my birthday is in less than 2wks.

yahooo. haha. M18 movie here i come.

9th with SPP and hopefully the Juan gang + gayathri + Ranjan + Lai etc.

11th with the family. wonder if my sis can make it home. hehe.

cant hardly wait.
@ 1:47 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

@ 1:24 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Claudia, you remembered 63% of the information in the Memory Test.

But research shows there's a lot you can do to improve your memory. And if you do, it can help you function in more ways than you'd think. There are 6 main types of memory, which help us interpret and store different types of information. You scored highest in delayed memory.

That kind of memory allows you to transfer information from your short-term memory to your longer-term memory so efficiently that you can recall it shortly after you first encounter it. This can be taken as an indicator of your long-term memory potential.

But this represents just one of the six categories of memory that keep your mind sharp and allow you to function every day. How well did you do in the other areas? How can you improve your memory to make life easier and keep your brain active? What does the way you process information say about you?
@ 1:08 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

back from helping my sister at her cafe/bar.

its a one day only job.

i'm beat. but i think i got over my fear of working abit.

time to search for job with mabel soon. since weilin and sandie both decided to work for their father and relatives respectively. leaving me alone. SPP should know the rest of the story.

so, its the horrible duo. me and mabel. we havent been put together ALONE for two years. so lets hope we wont start clawing at each other. haha. SPP should know why.

i cant feel my legs now.
@ 2:06 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i think i need a shrink.
@ 1:25 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

back from job hunting with sandie and weilin.

tired. i really hope the person call us.

i am tired.

a question. can you imagine me clubbing?

cynthia laughed REAL hard when she mentioned it on the phone on monday. i just remenbered. i forgot how to spell remember. *horrors*

haha...

brain+brawn drain.
@ 4:01 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
@ 1:08 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i am having stomach flu again.

farts galore. save me!

bug in my corn. ew.
@ 3:25 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

heres the thing.

know how i've been going on and on and on about wanting to get a job?

well, the novelty have kinda worn off after all that talking abt jobs with sandie, weilin, cynthia and sivan.

i am actually quite very scared to be theown into the working world.

i like my routine of waking up in the morning, read my book, use the com, watch the many ancient movies i recorded, watch the 8+9 o'clock show, bathe, read, sleep. then repeat. its comforting

if i start working. all that will be destroyed. i'm scared.

help.

but i have to thank cynthia. she called and brought me through a whole interview. and we kinda chatted like in the sec ones day. i will try to be braver de.

this baby has to grow up. somehow. force her please.
@ 1:16 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i've completed my 550 pieces puzzle. actually, it was completed on sunday. at 5am. was trying to fit in the last 4 pieces. it took me 1.5hours before they fit into the gaps miraculously. here it is.


i feel accomplished.

now i'm stuck with nth to do. i've cleared my room the very day As was over. my cupboard was cleared too. not by me. by my dad and brother who very kindly did it for me while searching for my ic the day before As started. and, i must say, they sure know how to squueze. look at it.

before, the books were piled on top of each other. slanting in one direction. collasping. now, with two book stands sponsored by my brother, they are standing upright! when my hp4 comes back, i'll have to ask fr help to put it in. if not, it will be messy again.

i need to work! lobang anyone?

@ 11:56 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i love this picture <3

makes me want marshmellow so badly.

by Nocturnal Devil at deviantart.com
@ 10:07 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

remember my craze over bsb songs back in the alevels period?

its still not over.

i like their videos!

any other songs other than their millenium ones? anyone?
@ 2:06 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

my puzzle is 3/4 complete:)

i am quite "irritated". weilin, ask me to organise the class gathering with her. ok, organise together means decision is shared right? nope. she ask me questions, i answer, she goes along with it. i mean, its not possible she agrees with everything i suggest right? what if i say likes do outdoor coking that night? hmm.shes just happy that a date is set. time? place of meeting? grr..

and i got the job of smsing nandwani.

but, she offered to help/spilt sms-ing the rest like ramya. *shivers* not like someone i know of who wants people to thank her just becos she invited one person. hmph. even if it was jokingly.

