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Saturday, July 30, 2005

kids make me smile. well, pictures in this case.

"Smiler" by JHills

well, i cant find much. but this is cute enough. haaha.=)

my bones are too lazy to start working.

@ 3:02 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

parents' day today. it seems to be the main topic for most people's blog entry today too.

well, not too bad.

Maths: C
Econs: O
Geography: E

General Paper: D7

got one extra mark for geo that made me passed! thank goodnesss. if not, it will be C O O.

nandwani said, its shouldnt be a problem that my maths can get B and Econs an E or D for Prelims. Geo a D or even better. so, yeah, thats pretty much what i will be aiming for prelims. but maths i am kinda hoping for an A. so i better pull my socks up.

the same stuff. saying that i need to persevere for better results and never give up! he always give a kinda look when he told me to persevere. i think he knows how hard it is when you are mugging at the hardest but your results is not as good as those who mugged a bit lesser than you.

here's the comment:
"Huishan is a responsible and pleasant student. Although hardworking and conscientious, she has under performed in the mid year exams. She has the potential to do very much better. Must continue working hard and persevere."

yup. funny i have been getting the same stuff about being pleasant, conscientious etc since secondary one. pleasant? i think he ran out of descriptive word. hahaa. oh and my conduct was Excellent. whatever that means. but i think its good.

theres no percentile!!! damn. was so looking forward to my maths one! but sigh. its a good thing too since the rest of the percentile will be rather low.

oh. and herein lies my last day of late night. hope i used that word correctly. my dad "complained" to nandwani about my sleeping pattern. so nandwani asked me to change. said i needed more sleep. and he told me to keep him informed about whats going on. whatever that means. but then, with the same amount of slp i get, i can last longer than my fellow peers. hmm.. but well, lets give it a shot. like nandwani said, if all else fails go back to the old way. so one weekend, its till 3am and weekdays, 1 am or even earlier. hahaha.

ok, back to more maths. i am sure you are sick of reading "nandwani saidd.." .i have labelled thursday and friday as my maths day. saturday as econs day (so now you know when not to piss me off) and sunday as geography day (so you know when to keep your phones on so i can bombard you guys with questions). haahha.

@ 12:57 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Thursday, July 28, 2005

thank you guys =)

just realise i have been too critical nowadays. gone were the days where i approach my friends and ask "whats wrong?" when i feel something was up. come to think of it. that radar is gone. geesh. so, sorry people if i have been mean to you guys! but sometimes, i just dont feel sociable? thanks for always being there =)

but my opinion for still stands for some. because thats been bugging since last year.

haha. notice the mood swings in my pass few entries? i think this is my worst PMS. hahaa. now. do dark choclates screw up your mood and milk chocolates spur it during PMS?

bottom line? smile people!

@ 12:36 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

funny how fast this week passed. even my mum found it fast! tomorrow is thursday! gosh. when thursday hits you, the weekend will come rushing by and before you know it. BOOM! its monday and you are 7days closer to freedom(i refuse to say doomsday)! ha.

well, i finally finished the partial fraction and binomial thingy. now, that means theres still like 13 more pure mathematics topic to go?! great. just great. how am i supposed to finish last year prelim papers before prelims?! i mean, after prelims, we better start looking for other school's paper to do right?! *sigh*

oh, who cares. i will take it as it comes. all this stressing is not doing me any good anyway. been getting headaches. and feeling dizzy after i start working. must be some psychological thing?! oh! something is bitting my legs! either that or i am sprouting mosquito bites "again".

oh! i have to say sorry to charissa for abandoning her today. we were suppose to stay back and study today. but i went home in the end. reasons? a) i was feeling a slight headache. b) the time period was too short. i mean 2-3 hours?! i cant accomplish much i think. c) after my pork incident with snoopy and gang, i am yearning for some of my mum nice home-cooked meal in the afternoon.( it was good, by the way. full of vegetables, mushrooms and my favorite steamed egg!!)

funny how i seem insignificant or slipped out of people's mind who i thought was my friend. life's unpredictable.

"..scientist say marriage is just a way to pass on our genes and to reproduce. a means of survival. there's no lifelong love. but that doesnt stop people from searching for that miracle.."

@ 8:06 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

MY MUM PASSED!

thank god! but theres another one 3mths later.

