initially i had quite alot to write.

BUT! now i'm watching this movie call "The Sweetest Thing" and i am laughing till my stomach hurts. its really bimbotic. hahahaa. right. so i changed the keyboard to the new one for nothing. hahaa.

anyway, i realised after being in so many "cliques". there are some that i will never truly click with. well, i am just like a leech sticking to them or something like that. after we graduate, i'm never at called out for gatherings and neither of us bother to keep in touch. i guess cause we have a lack of topic to discuss about since school have ended.

but they are kind enough to let me hang on to them in school. haha. so that i wont be a lone soul in school that requires either drifting from class to class. and especially dealing with stresses of major exams.

and if you ask me how i feel abt it? well, i feel weird. i cant exactly pin point that feeling. used? left out? nah. hahaa.

seriously, i am not in the mood to be serious. the movie is super funny. hahaa.

anyway, sandie!!! how are you?!! you still out there? so long never talk with you le!!

i got an offer from nus arts and social science. :) decision making time.
@ 11:11 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i just love the orange feeling.

this is taken brfore it rained. a clear divide between the stormy clouds and the not.

@ 11:58 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

just looking through the photographs.

and i realised its really simple to differentiate between friends who are here to stay and friends who are just another passing memories in my life.

i also realised that those who are here to stay are people who i really really miss. i miss the comforting feeling i had when i am with. despite my frequent complains of their endless teasing and how they dont stay in touch as often as i like them to, i still love em lots and lots.

and these friends are people who you can still keep a flow of conversation despite not having met up in eons!

so..

juan ling lai san sivan cynthia mabel susanto gayathri kelvin eddy joshua allan chin leng vincent and everyone who were with me in deyi secondary school. who saw me cry in the toilet, in the middle of nowhere and saw me laugh and embarrassed myself, i miss you guys!! i miss the way i feel when i am around you all. i can just sit back and listen to you all talk and not be afraid that you all might think i am being dao or anything. lets meet up soon k??!

i dont know how to express the way i feel now. but hee. memories! ahhh~!

hahaha. and it all started because of juan's testimonial.
@ 2:54 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

hahha. i cant believe i am saying this. but election is so exciting~!

hahha. i keep hearing msgs in different languages. but i cant spot the lorry/car thats playing them. hmm..hahaa. and i didnt know that if lee hsien loong do not win the election, he cannot be prime minister!! *gasp* now, that got me interested.

because i eally cannot think of anyone other than him to be the prime minister and anyone other than PAP to take care of ang mo kio. hahaha.

about my employment status? i am still jobless. and i have ran out of books to read. but i still have TROY and PRIDE AND PREJUDICE to watch. but then, i dont feel like watching it now. hmm..

i may be going to church tomorrow. its been a year since i have been to church. so, i might as well take advantage of my unemployed status to go to church.

i love my new keyboard! its so nice to type on. haha. but i am afraid with the constant plugging and unplugging of the keyboard, my port might spoil!!! oh no.

anyway, how do you make someone realise the importance of doing homework? wait for them to fail their mid-year? but thats too hard a fall aint it? but then again, if he wont listen to us, i guess thats the price he has to pay.

ok, i am going to unplug the keyboard le. -_-

and here comes another PAP message. ahhaa.
@ 2:38 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

please let ling get into ntu business.

i want kajiao her for 3 more years!!

after being in the same school with them for 6yrs, i wish it will continue. juan's in. saran's in. all i need is ling. hehe.
@ 12:38 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

raise ur hands or holler if i've told you to change your outlook on life.

i've asked you to stop thinking that its not going to happen or to think that you're not gonna make it/fail. the reason being that if you keep on thinking tha way, theres a one in three times that its NOT gonna happen.

i just realised i've been going ard telling this since sec one.

and i actually forget abt it last year.

I DIDNT TAKE MY ADVICE.

haha.
@ 8:23 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i'm un-sociable at times.

i cna be super sociable at times.

but when i'm pissed with you, dont assume that i am just in one of my un-sociable moods.

cause half the time, i am not. you are really getting on my nerve.

and i dont pretend that everything is alright when i am pissed with you.
@ 12:51 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

what i have learnt is that it doesnt hurt to be selfish once in awhile. dont always believe what people tells you. when they say they are not going to do it, that doesnt mean they really arent going to do it. they always have the right to change their mind later. and if you are not smart, you will believe them and then in the end, you will be at the losing end. i'm not sure how mny of you knows what i'm saying. but hell, as long as i understand is alright. isnt it? i told my mum my thoughts on these and she agreed with me. she said i'm just so gullible at times. that maybe i should learn to be a little bit more selfish and not treat my friends the way i do.

then again, i'm not sure about you guys but if your friends came to you with a problem? will you stay and listen? knowing that you will end up having zero personal time? or would you walk away?

me? i will stay and listen. i cant live with myself if i know that my friend is feeling troubled and i am not there to share it with them. i mean, even if i get enough me time to make myself feel saint again, i will not enjoy that time. because..well, i just cant do it. so, is that considered as stupid?

