
You giggle hysterically and then stop yourself when you notice the huge smile across his face. "Ive only heard you laugh that way once before." "When was that?" "When we were younger and Id tickle your ass off!" he says before he jumps on you and starts tickling you. "Haha, stop! I give up." "Again?" he asks with a smirk. "Whats my reward?" "Your life," you say sarcastically. "Yes, you are my life." He kisses you until you feel like your lungs are going to burst.
from quizilla. its corny i know. but sweet?!
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oh and just in case you guys haven notice. at the bottom of my entries there are italics words.
these are lyrics i like! haha. or lyrics that descirbe how i feel or what i want my life to be like.
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huishan the shopkeeper.
haha. i just love helping unpacking chocolates, tag them with the price tag and then pass it to my mum to put it up on the shelf. came home at 2.30pm today then stayed in the shop to help my mum translate the dry clean service price list from english to chinese(gonna type it out later). then, i helped to unpack the chocolates! yummy~! just looking at the chocolate makes me wanna drool..haha.. then theres a new chocolate from cadbury! its called 'old jamaica'! its rum and raisin!! yummY. but its nt as good as the ritter sports de cause the rum taste not as strong. oh well..*shrugs*
had gp comprehension test today. *yikes* but i didnt hand in. not yet. brought it home. i thought the passages were rather interesting. but then again, i am against eating meat! haha.
just reach home 1/2 hour ago. better go and enjoy the rest of my friday. its work work work from tomorrow afternoon onwards! i hope so.
I feel safe with you. I can be myself tonight. It's alright, with you. Cuz you hold, my secrets tight .
You make me wana la la, la la la la
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Thursday, January 13, 2005
its back with me. safe and sound.
but my 68bucks. how can things go so wrong? it is the right cable.
i just want to hide myself in my room, under my covers and never come out and face the world again.
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AM down on luck.
firstly, my 68bucks cable doesnt work. if i am rich, i wont mind. but i am poor. and i can find better use with the 68bucks.
secondly, i borrowed a maths book from our school library today and left it in my dads shop. he go and give the bloody book to some auntie who collects old books to sell. now i have no idea whats the condition of the book.
thirdly, i am starting to have serious stitches once i start running. it was never there. and i have a huge possible i might fail the screening test which is REALLY sucky. sigh.
i m going crazy. thinking of the 68bucks i just want top cry. thinking of the amount i have to pay if i lost the book i just want to die. thinking of failing the napfa test, i get so disappointed with myself.
might as well be dead.
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Wednesday, January 12, 2005
Your Passion is Purple!You've got a ton of passion, but you don't always wear it on your sleeve.If something truly excites you, you let your inner intensity shine through.But otherwise, your passion tends to morph into energy ... which you never lack.You're a balanced woman, knowing when to turn on the fire in your heart.
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okie. i have one more part of maths tutorial to go. it seems like the graphs are getting easier. so maybe practice doesnt ALWAYS make perfect but i know practice do make things easier at times cause you will eventually develop your own personal method in doing the question. Ahhhh..the wonders of maths. many methods of achieving the answers.
anyway, i've had it with the pc-link cable. i still CANT load the pictures. help! haha. i think i m going to stop trying;seeing how i spend my ENTIRE afternoon and evening doing it. shall try again tomorrow or on friday when i am more relaxed/less tense.
btw, my shoulder muscles are tense. i can feel it. its like they are super hard.
forgot to mention that i had lunch at some jap place with ber charissa yuting weilin and heli. as usual we laughed quite alot. and weilin IS (as usual) very entertaining. the pea thing was funny. i still hate terriyaki chicken. it sucked at yoshinoya and it still sucked at this place. and theres too much fat meat as weilin put it.
whee. the joy of going out with snoopy and gang. i go to new places to eat!
3.2km tomorrow. am kinda looking forward to it. gonna run 2.4km and see how i feel after that.
shall be in bed before the clock strikes 12. and asleep before the clock reaches 12.45.
lactic acid be gone!
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i am super down on luck. either that or the world hates me. thats not much of a choice huh?
been scrying for my PC link cable since december. then i found it today! i bought it for 68bucks! *heart bleeding* then when i went home and try it wont work. i was so damn tired and everything but i called the shop and they told me to go back and change.
so i took a cab down with my mum. and stood there and wait while they tried out for the correct cable. found it and brought it home. it can upload my phonebook's messages but not my photos! AHH!! i think i am going crazy! its 68 bloody bucks! and i STILL cant upload my pictures.
it IS the correct cable. i checked it with the website. AHHH!
bloody hell! pc link cable why cant you just WORK?! W-O-R-K..work! ahh.. i need a man. a man who can settle all my technical and pc problems! so i wont have to bother myself like this.
and i havent do maths. snoopy and friends, lets boycott the dateline for GP. lets hand in nexxt friday. okie?!