@ 8:00 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

this is irritating. how am i suppose to go to school tomorrow without worrying?

my mum going for mammogram tomorrow. and my sister is supposed to go with her. but she dont think she can wake up that early.

and i dont like the idea of my mum going alone.

and my dad is saying that it is not big deal. it is. he is just such a MCP. he knows nothing about being sensitive.

i am angry with him.

if my sis cant make it tomorrow, i will probably skip morning school if my parents allow and come back for the afternoon.

i'll see how tomorrow after geo.

@ 12:45 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i dont know whether your blog entry is about me.

but DO YOU WANT to hear about my schdule?! do you want to hear about my life?! if you want to spend more time with your mum, arent i doing the same?! and dont i have more reasons to?!

everyone wants to spend more time with their family. dont speak it like we dont. that by spending some of our time with our friend its like we abandon our famliy. we do because we realise, there must be a balance.

the bottom line is whether you make time for your friends. if i can do that, i dont see why not u?! i am not asking you to call us out every time or regularly. but once you see a probable day that you are free, msg us. thats how i work. once i think i may be free that day, i push all things aside and meet you guys. you guys are my priorities. even if none of us are free that day, at least we know, "hey, she tried".

san's busy too. she can do it. cyn too. she can do it. and they are in the poly system too. just in case you say i dont understand since i am not in that system. oh, and cyn works too. did i mention that?

this may sound like some mushy crap to you guys whose not involve. but its my way of showing her.

and take this as my resignation from the PSL Alumni. as you said, i need more time to myself and to my family.

oh. if you think i am unfair. SORRY. i wont bother you about any monthly gathering from now on.

enough said. i am suppose to be in bed. CAUSE I AM SICK. get lost.

i ate pork today. pork?! i dont even chicken or fish(other than mac and fishball)!! pork?! *pukes* been feeling sick and oily ever since then. ~guilt!~

@ 12:29 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Monday, July 25, 2005

i met lots of weird people today. first, my dad customer refused to leave and stayed there in the shop and "preached" me for an hour. attempts to rescue me from my mum was hopeless. all i can do was throw helpless look at my mum.

after that, when i managed to escape and help my dad hang up those little little flag thing out at the shop front. a drunkard came out and show me his IC. and refuse to leave and talk in some incoherent language. my dad, thankfully, "saved" me.

i was freaked out of my mind. but i couldnt share it with anyone. my mum was experiencing pain in her arms again. the other half of her body too. she's in her "die liao..then no worry" mood again because she moved her appointment forward to tomorrow. compared to her worries, my problems seemed so superficial.

it doesnt help when your brother is treating your mum like a personal maid. and when you ask your mum to leave him alone, she refused. and when you nag at your brother, he just ask you to shut up and you are just too tired to get in a fight with him. and when your dad comes home, he is so tired from trying to make ends meet, that you dont feel like troubling him with this stuff. and you barely see your sis at all(even if you guys dont really talk when shes at home).

maybe i am feeling this because of my PMS. but then again, maybe i have been feeling this way for a very long time. who knows.

suddenly, i remembered promising ling, juan and dawn that i will not cry so easily anymore in secondary 4 when we first know about my mum's condition. but its hard. and i am trying.

shes going for her mammogram tomorrow. i hope she will pass it with flying colours. 3 more years and she will be in the safe zone. 3 more short years.

charissa: i am not angry. just vexed and disappointed i guess. its okay now. i am feeling much better. and it doesnt seem that big a deal anymore:)

smile, shan. smile.

@ 4:21 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

lai will always be lai. talked to her just now(am still talking to her).

so funny. she ah..never change at all. well, she did turn slimmer. LAI!! heard that?! u are slimmer!!! we must think +ve thoughts to get a +ve body image!!!!

this is her nick:

"Right,my prince is on his way. I'm sure he was on his way but a truck hit him."

that kinda describe my feelings towards relationship now. except that i think mine is being kidnapped. and if they dont release him soon, i will have to go and knock on their door. hahaha.

yeah right.

60 days till my cousin return from overseas study!

oh and dark chocolates shall be called darkies from now on!!

@ 12:50 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Sunday, July 24, 2005

i can finally transfer photos from my phone to the computer! even though its kinda expensive. i have to do it via mms. anyway, i sent 5 today..so thats $4.20?! *shivers* but i can take pictures now!!! here are some:

nice nice. hahaa...i didnt expect the images to be so "clear" since mine is a VGA camera.

@ 5:24 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

wasted 6 papers today. 4 for econs essay and DRQ, 2 for 4qns of maths.

all i did today was econs essay and DRQ! damn. tomorrow i have lots to do.

dunno what i want to say. its late. bedtime!