and, heres what i am really pissed abt, that probably got me so irritable. i msged yunqi cause i was in charge of her clique. fine. i decided to be nice and sent her the msg i sent the rest. smiley face and all. then she replied asking who i am. so i replied with me name. and guess what? she dont bother to reply me. i try to be nice to you u dao me right? fine. so i replied with every details abt the gathering. and for her ESPECIALLY, i added,"if you dont reply, i take it you guys are not coming. and you better dont show ur face on that day." hmph. i nice, you climb onto my head. how can you be away from ur phone the whole day? or the very second u sent a msg? bugger off.

do i have the words "class gathering organiser" stamped on my head? cause i have been organising 2/8 gatherings, SPP gatherings, the gathering with juan lai etc. i mean, if you guys really miss each other so much, why dont you get ur butt moving and do something?

dont tell me you are busy. in case you havent notice, i took my As this year. and i got the time. i did it once because i really missed you guys and thought maybe i shld get the ball rolling. bot noo..you guys keep expecting me to do more. and graduallly the thanks dies out.

i have to thank heli though. she every sms always say, "thanks for organising". hee. and the above/below apply more for the ancients not the present. if the hat fits, wear it.

newsflash: the presents and gatherings you had for your respective birthday this year? the two of us had to meet at weird hours like 6+ or 7+ to go buy it. she either wait for my lesson to end or i wait for her. all the gatherings are organised by us. with some help from another person occassionally. do you think we are nt busy? sometimes, we even have to meet up before our test the next day. i hope you guys appreciate ur presents. and agreeing with everything we suggest, or leaving everything up to us, IS NOT CALL HELPING.

i dont want to see, "sorry shan! i'll organise the next one." or "we will take turns". i have had enough. dont bother to say you're busy or you want spent time with so and so.

in case you guys donts know(other than snoopy n gang, san, lai), this has not been an easy year for me. i have been sick for 1/2 of the year. went through 2 scary period of suicidal phase. were u there? u read my blog, tagged. but did u guys do anything more than that? sms me? even kelvin can do that frm just reading my nick. ivan can see that.

i dont know why, but these things just floated up suddenly.

once again, if the hat fits, wear it. i may not be talking abt u.
@ 12:22 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

it ended 2 days ago. haha. i felt...ok. nothing much. numbed.

came home and cleared up my room after potter-ing with snoopy+gang. then slept like a *oink*

haha.started on a 550 puzzle my sister gave me. but i suspect that some pieces are missing.

now my mum is cleaning up the whole living room. throwing away everything. haha.
@ 1:31 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

its been a great sucky sunday.

i planned to finish my micro-economics topic today. and my macro tomorrow. but guess what?

my body screwed me up.

i slept at 3am last night. and woke up at 8am today with a stomachache. its so damn bloody pain. its those kinda pain that i had when i was in primary 5 and had to go home after my spelling test. its not at the left or right side. not at my cramp area. its right smack in the middle of the stomach.

after i took a whole bottle of bo chai pills, i keep letting out gas. hahaha. and its giving me a headache. and the stomach still hurts.

so know, i have decoloured lips. with nothing done. crap. this whole Alevel thing is not really my thing is it?

so far, it has caused this year to be my worst year. as in, i've been sick more than i have ever been in my secondary school days.

let me pass. i am aiming ABA and a B4/C5/C6. *pray pray pray*
@ 7:37 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

lookie! a roxy bag. haha. its my sis birthday gift. if she doesnt want it/leave it at home, then its mine/i can borrow it~haha.

i never have any ROXY thing. too ex..

but do i wear this as a sling or short? help?
@ 1:09 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

@ 1:00 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

hai. hai.hai.

gp. ha. i want to laugh and cry. paper one. i wrote the essay before in chinese with my dads help. and it came back with a "you" meaning excellent. and guess what? i cant remember half the argument my dad and i brought up last year.

paper 2. ha. bernice, kill me! there are passages about war and competition in that book. i didnt read the one on war. i did for competition. but guess what? i didnt have time for AQ. ha. my summary. haha. my weakest. still is. bye bye.