Ohhh it's as if you know me better than I everknew myselfI love how you can tellall the pieces pieces pieces of me
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my favorite amazing race couple
kris and jon-the amazing race 6
this couple is super cute. can you believe that they are actually long distance dating?
even when everyone is stress, they are still so supportive and patient towards each other. not bite the other's head off like the some other couple!
my favorite scene was when their car broke down and the guy had to push it with one of his legs outside the car. they were not arguing even then! they were laughinh non-stop. and kidding around. so cute! haha.
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Tuesday, January 11, 2005
i completely threw away my 'image' today. but i dont give a damn! i was yawning and stretching openly in my dads shop and while waiting for the lift. i am just so bloody tired. my legs are aching like nobody's business. haha.
anyway, there was no gp today! so school ended at 12.10!!! so me weilin yuting charissa went to watch "Meet the Fockers" at J8. it was super funny! but i think within the whole cinema, we are the one who laugh the loudest de. bleh. anyway, walked around abit, came home and helped my mother translate stuff into chinese. and i discovered my chinese is "rotting"(<--direct translation)..i cant think of some of the phrases at all. haha. anyway, came home around 6.30. fell asleep on the sofa and my mum told me go to my room to sleep cause i might spoil my back bone curled up on a one person couch. but i refused cause i havent bathe! so she dragged me into her room and made me slept there! haha. it was refreshing, i felt better. now i am just clicking around on my computer. listening to music on Yahoo!Launch. i think i might go do maths later. ee..just now got alot of things to say now all gone. kk. end le ba cause i nothing to say le. i miss my "me" time. hai. no more thoughts. and my blog is all gonna be in this style. gonna get boring. even i get bored writing this. oo.. i shall be back to talk about voting day. Hope you know that when it's late at night. I hold on to my pillow tight. And think of how you promised me forever(I never thought that anyone).could make me feel this way.
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Monday, January 10, 2005
breathe through the mouth. breathe through the mouth.
i need more O2 to get rid of headache.
but i seem to run better with the nose. hmm. i will use both.
anymore running advice?!
i have a good PE rep. thanks!!
(though i am quite skeptical about the eating more part to run faster. haha.)
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hello! i changed my skin again cause the previous one was having so kinda trouble and it is getting on my nerve. but i like this one too. the colour is brown. just like my school uniform. haha.
came back from school 2.5 hours ago. sat in my dad shop for one hour reading the newspaper. no idea why. but i can actually concentrate there even with all the noise. and yet, i cant concentrate at home. i m HALFWAY through the paper. haha.
ran 3.2km today. well, i ran around 2km then i walked for the rest of the rounds. frankly, i was rather tired and my head is throbbing. it always happen! whenever i run, i feel like i am having hydrocephalus(head filled with water)! my whole head will feel so heavy! miraculously(did i spell it correctly?), my feet were ok. just my head. haha. next week is my screening test!!! i must pass! i will NOT go for afternoon pe. i WILL pass even if it means i will die of exhaustion! jiayou huishan! jiayou!
i have maths tutorial one to do. but the pressing one will be econs ECN(it stands for 'Economic Concept Notebk' i just found out!  ). better go. kids central ended and some tamil show is blaring on and on and on. time to take off my contact lens(cant wait for new specs!), change the channel and do ECN! haha. ciao.
oh yeah. diner dash a rather nice game to play especially when you want to de-stress. i played the demo. now i just want more.
Too bad that you couldn't see.See the man that boy could be.There is more than meets the eye.
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Few hours later...
A doorbell was heard. It was Ruby looking enchanting as before. She stood there and came inside giving me a hug. "Vicki! It's been such a long time we seen each other! How are you?"
I smiled, "I am fine! So how did you and Nic break up?"
Ruby looked a bit sad, "are you still mad about me because Nic was with me instead of you? Well I want to tell you one thing Vicki! Nic and I are step brother and sister. We were never boyfriend, girlfriend. I told you to believe me but you wouldn't. In fact you started to hate me. I am sorry about not telling you earlier."
My eyes started to water because not of what she said, it was what Alex said before. I hugged her and Alex came into the room.
"Ruby!" Alex said happily. Ruby let go of me and ran over to Alex and hugged him.