@ 2:50 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Saturday, July 23, 2005

Rage!
These days getting angry is all the rage!
We've got road rage, air rage, phone rage, supermarket rage ...

Here's what's interesting about rage:
it's usually not what happens to us that makes us angry.

It's when we expect one thing to happen –
but something else happens ...

EXAMPLE:
You are driving on the highway and you decide to change lanes.
You EXPECT the guy in the next lane to make room for you –
but he doesn't!

You EXPECT him to be considerate – but he isn't.
So you get mad.

The problem here is not the other driver.
It is your expectation that he should be nice!
Expectation sets us up for disappointment and anger.

Most people in the world won't think like you
and your plans will often go wrong.

So the less expectations you have about the world –
and even the weather – the better life gets!

Three more tips for keeping your cool:

1. HUMILITY HELPS! Angry p! eople tend to believe that:
a) they are more important than everyone else, and
b) that they are always right.When they don't get what they want, they get angry!

Relax a little. Allow for others to sometimes get what they want.

2. DECIDE WHAT IS REALLY IMPORTANT.
Rank events in your life, say, on a scale from one to ten:
You might rank having enough food to eat at 9 out of 10.
You might rank having a job at 7 out of 10, idiot drivers at 2 out of 10,and slow elevators at zero.

When you have things in perspective,you don't get upset over details.

3. ACCEPT WHAT IS.
Angry people love to argue with reality!
They say things like, "It shouldn't be raining!"
or "Thieves shouldn't steal!"It is a waste of energy.
When you argue with reality, reality wins!

IN A NUTSHELL
There are six and a half billion other people on planet earth.
For them to sometimes get what they want,
we sometimes need to go without.

extracted from "Happiness in a Nutshell - Newsletter #55" by Andrew Matthews
Register at http://www.seashell.com.au/SubscribeNewsletter.asp

@ 12:43 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

just came home.

met san today. hahaa. watched "The Island" not too bad, but it was kinda long. by the end of two hour, i was asking, "is it ending yet?" and when it did? i actually said, "yeah". hahahaa. but it was an interesting movie nonetheless.

anyway, i bought the ADULT version of HP6!!! from popular. those cunning cunning people actualy placed the adult ones at the counter, but if you didnt notice, you will be tricked! so while i queued, san went and asked for me! wheee!!!

lots of things to read, do and watch this weekend. theres HP6 to read. Bring it on and ET to watch. and of course the never ending homework!

oh oh! i bought dark chocolates! 24 pieces for $5.80. kinda expensive huh? but, its NEAR to impossible to find dark ones in singapore!!! so me and san tried one, and it was heavenly!!! the wrapping was nice too..whee..i am definitely going back to action city in bishan for more darkie!! yummy! i got a feeling that cadbury in my fridge will be there for a LOONG time. or maybe not too long, depends on my rate of consumption of the darkies.

tireD! going to eat now. then watch lost and do MCQs. slacking day! i am taking these as my weekend already. so that means i have to work hard during weekend. hahaha. gambatae neh!

when i lost faith in myself, i am glad that i actually have friends, teachers and family members who believe in me. they believe i can do wel for A'levels. thank you. i needed that.

@ 8:30 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

huishan the housewife.

came home and operated the washing machine for my mum. -_-"

had fun today. too tired to elaborate.

meeting san tomorrow. at last, someone who takes the initiative to ask me out. or at least fulfil their promise to. alot of people have been saying, i will call you out! and yet, theres no news after a long time. cyn is definitely not one of them. sivan, you are one of them. i dont remember you calling me out except for PSL alumni meeting.despite the promise that "we will take turns to organise gathering" thing you agreed with mabel on the SPP blog in march?! sorry.

i have a good idea not to call those who dont bother to call me out next time when i organise a gathering.

as san puts it, " i am sick of always taking the initiatives to call people to go out.."

@ 1:30 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

what if i say i want to quit the alumni? seriously, how can it function when not everyone in the committee is clear of the job of the others? why do we even bother when the principal doesnt even appreciate our help? she shot my cousin down and i take it personally. and does mrs ong even know about it? its hard to explain where i am going to my parents when i go for alumni meetings cause they might relay the message to her. she found the bloody thing, doesnt she have the right to say when it ends?

i think my commitment level to the alumni is every bit questionable. but then, its up for you guys to decide. anyway, whats the point of contacting those people who are hard to contact? so if they express their interestm will be 100% confirm that you will be able to contact them again when you need them? yes, its just an estimation of manpower now, but what if we really need them and we cant contact them? the teacher will think that we are just a bunch of big talkers. this is what i wanted to say on friday, that is if we didnt keep drifting off topic.