just start praying that i will pass ok? i need it. i am feeling down now.
@ 12:24 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i want go visit my cousin!
@ 1:44 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

my brother has gone for his chalet. whoops~

hahaa. seriously, maths paper 2 was sucky. i finally know how to solve that very SIMPLE complex question at the last minute. and then i keep making mistake with my long division. so bleah. 15 marks gone.

i dont know what i am going to get for the papers i took.

if i aim B for geo, it seems preety far fetched since i didnt finish a 16 marks question and i blah my way through DRQ cause i wasnt thinking. maths? as always, i am hoping and praying that my paper one will pull my overall mark up till A. i want an A for maths. you hear me?! A! because if everything were sucky(touch wood!) and i get an A for maths on my cert next year, i will be less depressed. seriously. maths. my pride and joy.

but then, i will get A for maths! and B for geo! and A for econs! hahaa. yyou believe me?! i believe me!

tomorrow is GP. all i can say is, wish me luck. loads of them.

i will miss maths.
@ 1:31 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

first day down. not going to say i will do well. or how bad i will do. cause i have said enough to the dark one and the kangaroo and of course my folks. i dont want to jinx it.

if only my time management for the other paper will be like this one.

i have to admit. backstreet boys been playing over and over again in my ipod and cd player. the songs from their millenium album. i know! ancient album. but its nice. quite sappy. but suits my mood. especially today. if only i discovered it earlier. i mean i listened to it and woke up. i like the corrs "all the love in the world" too. keep replaying. and of course, last one --> "Killing Me Softly" by Kimberly Caldwell from AI2. hahaha. sappy songs.



yuting! stop thinking of what you're gonna do after A's! hahaa. but i do that too. too much. i am actually going to turn into weilin and charisaa and catch a tawin ou xiang ju!!! hahaa. and of course some secret missions i cant tell. muhahaha.


i am nuts.
@ 1:54 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

my mum is moving into my room.

cause she thinks i will sleep better with the lights off.

i kinda dont like it. cause with the lights, i always can read/write till quite late. i can do thought sorting(?not fluvial). but now, i cant. and, i can sleep perfectly well with the lights on.

we'll see how it goes.

my whole family is stressed about the As.
@ 1:53 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

some cute/lame thing to try:

http://www.deviantart.com/view/17048183/

http://www.deviantart.com/view/16030545/

http://www.deviantart.com/view/16804095/
@ 1:50 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Daily Overview for November 04, 2005
Provided by Astrology.com

Quickie:
A special someone will make your day a jovial one, full of silliness and giggles.

Overview:
Everybody needs a break in the action every now and then -- and a change of scenery can't hurt, either. You're so due you can hardly stand it, and you've been itching to travel, so go!


right. show me the time for travelling then. show me. i'm waiting
@ 1:53 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

my com got sound!

the plus side of having the com crashed?!

but my iTunes is still empty=( and its still susceptible to crashing cause my drive C is half dying but not quite there yet. i think.

geez.
@ 2:12 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

the past just keeps coming back to haunt me..

take a look at this.

yup. thats me when i am 11? i got this off friendster. someone(not one but 2!) have been putting this as their primary photo. give me a break. please. and i dont even know who they are. BUT i do have a pretty gd idea of the person who gave this photo. and i am going to kill him.

save me, ber(u're in the background!)! haha.u're the only pri sch mate left thats saint.

everyone is looking for their primary sch mates. including those in townsville. hmm. whats up with that?

@ 1:28 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is

Mutual, after a great conversation about your future and feelings.

You Are an Intense Kisser

When you kiss, it's deep and powerful You don't take kissing lightly Your kisses always have meaning And they always make your head spin

@ 11:58 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i did an econs essay today. was suppose to be practising my time management.

i did it in 50mins. not bad for me, i think. but then, this essay i did was with an answer outline i did beforehand...hmm..

shall try again tmr.
@ 11:22 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i wish i can say smt meaningful. but...

nah.

brain's dead. going back into that dark tunnel of despair.

or depression as nandwani puts in.

can i have smth to help me slp?
@ 12:21 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Your Ideal Relationship is Casual Dating

Maybe you're looking for love... But mostly you're looking for fun. You could get serious with the right person. For now, though, you're enjoying playing the field.

@ 12:09 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.