Tears kept streaming down as I watched them hug each other. I quickly wiped them and said, "Hey it is starting to get late! If you guys don't go then you won't be able to go!"
Ruby tugged my sleeve and smiled, "Why don't you come along with us Vicki? So you won't get lonely!"
She looked at Alex and Alex shrugged, "Yes Sure! Come along Vicki! We are planning to go to our favorite bar!"
I opened my eyes widely, "the one with my favourite mango slush?"
Alex laughed, "Yes! So are you coming?"
Ruby laughed as well, "You two seem like a nice couple!"
Alex said, "We would be but..." he put his arm around her shoulder, "you are here and I love you!"
I put a hand between their faces, "Okay save the sweet talk for later. A mango slush is waiting for me!" I quickly ran out of the door.
to be continued..
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Saturday, January 08, 2005
this is what i did today. slept. woke up. eat. watch tv. read. slept. woke up. game. eat. bathe. sleep.
i woke up at 2pm. watch helsing the japanese anime. then read. fell asleep while reading at around 5. woke up at 7.
i have maths tutorial. and econs ecn. but, i m so tired. tomorrow i have to go to cheng san community centre to collect my edusave award. its a waste of time. i have to wake up at 9 tomorrow. reach there by 10.30. listen to the VIP talk, listen to a string of name who i dont even know then my turn. wait for the VIP to leave then i can go. and my mum is planning to bring me to go buy my undergarments and maybe new specs. by the time i reach home, i will be shagged. but then, since i did nothing today, i have to do it tomorrow. sigh. oh well. just my luck.
huishan, jiayou!
love's a broken record thats been skipping in my head.
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Friday, January 07, 2005
Ugly behavior of a AMKSS-ian
i cant believe it! an upper sec ang mo kio secondary school student just cut the queue at the bus interchange this afternoon. and you know whats worse? when he got onto the bus, he wanted to tap his ez-link card before me(yes, he cut my queue). *rolls eyes* whats the hurry? is he scared that he is not going to have a seat later?! well, ANYWAY, you guys know what i did? i was pissed so i shoved my ez-link card before his and pushed his hands away. ha. and you know what was his best punishment? an old granny was standing behind me, so when she saw him cutting the queue, she screamed at him! haha. he was so bloody embarrassed. and i smirked at him when i saw him looking at me. ha. serve him right.
A story about the boy who wanted to buy cigarette
Was sitting at my dad's shop today keeping my mum company and since tomorrow is a saturday. A guy from chong boon secondary school who is obviously NOT 18 years old(can tell by the way he wear his long pants and he WAS panicking) came into the shop and tried to buy a box of cigarette. And when my mum asked for his IC, he cant produce it. So of course my mum didnt sell it to him cause a) he's not 18 b) its not morally right and c) if we get caught, we will get fined super heavily.
so he went down the row of shops and got it at a newly opened shop(you can get cigarettes there even if you are not 18, they just sell it to you). so he walk all the way back to my dads shop with his little 'playgroup' and lighted a cigarette right in front of our shop and i think he was scolding some vulgarities(it was in tamil and i cant understand). Asshole! May your lungs rot in hell(no offence, but seriously, smoking's bad?!)
i got rather pissed. but after a while, i wanted to laugh out loud and wanted so badly to shout at them so that i can tell them this --> let me see you guys lighting a cigarette in front of my dads shop again, i swear i will cross the street and go into your school and tell your principal about your litte 'activity'. how stupid can these guys get? i can easily help them earn two canes on the butt. ha.
seriously, what are kids getting up to these days?!
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Thursday, January 06, 2005
i am having a little 'break'. haha. ok, i admit. i was just itching to come online and look around. snoopy and gang, i am NOT reading story quiz.
been trying to squeeze out econs essay for the economic impact of the tsunami since 8pm. then i got called for dinner at 8.30. then when i went back, i was called to eat fruits. then i went back in around 9pm. sat there for one hour. wrote half an essay and i was so bloody dissatisfied. it was so untidy! so i threw it out and wrote it again. then, was told to go bathe at 10.05. urgh! distractions distractions distractions. when i came back, i realise there was no structure! but, i am too lazy to change since i have already written 2 full page of essay! if i rewrite again it will probably take me forever!
anyway, slept for an hour in the afternoon! shiok! especially after my 7 rounds. it was torturous! i was having a headache! but after a small nap, it was better!
i have a confession to make.
i was suppose to start on my essay at 6pm. but i woke up at 6.30pm. then i was so absorbed in the book "Can you keep a secret?" (its very VERY nice by the way) that i forgot the time. and i m going to go off in 5mins to complete my essay then i am probably going to read till 1.30am! haha. hey, its friday tomorrow! no harm sleeping late right?! haha.
sometimes, i feel like i am being taken for granted. but sometimes, i feel like i am not a good enough friend.