WE HAVE NO SOLID MEMBERS.

@ 12:21 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

guess what?! i went for GP lecture today! *claps* so did the rest of the class. i think mrs too was quite pleased with herself cause she thinks her "threat" worked. guess what? i think people will start ponning soon. as soon as that threat wears off. muahahaa.

came home around 3+(casue i couldnt catch up with 135 and had to take 133 which was much longer). read the papers or should i say browse?! hahaa. anyway, in the end, i had to go home and help my mum unplug and remove our old washing machine and set up the new one. the new one was won at some community centre dinner( i won a HUGE bear there a few yeears back), and it came just in time. betcha didnt know there's actually alot of components to a washing machine! i thought u just need to plug in and bravo! WRONG! my mum and i were fiddling around until the water can flow into the machine and can come out. and we have to move the HEAVY machine from the living room to the kitchen. tiring!

by the time everything was fixed up, i still have to translate everything from english to chinese for my mum. and then when the machine was actually working, i have to sit there and wait to see if it works and help clean up. damn. i didnt even sleep in the afternoon. and when everything was done it's already 6+.*faints*

i did nothing today again! i feel so damn bloody guilty. but then i did have quite a laugh with my mum when the machine started spinning without water and keep on beeping.

*yawnx*

@ 12:44 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

ok. scrap that.

i dont like him. period.

he pisses me off.

i will stick to liking kids!

*goes off singing "single" by natasha bedingfield*

@ 2:01 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

first something's to say about yesterday.

i sort of screamed at ber yesterday about her results. i'm sorry! i know it is a mark away from the next grade. but look on the bright side, at least you get two A'levels pass! look at me! a pathetic C for maths and 2 'O's! imagine how hard i have to work to just passed while you can work equally hard to get a better A'level pass? see? i am a bit testy on the subject of mugging and results. cause i am so tired of being tired and so tired of being alright when seriously, all i ever want to do is to throw the books down and call it a day. yeah. thats why i screamed.

had alumni meeting too. was quite alright i guess. seriously, since i am not on the committee now, i dont think i want to get involved. cause, i dont like being treated like a spare tyre where you just call me when you need me. thats not what being a grp is about. sadly, this has been the case not just for the alumni.

TODAY!

received exciting news in the morning! i am so freaking happy and excited! shared it with san who promised! *grins* i practically cheered when i was told about it.

then i watched the tv shows i taped. and before i know it, time to rush out to meet cyn. originally wanted to wear skirt, but thought it was too flaunty so changed to jeans. wore the topshop shirt my sister bought a year ago and didnt wear cause she got bony shoulders. hahaa. lucky i am a bit rounder than her. as in my physique.

208 gathering wasnt exactly great. but its definitely great laugh. ?! the guys were all crapping and doing stupid and funny things, it made me laughed and laughed. seriously, i havent laugh these much in years. thanks guys! it makes me miss them so much. and of course, it wouldnt be call a 208 gathering without them teasing me. *rolls eyes* and of course, i said quite a few "wrong" things, and ended up getting laughed at and teased. hahaha. love ya guys!

of course, today will also be the day i stopped sms-ing susanto and vice versus. wonder when we will start talking again. weird. ask me if i still like him? seriously, i got no idea.

it was fun. but i am so tired and i havent done anything at all. i walked home with cyn and the guys! seriously, the journey was SHORT. hahaha.

so many shit happening. at least today was fun. i love ya guys!

@ 1:10 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Friday, July 15, 2005

" Lots of people

want to ride with you in the limo,

but what you really want

is someone

who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down"

-Oprah Winfrey

dont friends do that too? they judge you by your grades at times. its as if you dont have the right to worry or ask for additional help, when you are strong in a subject.