my friends used to come to me with their problems. but now, they seldom do. and i guess, i find that really sad(?). i dont know. but people grow up. they move on to different things. and anyway, they are not obliged to come to me with their problems. yup. so, yeah.

people often say they miss me. but then again. what do they miss about me? i mean, its easy to say you miss someone. but seriously, what exactly do you miss about the person? their laughter? their silly actions? or that comforting feeling they give you when you are aound them? hmm..so peeps, next time please state WHAT you miss about me? hahaha.. right. its just nice to hear that people misses you any-o-how. so i guess i shouldnt really care about which aspect of me they miss. right?

its interesting how one of my secondary sch mate view me. and i wonder if most of them have the same views. hmm.. well, one of my sec sch friend, susanto, was telling me that he get the impression that i get along better with guys than gals. he thinks that i have more guy friends than gal pals. is that true? interesting aint it? so how do you view me?

i have something to clarify. i have no objections to pre-marital sex. but make no mistake that i am an easy girl. i am NOT the least easy. i may openly discuss these kinda things with you but i am NOT easy. get it? if i ever know that anyone thinks that i am EASY, i am going to SMACK your head until you find it head to even look up. get it? i just dont object to these kinda things. but i am nto interested in it at all.

like how i am not interested in a relationship right now. i know some people might say that, if it comes, you cant stop it. to me, thats crap. when i say i am not interested, i am NOT INTERESTED. even if its Julian Hee or Josh Hartnett. so people, when you see me being friendly or going out with guys and such, i am not the least interested in them in any romantic kinda way. i am just purely interested in being friends with them.

just need to voice that out. cause i have been getting this kinda crap alot lately. i mean cant a guy and girl be friends? when i am nice to a guy, either a) he thinks that i am interested in him or b) my friends think that i am interested in him? gee. leave me alone. i treat guy friends like i treat my gal pals. okay?!

this is a looong entry eh? thats cause i am finally typing with a keyboard. usually i dont type using the normal keyboard. i used the on-screen keyboard de cause my keyboard is very DIRTY. hahaha.

anyway, good news. i got offered to do Business in NTU.

my mum is funny. she dont want me to do Psychology. so now i can do Business in NTU. but she thinks that NTU is too far. haha.

jaun and saran got in to Business too!! AHHHH!!! if ling gets in too then that will be wonderful! poor things. can t run away from me. i will keep kajaio-ing them till god know when.
@ 11:41 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

oh yes.

if you've read TODAY on saturday, you will find this interesting article call " Tax my money, not my sanity".

and i feel insulted by it.

i mean, yes, i agree that our bloody phone system is very long winded and draggy. and half the time when you try to request for a form or IRAS pin via the self-automated machines, the forms were not sent out.

but then, its not our fault. our referring to us. the poor people working at the call centres.

and excuse me! yes, i agree that in one way or another, the amount of tax that you are paying is contributing towards our pay. but thats like only 1/ 1000000000000 part of my pay. and can you read english? either that or you have never pay taxes below. if you look at your NOA carefully, right at the bottom, below your taxable amount, it says " Thank you for contributing towards nation building!". so, hello?!
@ 12:36 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

i love mean girls! such a nice and funny movie. haha.

gonna buy i. if i get rich-_-

the guy in the movie loook good. jonathan benette i think hes called. lookie*points*

cute. haha. look like josh hartnett. hmm..ooohh..the guy sitting opposite me at work look a lil like him. hehe.

lindsay lohan is pretty. very. lol.

@ 8:28 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

sales or admin?

crap hours or gd hours?

gd pay or lousy pay?
@ 9:25 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

how do you differentiate between genuine concern from the fake?

how do you guage whether you are being taken for granted or not?

all i know is i'm not gonna play nice anymore.

its stupid. the same things will keep occurrig like a dejavu.

step back, people. this girl needs her space.

on a lighter tone...the guy at work dont look gd in pink. but the hand thing hes wearing today looks gd. haha.
@ 1:22 AM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

first thing first.

i miss my council board!!

ok, now that thats settled. i have smth to say to SPP.

you know how much i miss you guys. i really do. but, heres the thing. its nt gonna sound nice.

i am NOT going to organise another gathering. remember the, "..we will take turns to organise gathering..." i know you guys try to try and organise(and i appreciate it). but just by asking ONCE and when we cant make it, DOESNT count as organising. you have be persistent, even to the extent of irritating, UNTIL we finally meet up. then, thats a success!

i'm thinking of letting each of us to organise our own bdae gathering. or each of us will be in charge of organising the bdae gathering for the one after them. ie sivan organise for mabel. mabel for cynthia. ok?

so, now i'm leaving it at that. i'll wait.

me & san will oganise the last one. this coming thurs. free?
@ 10:19 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

look what my mum bought*points*


-_- no comments.
@ 9:25 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.

my computer

all personalised

my phone

my food stash.

pertty gloomy eh? haha.

i realised that i'm over those crush-on-guy thing. i realised that when i read one of my freind's blog. sorry to say this but it all sound so secondary school. yup:) i like being the childish, kiddish, single me.

a random picture:

i look like an idiot! and mabel is not even wearing hers properly!! grr..lol.
@ 9:17 PM |wished.hoped.waited.dashed.