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Wednesday, January 05, 2005
Unmistaken Truth
I had always fall in love with my best friend but I never told him. Maybe it was because I was too shy or maybe because it was just me. Maybe it was just me. Well we had been living together ever since we finished university. We had been best friends ever since we were small. Oh what great memories they were.
We told secrets to each other and almost anything because we trusted each other. Well this afternoon Alex came rushing into living room and closed the door lightly. He looked so happy and kneeled down on the ground. He suddenly saw me and screamed with joy. He stood up and ran to hug me tightly. I gasped as I was running out of breath. He kept hugging and then turned his head to face mine and kissed me against my lips hard.
After a minute or so, he let go and started jumping in the air with joy.
I took a deep breath and wiped my mouth as I asked him, "What happened today? You know, you can't kiss me all the time whenever you feel sad or happy. People are going to think we are a couple!"
He pops onto the couch and grabbed an apple to eat, "Who cares what other people think?"
I slapped his thigh and sat beside him, "Well I do!"
He took a bite out of the apple and handed it over to me, "Oh come on Vicki! I mean you don't lose anything right? It's not like I am super duper ugly to match a beauty like you! Here take a bite!"
"True but still. Well you are not going to get a girlfriend if people see you kissing me!"Alex took the apple and kept eating it, "If no one wants me, then you will have me then!"
"Yes, sure! Like I want a dummy like you! Well end of that subject! Tell me what happened today! Usually you kiss me because you are happy or sad about something. You don't look sad so it must be good!"
He stared at me , "You sure do know me well Vicki!"I played with his hair, "Well no duh! I been living with you for years! I even feel like your wife or your lover!" I said laughing.
He smiled, "Well there are two good news! One of them is DAD AND MOM ARE COMING HOME SOON! Can you believe THAT? I can't! I can't wait to tell them all the good news! Oh man! I even told them that I have a girlfriend and is going to propose to her too!" He said laughing and blushing and started jumping around with joy again.
I jumped up as well too, "What REALLY? Aunty and Uncle are coming back?? You got to be kidding! They said they were going to visit around the world though! They are already finished! That's fast!"
He rubbed my head, "Well it is a small world! Don't listen to geography! You little bookworm! You are finished school remember!"I gave him a whatever look, "Yes so what did you say before after you are going to tell them the good news? What is the second good news too?" I said as I was rubbing back his hair.
He started running away, "I told them I have a girlfriend and I am going to propose to her!"I stopped right where I was when he said that and blushed, "Who said I am going to marry you?"
He stopped where he was as well, "Oh of course you are!" He walked up to me and took out a small red box. He kneeled down and said, "Will you Vicki, make me the happiest man on earth? Will you marry me?"
My heart was filled with flutter and was about to say yes and hug him when he suddenly closed the box and stood back up. He laughed like crazy, "If only Ruby rejects me though! Woah! You should have seen your face! You looked like you were going to say yes."
I felt my heart rip apart when he said that. I wanted to burst into tears but I held them back. He had a girlfriend already and was going to propose to her. He didn't even tell me he had one.
I stood there staring at the ground blankly. Alex suddenly touched my shoulder, "Hey Vicki! Are you there? Come on! I was only playing with you! You know our relationship is just like Good brothers and sisters!"
Another reason for my heart to break apart. All these years, he was now only saying we were only good brother and sister. I could really feel my eyes sting but I still held them back. I came back and stared back at him and punched him lightly in the shoulder.
"You actually believed I was going to take your ring! Che! Give me a break Alex! Of course our relationship is only brother and sister!" Every word I said stung my heart. I pretended to look happy and laugh.
to be continued...
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home at last. was released at 11.40 today. cool! since i am cca-less, i need not stay back. theres cca bazaar but me and grace decided to skip it. so me, heli, weilin, yuting and charissa left school at 12 and left for J8. had kfc for lunch. and i m going to have macdonald's for dinner tonight. sure get fat de lor.
tomorrow have morning pe. 2.4km again! if you think i sound excited, see that big chunk of white thing in front of you? its call a wall. please go and bang your head.  when have you ever see/hear me sound excited for running? haha. and my legs are still achy. the comforting thought? tomorrow i think i will have people who will walk together with me. haha. please let me have the determination to at least run 3.5rounds!
anyway, J8 have become the RJC territory le. just now, i keep seeing people RJC people around. sadness. anyway, i think me weilin heli etc might just go out together and buy clothes soon. i hope so. i havent bought my new year clothes.
my E600C PC-link cable is out of stock everywhere!!!