@ 12:05 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Thursday, July 14, 2005

yesterday, i was panicking during maths lessons. cause i was afraid that i wont have enough practice cause all i have are papers that miss ng gives everyone. and i dont have tuition, that means i dont have any other source of questions (anyone wanna share?!). so i was msg-ing kelvin telling him. then he told me to relax. and proceed to suan me which in a way, was quite comforting. hahaa. then after that, i kinda breathe. haha.

anyway, my middies result are COO, with 2 subjects missing a point to move up to the next grade! namely, maths (from C to B!) and geogrpahy (from O to E!). damn. oh yeah, the maths hod came in during lecture today and degraded the arts people. i feel like slaughtering her sia. what kinda teacher is she?! she is suppose to ENCOURAGE us! hello?! for her information, i just need one more mark to get B okay?! shit her. stop saying that we are scalar. i have goals ok?!

saw how weilin planned her week. and i feel so LAZY! she plans to write essay every other day. *faints* the one essay i am supposed to write every week is making me so stressed already! and she wants to do it every other day?! hai. i think she may be pushing herself too much. so people, we must JIAYOU! but please, dont feel guilty if u have a rest day! cause thats nt good. haha.

from my knowledge, theres two people so far who gets 2 Alevel pass. walter and weilin. AHHH!!1 and i dont have. *cries*

@ 9:25 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

4 hrs of sleep in 2 days. and today is a LONG day. i am amazed that i actually made it through. tomorrow is ESSAY day! hoorah?!

tonight, i am going to bed early. i am not waiting for any sms-es anymore. moreover, my sister is home, so she will nagged if the lights in the room are on for too long. dead beat.

another "O" for physical geography. what can i say? hai. disappointed? yeah. but at least its not an F.

okie. i AM DRAINed! bedtime!

@ 12:56 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Monday, July 11, 2005

was bubbling in a happy mood today. hahaa. nothing can bring me down! hahaa. why? probably because of the many sms-es exchanged ystd. hhahaa. i sms-ed until 3am and proceed to wake up at 6. -_-" but despite the little amount of sleep i am deliriously happy.

well, after i collapsed from exhaustion at 5pm and woke up, the feeling of happiness was gone. things that i just let go in the afternoon, came back and bother the hell outta me. that and i realise how MUCH homework i havent complete. grrr. and it has to do with the person not replying my sms-es. pfft. didnt even bother to conclude, like say see ya or something. nope.zilch. i think i will probably receive a sms at 1+ am saying goodnight. and thats about it. and we will only sms or keep in touch say..6mths later. -_-"

oh well. i realise i cant do maths at all. as in the midyr paper. so i guess, 59 was all i can get. either that or cause i am really brain dead now.

oh guess what? i actually pass my GP P2! my first ever pass! theres still paper 1 though. not much hope there. hai. i actually turn a GP paper into an Econs Essay. Die huishan! die! not good.

long day tomorrow. lets pray i will make it through.

i hate it when he does that.

@ 10:04 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Friday, July 08, 2005

got back my econs paper today. got 42 thats an 'O', a step better than F. i am pretty okay with the results, i guess. or maybe its because my MCQ wasnt quite that bad.

well, and i definitely get a confidence boost when nandwani called me to stay back cause he wanted to talke to me. i thought he was going to ask me to revise the way i study or something along the line that happened last mid-year.

well, then he told me that my weakest paper is my essay. and that i have the concept cause my MCQ has been steadily improving. and he said, "i know you did study!" that gave me a good feeling. cause he is the first person/teacher who said this to me despite my lousy results. cause all along, the teachers all say, "you guys didnt study, hence that lousy results." right?!

and then he told me that i am the kind of student who he/teachers wants to push to achieve higher grades. he wants me to aim for A or B during A'level!!! hahaa. then he kinda retracted. he said, " the 'A' we hold first lah. we must see how good your essay improved.." whee. not one teacher have told me that before! not even my maths! no! no teacher told me that! i think my eyes just lit up! whee! then after all these, he got kinda awkward. cause he wants me to write an essay each week. hahaha. so yeah, thats what i am gonna do. damn. the HUGE workload per week. hahhaa. thats one day gone from my week casue it takes me one day to write any essay. sigh.

but i shall work towards my 'A' or 'B'! whee..seriously, nandwani is a really different kinda teacher.

Lyrics below. "Single" by Natasha Beddingfield

Don't need to be on somebody's arm to look good

(I like who I am)

I'm not saying I don't wanna fall in love 'cos I would

@ 9:11 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

the good things about my parents. no matter how mean i am to them, they always brush it aside.

hehe.i was extremely irritable for the first half hour of the morning cause i only got 2hrs of sleep the night before. so, when my dad came in to woke me up and asked if i wanted breakfast, i shouted, " you and mummy very noisy ah!" and proceed to cover my ears with my pillow.

after that, i ignored every single question he asked me. rude. haha.

but when he knew i wont be meeting ber or weilin downstairs before the lesson, he slowly drive me around and was late to open the shop. hahaa.

and i was just a lazy bum out and out for the past months. i didnt even help to clean my room, my plates, mop the floor. hahaa. and i was not exactly nice to her as i was super pissed with mugging in general. haa. and she didnt even nagged me to help. she even cut me fruits and brought me snacks! hehe.

i dont think i can do the same next time to my kids. i will probably whack them on the head once they are rude to me. haha.