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second day of school and i am already feeling like i have been back for a month or so.
ran 2.4km on monday. argh. almost died cause i havent been running for 2mths!
so now, i have alot of lactic acid in my legs. more sleep will do the trick.
i have pe on thursday morning again. horrors.
haha. san visited my blog!! OMG! san! super long never see u le! hope u are reading this!
miss ya lots and lots. to sivan, cynthia and mabel, that doesnt mean that i dont miss you guys too k?! okie, i see a SPP outing is in place.
sivan, cheer up! kelvin too! but he doesnt read my blog o.O?! oh well. felt weird asking him if he was ok just now and when he said he wasnt, i didnt know what to do. dont dare to ask him tell me cause we are not THAT close. just hope he will be ok. sivan, you too. can talk to me if u want to k?!
anyway, i m stuck on my maths tutorial one! haha. its curve sketching, curve transformation and etc. and i though drawing simple curves and doing simple transformation in secondary school was hard. this is nightmare on elm street! so, i have cracked my brain really hard, but i have only manage to do qns 1. haha.
i went and dye my hair black. nandwani was asking me if i have funny colours in my hair. so he knows. but weird, he only notice it 6mths after i have dyed. so now, my hair reeks of the smell of dye. and it feels like barbie's hair. even though some of the colour is still visible, its better now. i hope it doesnt wear off. cause i really hate to dye hair. it damages my hair quality!
i found a way to straighten your hair by yourself. blow it dry. serious. they blew my hair after they wash the dye off. and it was straight. really really straight. it would be nice if i was a bit tan-ner. but, i am fair and i had a bleeding lip so i looked like a jap ghost. haha. but, i dont think blowing ur hair straight is a good idea because the more u blow ur hair, the stupider you get! serious, i read it in a magazine!
been a rather long entry!! so better end now.
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Tuesday, January 04, 2005
A girl and a guy were speeding over 100mph on the road...
Girl: Slow down. I'm scared.
Guy: No this is fun.Girl: No it's not. Please, it's too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? It's bugging me.
(In the papers the next day)A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure. 2 people were on it, but only 1 survived.
The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke down, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.
i've always love this story. the guy is so sweet.
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Monday, January 03, 2005
story about a girl who ran after the bus
this is the story of a girl who always run for her bus. but, she never succeed.
she will catch up to the bus, the uncle will either:
a) never see her
b) pretend not to see her.
so, everytime she catch up with the bus, the door will close and the uncle will drive off no matter how hard she waves.
the worse experience she had was at J8, she was sick with flu and she was walking to the interchange when she saw her bus 55! so she sped in her heels! heels i tell you! and she caught up! the passengers all saw and may i add, heard her running. but the uncle who saw her while the last passenger was getting on board just drove off. and the girl have to wait at the bus stop for another 1/2 hour with her head against her knees and sniffing non-stop.
and the same thing happen again today(but instead of sick, she was going to be sick). she ran and she miss! and she jumped at the bus stop and attracted quite a few stares.
therefore, the girl have promise herself not to run after buses anymore.
because she is just too embarassed and wont be embarrassed anymore.
PS: if you are so thick and dunno who the girl is. its ME!!!!!
now you can laugh.
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Sunday, January 02, 2005
school starts tomorrow.
i spent today lazing around and looking around for files to put my worksheets in. haha. i m determine to keep all my worksheets neat and dog-ears-less. haha.
i m going to miss lazing in bed till 1+ in the afternoon. haha. and watching scooby doo. and watching sesame street(especially elmo's world). sigh.
anyway, i discovered many people's new year resolution this year is to get a boyfriend/girlfriend. mine? haha.
lets see.
1) to be more independent
2) to be nicer.
3) to work hard and have self discipline.
yup. haha. to get a boyfriend? neh. it will come when it comes. haha.
oh yea. i have to buy a new pencil case!!! and my pc-link cable! caus emy hp running out of memory space! haha. whee..maybe can go out after school! cause we end early almost everyday!!
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Saturday, January 01, 2005
i love typing minutes. yes, minutes for meetings.
but, i seem to have lost my touch. i was adding on to what sivan typed out from what i write that was when i
realise how i didnt pay any attention to the meeting that day and how little i actually wrote down! OMG!
haha. sigh. but, anyway, i will improve de! i love typing minutes!
@ 11:40 PM
| wished.hoped. waited.dashed. |
shans 