@ 7:18 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

CHERRY GARCIA!
You scored 70% SWEET, 62% CHUNKY, and 51% UNIQUE!

cherry sweet cream base with cherries and fudge chunks

Awesome...you are one of my personal favs: Cherry Garcia. You fall in the middle on all measurements- sweet, wild, and unique, but not overwhelmingly so on any of those. You make a good friend, able to share your unique perspectives on things, and able to have fun without winding up in jail or something. Good job.

@ 1:28 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

oh. i know they dont read my blog and you are probably bored of hearing their names.

santo and kelvin has been under attack from me on saturday and sunday. hahaha. nonetheless, i am glad i get to talk to them.

seriously, if i dont go "kajiao" tat two monsters they would never EVER come and talk to me.

you know, i talk about stuff to susanto that i can never ever talk to the girls about. cause it will probably irk them out. like he said, " they probably share it with their boyfriends only."

ahaha. that aint the case for me. i can talk about it witht he whole of my "horny dynasty" committee! hehehe. miss them lots. now, if only billy will actually do something instead of just saying, " lets gather and talk one of these days.." ahaha

@ 1:01 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

wheee...watched 3 vcd/tapes today! i watched "Hope Floats", "Spiderman" and "The Incredibles"! wheeeheee.. "Hope Floats" wasnt as nice as i remembered and the guy looks horrible! oops.

anyway, MIDDIES OVER! hahaa.

how was it?

if i was to dwell on everything thats not good..heres the lowdown.

16 marks was left undone for both geography paper one and paper two. so i am screwed. thats geo. gp paper is english right? well, i turned it into a econs essay about the standard of living of a country. then paper two was kinda hopeless cause seriously, i was feeling hopeless. econs was sucky. my mcq was sucky, my paper2 was sucky, my paper 3 was worse. 16 marks left undone too. maths? well, i wish i paid more attention to normal distribution so i didnt have to throw that EASY question outta window. i wished i had more time so i can actually do more qns. attempt more questions. i wished i at least spend some time on it!

in short. not good not good not good.

hahaa. but i am not one who looks back and groan. it was kinda hard to squeeze those outta me.

i am pretty glad that its over and i can breathe awhile before i submerge myself in furious mugging again. yup. =)

i will probably suffer or breakdown when the results are in.

for now, i am a happy happy girl.

cheerios.

@ 12:49 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

Saturday, July 02, 2005

was talking to susanto and kelvin just now. well, for kelvin, the conversation sorta go like this.. "i will say something then he will go ,"stupid"..something else.."idiot" etc etc. occassionally he will say more than two words.

haha. nw, both of them suddenly busy. must be playing some game.*shakes head* best. i asked santo a question and he leaves it hanging there. -_-"

@ 10:01 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

thats the link to the quiz. maybe someone random will actually score better(like aiseong!? o.O) haahaa. that was a surprise.

http://www.bebo.com/quiz/1857718a998311266b83

@ 4:06 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

in lewd of how much i have been spending ($150+ on books and comics!) over the past months, i surrended my atm card over to my mother. i think it will be safer there. for the first time ever, my bank account have have hit below $100. *faints*

went to watch war of the worlds with heli yuting and charissa yesterday. it was excellent. hmm..but a little different from the book. but nonetheless, do you know the book was written in 1893 o.O? thats like so long ago but the author can actually think of all these stuff thats pretty modern!! steven speilberg did change the scene a bit to fit modern society. you know, divorce family with isolated kids and all. it was great. definiely worth the $9.50(even though my mum kinda looked alarmed at the price when i told her).

sheesh. loook at what stress have done to me. $150?sigh.

anyway, i got this "how much do you know me" quiz on bebo. and some of my friends scored pretty badly. but then, i think some of the answers are REALLY close. for example the one about food! well. yeah. nad why do everyone think i spend alot on food?! hmm..

hahha. oh well. off to watch tv!

ps: i bought 3 more books yesterday! and i found my narnia series! i lost the last book i think. anyone want to borrow? its a whooping good read!

@ 3:57 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.